Well, in the morning I was evry nervous, but it happened that mom woke me up one hour before, so I went to the park, stayed there for a while and clamed down very well (if I could do that yesterday probably I wouldn't be crying in the evening, still drinking beer with Tania improved my mood alot)

The meeting with Han went out well, except that I feel he's seriously worrying about my shaky position as to the contract prolongation. In fact he've chosen this day for being his GF's birthday that went out the last and because I asked as always in return to his interest to personal affairs, how are his. He gave us all souvenirs and honestly I was displeased by the baseball player key-chain - do I look like a sporty or kid? He gave the same to Marina but to our rest of DV - very nice medail-type dolphins and sunshine... He's amazingly sincere and soft and helpful, but he wasn't here all day. Good guy, pity, not for me again. I wish I could reach his skill of communication and smoothing!

Well, my final conclusion is that he's just very nice to everyone (incredibly attentive I would say by my expirience!) and he likes me not more than others ;-) OK, there is no way out - I KNOW my personal ways are closed for now, although I was introduced today in a neighbour firm to a very nice gentleman that I think by his eyes liked me but I'm afraid I forgot how to let him know I like him too. :-))) And I want so much to feel love, to feel alive at this wonderful spring!.... OK, let's move out of the subject.

I'm going to order the computer now.

For a week I'm forgetting (since my first park visit) to say that acacia is flowering now and it's such an odor on the air!.... :-))))

It's Norwegian Independance day today, talked to bro briefly - he's so proud of this that I envy him.

OK, now I'm going out to feel spring again and again. God, just don't drive me crazy by all those hormones I have nobody to spend on! ;-)))))))