I was afraid of reading my mail today... But! Nothing happened - noone replied to my awful Friday hysteric letter.

I struggled all day long for I wanted my bro's birth chart but for him it doesn't give it, the site that gives exact positions for me. Yet, it gave them for our compatibility - chart only, but I can do readings myself, having all aspects on a drawing and may be can even read his chart from those 2 combined! But apart, it wouldn't give me the chart, have some error, gives it to me only as if I gave no birth time...

I discovered also that they're quite compatibl with his bride and he's bound very strong, so very likely for all life together, as their hands say... Well, I knew it all! Just later impressions... may be world picture changes as we change... and it seems to me it does as we met...

First thing I did now is I went out and bought Lunar calendar, once out for work. And had confirmation that my magic SUnday dream came to me in 12th day! ANd also that we met by e-mail with my bro (I saw it in the morning for I remebered it was 1998 and that's they year I bought first my lunar calendar) That we met with my N-bro first (his letter and my answer) at 17th Lunar day, the one when strongest love bonds and marriages are made... I read also in my book how to get away from unhappy love... It's good, I should try... The only thing is that it's written: "Please, understand, when two sould that are close and destined to each other meet, the feeling fires in both"... SO ironic because so it was... Only circumstances wasn't helpful and still not... To his opinion and he's the one who decides everything... By birth day - he's the one who will only do at his own understanding... But that's good noone else won't infuence him bad against me... I wish someone could tell me what that could be - that abvious bond and yet impossibility to be together... Well, could be only what I already know about karma... And I also know that there is nothing that couldn't be changed and this too - in years what'll befell, will depend on the both of us learnings...

OK, i have to go home now. Good news - Roma's brother called and said they fetched the films and will bring me photos tonight! Hourray!

I just believe and go by Hramony... and love. And accept with gratitude whtever bfalls because the most wonderful thing in life for which I can always thank God have already happened to me - I MET my ... half?... I met Him and nothing else matters!