By the evening of that day only I did discovered the reason why my computer couldn't download the e-mails - because of the cable! When I changed Polina's cable to my computer, it began to download all the post pretty fast. And now how should I remeber the guy who said me yesterday in the morning that the cable either work or doesn't?

Else, I finally visited DCS phone company today, thank God, they're OK with all that Vika wouldn't give them. I also registered my modem and paid for my own phone.

My poor bro was ill at home today... He must have been pretty bad, since he got fever by Sunday and now had to be home... I wonder what happens inside of him that he can't get rid of his cold and it only gets worse... Throat - unspoken needs... no wonder, I guess that happens to him very much, so it's logical he often get cold... especially last year btw! Ever since the autumn... And those polypes... I wander what that could be. I should ask either my work T.B. or T.B. extrasense. I should go to visit her one day soon BTW because perhaps she would say me something interesting about my meeting too, but I would prefer to have both's photos with me.

Also, the situation with the awful restriction on the web-site design was making me mad all three days but now I guess I have found a solution... at least a step - to ask for Han Lin's help in terms of desperation expression, logical explanation and advice expectation. T.B. said it would be quite interesting because that'll be the moment where he'll show how well he can protect his subjects. Interesting :-)))) Would he protect me?

I was late at work today because had to watch 2 Highlander series for yesterday in the morning we still had no electricity after last night break down - for 12 hours.

And I had a strange dream today. Some girl wanted to set me up and succeeded: I was welcoming some foreigner and came to his hotel room. He gave me money asking me to buy something and all of a sudden police came, check me and they say I'm a prostitute!... They register me in police as a potentially dangerous element and I think: God, now I won't be able to leave for living for another country!... I don't know who the girl was, but there was also a strange element: some man, my neighbour was there and as police came with dogs (awul feeling, some of the dogs were actually WOLVES!) he soothed me in his arms. But the damage was done... Interesting dream...

I am reading the book T.B. finally gave me "Woman in man's world" but I can't yet see what type of a woman I am and can't see how to deal with different types yet... Although I think today's idea about looking for Han Lin's protection is perhaps in one way a product, for naturally I knew only manly way of dealing with it, like arguing but was understanding it's unaceptable, and here I've found a womanly way... :-)

My bro is I think 75% Housekeeper type and 25% Warrior type. Very funny is how he makes me become from the heart a housekeeper too what is unproper to me generally... I'm afraid I'm mostly Muse - the most unhappy type. But I discover I can find a point of support in myself...

What is good is that I truly feel that I'm changing. I'm completely calm about my bro (except for his sudden wish to give me dating search advices to which I responded that I'll accept from him only a help in the way of presenting me to someone), I'm happy and calm... I think my promise to him worked as a program that I would have a too hrad time to implement all by myself. And he thinks he can learn something from me too...

Mom says that I have thought not enough if I want to break up with him now. She has no forces to explain, me - to think now, so I will better trust her opinion. After all it would be so unfair now to break my studies, our communication and further meetings we have almost planned, and most of all the way we seem to give each other VERY productive thoughts about changing ourselves... That would be indeed a crime... After all, main thing in this life is to learn, and as about wishes, dreams and event, we never know how either of named things will change in time. So I just relax! :-))))))) And that feels good, ust what I needed. Thanks, bro, my precious friend!

T.B. BTW gave me another good advice how to do thos many things I don't have time for - by little everything. Good thought because indeed when I want to do lots of thi, then of that, I finish by doing nothing because of the lack of time. So right now I'm going to try and start my German reg.form typing or finish the french reg.form.