I've got drunk yesterday with that wine... but strangely it helped me to wake up ealrier what's always difficult on Fridays because mom is already at work when I'm supposed to wake up and I ususally don't.

Joukov came in the morning. Haven't seen him in ages! He was passing by. Still installs antens but now hangs out with his announce in another place what I knew from Slavik because it was near his pre-previous job. (seems the one he has now is better with money)

I think it's moon phases change that impacted my mood so much yesterday - I notice it not for the first time. Today everything is much better. It was the ending of the lunar day of fire when it's good to get rid of annoying attitudes and sins by "burning" them. So, I wanted to go to the park in the morning because yesterday in the evening I had no time to do it and went out to work earlier today because my mom was staying home because of headache. Very funny, today our both monthlies began.

When I got to the park, it was so nice sitting there! It's a warm day and a bit of wind is refreshing, it was so calming, I felt finally a bit of my forgotten now but familiar in old days involving in the nature.

BTW, I'm trying to move my "focus point" in my mind to better perception of the world and Slavic says my feeling of two different persons fighting in me sometimes is a proof that I'm succeeding. I feel it myself - I began again to write poems more often and I begin to remeber how is it to tune in the outer world - scary to think I've not been seeing it fo over a year around me and how much time I will need now to get back... but I don't drop efforts, so I hope I'll finally succeeed to cahnge... just it'll be noticed when it's in the past because it's a very slow motion as always :-)

And bro was so nice today, because I was nice too he was doubly nice... Amazing how with this man you feel the principle of triple reward of pure kind intentions, I don't know if it's because he's such a sweety or because it's the purest unobstacled energy exchange among all people I know or else because he's by destiny my spiritual father for now.

Well, back to the park - I felt an urge to make some Tai-Chi but I couldn't remeber any Tao, still I practiced two moves that I remebered (a beginning of one Tao) for half an hour back and forth in cycle, remembering fast but gradually the right way of doing it (about breath and concentration point etc.) I thought that it would be nice if Han Lin when he comes agrees to show me some short Tao in Tai-Chi because it's a very good practice for the direction I'm moving my focus pont into and I don't remember anything... May be Tania does?

I even forgot why I came and was about exiting the park when I remebered. I draw all my bad feelings and old sufferings and burned them on the ground.

I feel very well all day long even though now it's a very bad energy day and our DV staff is full of indignation for all possible reasons - my head even started to ache by the evening what it haven't done in the morning mercifully.

I ate at a place nearby today that our Marina visits often - very nice and cheap.

Have done a profile html for Irina but not enough time to end, upload it and send to the guy she agreed for (who wrote to me). BTW, she gave me some shoes, I've been going around in them few days and it's OK. And I have guesses now that my hill aches can be not because of salty spike but because of flat-fotness, bones deforming? That's worse I guess... Have to do something with my shoes - the aches in the hill don't pass, although urine compresses do wonders for feet to not stink.

I wanted to go again in the evening to the sea-side and called Tania (perhaps she aslo remebers anything from their Taos) and she agreed but now I'm waiting for her for long already and she's not coming nor calling... Interesting...

Have to write my e-mail replies to everybody I owe it - still haven't done it in all holydays! And end with Irina profile sending to this guy who seems to me to fit her well.. for that to happen before Monday I'll have to go pay a bit to my ISP, but may be my fine-tuning of her page will take that time...

I remeber Slavik agreed to go to the... music gathering? this Sunday. We'll see. I don't know very well what for any more, because I have no money to spend on CDs, even the Queen+ one. Laptev needs a gift but I'm greedy of my blank CD that I have although I think he'd be happy to have at last this McCartney's Off The Ground that he endlessly borrows from me.

Because I've been waiting for Tania, I decided go fetch tomorrow my photos I ordered yesterday and should take today - I ordered them in a central super-market when they have low prices and where I actually came to choose a frame for a pic of me with bro, for two photos I was lazy to bother Roma although I'm not sure about quality but I'll know - there it's even cheaper than he does me for and they have kind of TVs for seeing the photos before ordering them.

OK, now my weekly report to Han and home if Tania don't come. I wonder BTW if he does call at Monday will his voice still make that impact on me? ;-)