What a day today!

I have discovered that my note to Roma was still in their doors. Phone is always busy... I'm afraid that means they moved somewhere with Anna... And I have threw in the kitchen window my Piter films! I will have to do a diffcult research now to get my films back! God help me! I wouldn't want to lose them!

I have made TeNet people come at last and after numerous check they constatated that the cable should be changed. I must tell that the guy who went was nicely calm although I was nervous after trying to get them fix it for a whole week! Now they should change the cable at monday.

Also I got answer for my yesterday's letter to Edward Croning for work about the web-site. He was very mild but he didn't listen to me... I have written a desperate e-mail to him, CC to Han Lin and BCC to Yaroslav - why it's impossible to work like this... After all, they haired a web-designer, didn't give me time to show my skills and require impossible fitting into other's design. I was crying and pretty desperate, I don't think this e-mail was nice. Han Lin wrote that he will e-mail me his comments. COMMENTS! I feel impossibility to work on their terms... :-( And I liked here so much at first!...

Well, but a little ICQ chat with bro have repaired my mood very well! Not perfect but he once again calmed me down. He thinks I'm as obstinate as him! :-) Probably I am, just wasn't realizing that... And he thinks I'm wrong in something about Olga as to my Piter Trip diary entry... May be I'm wrong, may be he's blind, or just his view and her attitude on him differe too much from my view and her attitude on me... I'm tired of thinking of her. But he guessed almost very well my new password and login to the diary :-)

I've bought an interesting book about Moon influences, pretty detailed although little. May be it's a moon influence also today? :-) Good however when emothions are only blown onto you by Moon... Bro, bro, if you knew what's in this heart for you!.. But what to do if I owe this pain by karma? I wish I could get rid of this feeling! But also, there is no other joy comparable nor other feeling that could take my soul so high... Except perhaps if it's mutual... But I guess I still have to deserve it, paying off my debt from past lifes by continuous pain and patience, who knows, may be all life long. And scary that it doesn't scare me, but I'm ready to wait for him beyond death calmly, would it be lonely or not, doesn't matter and I can't change it in my heart...

I couldn't locate Anna through her parent's phone so far but I should do it tomorrow, nor did I contacted Jek for tomorrow's pictures taking... OK, we'll see tomorrow. Generally not a very lucky day. But I try to throw off all negative impressions and just feel happy despite everything again like it was all week long.

I counted to pass to Tanya to invite her to tomorrow's festival... But I was late at work today. I discovered a preyy horoscope site at astrology.com which gave me all my planets placement in degrees exactly! And found few funny features for my web-site to add. I'm leaving only now. Guess, to lighten even more my nervous expiriences of the day I'll just go now home and drink some beer by the way.