Yesterday we had was wonderful weather.

Tania came to me and we went out for a walk. We haded to Roma's work because I wanted to catch them somehow and was afraid I won't catch Anna at her prent's home where she had to be in th evening. I need me films!

Thank God, Roma was at work and his work didn't move anywhere! :-) Roma said that they don't live there for 2 weeks approximately and sent his younger brother to call Anna so that she calls their former apartment owner to set the time to fetch the films. Let's hope he'll find them where I threw them and they won't be damaged!

We had quite a gourmet mood with Tania, eaten some Ice-cream and drank some beer and later smoked fish! I think we looked awesome - two elegant girls eating smoked fish in the street! :-) That was nearby a place where the festival of Modern music we wanted to visit was held and there were many people with beer and in general colorful, so I hope we wasn't looking out of place completely.

Tania had to buy a program to enter - i had one from the girl who went to invite Polina at our office (but Polina is away). We met my rentiers (I thought they should be there for Lena is a musician and Igor is interested in some excentric arts too, but as turned out he wanted only to see some Mongols who didn't come). But we stayed only for half-an-hour because this modern music made us extremely sleepy. I was deciding whether to stay or to go with Tania for she said she'll go home to sleep and I saw som quite guy who I think liked me too (although I was realizing he looks like Denis, so it's most probably already learned lessons).

Earlier Tania wanted to watch again the Fifth Element and I did seduced her to go watch it. We watched the movie and I accompanied her a bit home. I asked her to call back, so that I know she's safe home (for it was late), and it was all fine.

I was reading before her arrival the book about Lunar calendar I bought, discovering and rediscovering many interesting things. Second book talking of womanly ways and nature in one week, that happened to my hands! I think that's definitely something I should listen to!

But I was in a low mood because of Friday's conflict. I shouldn't have snet this letter... But we will wait and see what happens. But as we went out to walk already my mood went better, my heart opened again to ternity (probably after I said once again my short resume to Tatiana-extransense I met on our way as soon as we left home).

Tania find amusing that my bro would feel such a need to make harmony between me and his bride and that he doesn't see what are true relationships from her to me... He thinks she cried when I left because she liked me but judging from the words she said to me earlier that evening, than at the trainstation (that yes, it was difficult to handle me) and her attacks again because of my hysteric on Monday by ICQ, the last thing I would believe is that she cried because of good feelings towards me!...

Also I think I've found out what could be her attitudde judging from her saying nothing when bro hugged me for photo but making hysterics at me hugging him and refusing at first taking a shot including his hugging hands - she told she like when she has some above than partner skills and I'm afraid she des think she can manipulate him. Also I know that she judges others on her own example, so she probably thinks women manipulate men and she feels how dear I am to him, but she doesn't think he can go, she only thinks I can take him! :-) Tania says it sounds very truth-like.

Well, generally she's irritated to hear bout her... I think I always made more efforts than her to like people... Never mind, what's real is that I'm tired to think about my bro's bride... I don't think any more I shoul walk away at all, but 100 times better alternative may is to just separate myself completely from their relationships - let them decide their matters themsleves, for more that for me it's all past, why to meld into learned issues?...

Second evening (as Friday's) I played till late night in Civilization II to relax my brain. And I'm doing better now than before!

We aslo had visit from mom's old friends who live nearby and mom was late back home, then the light started blinkin and I decided to stop playing till tomorrow to finish the game.

Today I wanted to go to the CDs gathering to see for some Queen but I woke up late - I had a wonderful dream and didn't want to wake up. Then I also thought that I should first see if I'll have enough money before Polina's coming back.

My mom was at the electoral point finishing referendum calculations. I didn't have time to go vote... What the matter anyway? They'll do as they want. I finished my Civilization game... I already do well enough but don't yet come to launch a space ship before retirment time as a Prince...

So, I ended up to stay home all day long. I spent more than an hour yesterday on Internet and wasn't planning to be on-line long today, but my mail from bonbon.net didn't want to load and then bro came on-line, so we chatted a bit. I'm afraid I've spent all my money in those two days, that I left at my ISP! And he wanted to open backdoor to my computer as we spoke of hacking! Wanted to show me how helpless the victim could be... I would hate it! So I proposed mutual exchange of openness :-) Although I don't like anyway the idea of turning off my Anti-Virus monitor... But I think as to self-defense turning off, he's the one to think hard also!... And I think I'm learning to reply him on same level when he speaks in his teasing jokes!... I think that's he's the one who could actually make me feel helpless... God save me from him wanting to do so, for it'll be such an awful wound, unless it's a love game! ;-)

And the dream... I have doubts, as my Lunar Calendar for computer is obviously making mistakes somewhere, but it seems it was a 12th Lunar day when TRUE dreams come!... Oh, and I had such a magic dream! Something I believe impossible now in fact... But also warning that I should behave as mild and in womanly soft tender ways as possible (to confirm my victory)... I see absolutely no ways how it coud come true, but God if it does! and the day's saying it will!.... Well, I probably don't have to hope in vain, it could be just reflection of possibilities... Well, I'll just try to go along with my nature, harmony and ADVIENNE QUE POURRA!