This was an interesting week.

At friday at Laptev's Slavik have made ma proposal. Yes, a marriage proposal. I couldn't answer him anything. It was a long time ago my drunk proposal that probably could have sense, i don't know.... I wish that could be for sheer love I would want to do it...

Next few days we passed together, including I had to separate them in privacy from meeting (Slavik and Tania on Saturday) each other. At Sunday we was at his friend's birthday (all three) where they had cousins lookin like twins, stupid TV watching, familial problems, lots of dancing and a carpet sharp like sandpaper. I've got my feet scratched to blood from moving sitting on the floor and Igor fell and got the same on his face! BTW, I won't be able to use his kind agreement for showing me some tai-Chi because I'll have to work tomorrow.

I took also there a parody on Tolkien and the most funny thing I like was the mix up like "He took out Andril, Tern and Greiswandir" and even MuadDib was there :-) - lot of strugatsky influence too, but perversing Tolkien's light ideas... Well, OK, it was funny anyway.

And I've got into another RPG to play Simon. We're yet not playing but getting to know each other and views - hope that'll be some amusment.

Later Slavik disappeared. May be he was waiting for me to call, but Tania, btw tries to avoid me coming to their home because their father hates seeing me communicationg with Slavik... Well, if they are so good kids, thank you they talk to me at all.

At Tuesday my C drive at home made a mess from all files - lost clusters and they were I guess to many - my last redaction of typed part of my novel is lost - I couldn't restore it.

AT Thursday I bought an internal IDE Zip drive and three diskettes because if I lose something on oher drives... Also, I've changed my Philips CD-ROM at last against Teac that reads the best with work computer.

All week long it have been a stress about the computer - all my plans went to hell because with money transfer delay (Vika the bitch again!) I've got it only today. Monitor has very bad speakers - this one is better and perhaps it's a bad mood but I'm not content with colors either... What to do? At least now it's there. ANd I'll have to work on week-end to have it all set up and have time next last week of the contract to do something visible on the web-site. What the hell! I'm doing all I can. if they're discontent it's their problem.

Bro have sompletely disappeared... Should I just let him forget me? Well, I think I should probably take it easy. He came up on-line today. Nothing to do - this part of his life is much farer from me than ever and I should be prepared that it's ll be only farer from now on.

I think my head is moving slowly in a direction of more in touch with the world and less attachments... Only want to make love badly, but Runes says it's still patience time, God, what do you want from me??? And today it's a moon phase change day - again very broken mood at this peroid! Good that at other days I don't give in to negative mood, but at this one it's still too difficult... Damn, I should change 10 dollars left from ZIP and have some beer! I know tomorrow will be better and ADVIENNE QUE POURRA!