I was staying at home whole day - wasn't feeling very well. First of all I slept as much as I could because this week I really overloaded myself.

But later I decided to go out - when I don't at all my eyes become like blind by the evening.

I've paid visit to Tania today and she instantly took me out. I had to pass to Roma to give him the film we finished on Tania's birthday.

We then went to a cafe what surprised me as Tania's wish, but as I wanted the same... She took me someplace near her house, explaining she have a rendez-vous and want to talk to me more. We drank some cappucino and beer, eaten fried cheese I tasted for the first time recently with Polina.

We talked a bit about my bro, why he's so incredibly sweet to me who he hardly knows in person after all. "Unreachable ideal"? I don't think Tania is right although if we change the accents a bit, perhaps that's why some people appreciate more friends than spouses - they don't really have to compete...

What interested me is Tania's meeting. She said she's invited to the night club Atlantis by some guy from the EBU (Building Exploitation Unit). I joked that I'll tell everything to Serguey, amazed at how she's attached to him and still... But she answered me seriously and sadly that he will feel by himself - he feels everything. Why then?..

Well, we passed time quite pleasantly talking at the beer and still talking I accompanied her to her house where the guy was waiting. EBU worker isn't expected to be any decent level person but this childish guy impressed me beyond everything - to see Tania who I often believed to be more mature in relationships by nature than I am!

I told her before we met him that if anything she can come to us all the time (as the disco is nearby my and anything can happen on such level, I know it too well). I'm not going to sleep soon in the night anyway - writing (indeed creativity wakes up in me, it seems... God let it be true! I wrote some little part of the novel) and I couldn't feel surprise opnce more although I can only suppose that this period of bars that I've passed, Tania just missed and that's her right to go only through this mistaken way...

Yet, I'm worried for the both of them, working in this system and every day impressing me with the judgments of lower levels (and drunkness, especially Slavik is remarkably mostly drunk to death when I see him lately)... It's scary. Am i going to lose my friends???