From: Takako Nagumo <tnagumo@pop.pitt.edu>
Date: Thu, 15 May 1997 10:07:21 -0400
Subject: USS CHESAPEAKE: Identities

MD 06.0755
Scene: Bridge

Daniel Brennan emerged from the Captain's Ready Room, having 
finished his morning briefing.  After the chaos on the Marine Deck 
during the Bravo Shift the day before, the Charlie Shift had been 
relatively uneventful.  The departments seemed to be on the right 
track, for the most part, and the crew was slowly but surely 
coming together.

He walked past OPS and took the conn, mentally reviewing his 
report.  Engineering was gradually working out the kinks in the 
propulsion systems, and except for the typical new engine shakes, 
they had encountered no problems.  Security and Operations had 
gone through the entire battery of tests with the CHESAPEAKE's 
armaments with success.  Even Science was settling back to normal; 
after the "Bunny Incident," Lieutenant Stenford, the head of 
Biological Sciences, was called in to supervise through the 
Charlie Shift.  Medical continued the crew's physical 
examinations, and Counseling... well, Counseling may have much on 
their hands.

He thought back to the allegations Lieutenant Murray had made 
regarding the Ship's Counselor of the BELLEROPHON.  He had touched 
on the subject very briefly with Captain Bell, who had recommended 
no action until such allegations had been made formally.  He had 
concurred, as he could not see JAG pursuing a case on such a 
flimsy foundation.

The whole issue made him uncomfortable.  It violated his sense of 
civility to know that a fellow man -- a Starfleet officer, no less 
-- would commit such things.

Not that he was naive enough to think that it didn't happen at 
all.  He had perhaps been over-optimistic that such incidents 
happened so rarely that it might as well have been eradicated.

But it had not.  And it bothered him greatly.

There was something else bothering him, as well.  As the panels on 
the armrests scrolled through the status reports, his mind tried 
to locate the exact cause, but, for some inexplicable reason, it 
refused to go where it led itself.

He suddenly shivered.  For the briefest of moments, he had felt 
darkness... cold....

He shook himself out of it, just in time to see a new message pop 
into his mail spool.  His hand automatically pressed the panel.

A message from the CHESAPEAKE's Counselor, addressed to Bell, as 
well as himself.  The subject....

He stopped breathing.

His breathing resumed only after he had realized that he had 
attracted the attention of the Bridge complement, including the 
OPS officer, who had turned around.

"Something wrong, sir?" asked th'Tellan.

"Um... no, Commander," he smiled weakly.  "Nothing.  Excuse me."

th'Tellan turned back around with an almost imperceptible shrug.  
Brennan continued to breathe normally... or at least, tried to do 
so.  The words scrolling across the screen were not exactly 
conducive to maintaining a peaceful calm.

His eyes finally scanned the deposition through to the end.  He 
read it again.  And again.

He stood up.  "Commander th'Tellan, you have the Bridge."

He heard the OPS officer's reply behind his back as he stalked to 
the head.

The door slid shut behind him.  His hands gripped either edge of 
the sink.  He stared, hard, into the mirror above it.

Horror.

He felt ill, but nothing would come up.

A man... forcing himself on a woman... a man....

A man.

Daniel Justin Brennan was a man.  A Starfleet officer, a 
Commander, a linguist, an artist, a fencer....

But, in the end, he was a man.

And this Kevin Mallory was a man, as well.  And he had committed 
rape, the most terrifying act of personal violation.

A man.  I am a man.

Are we...?  Am I...?

Would I?

He almost did not hear his communicator chirp.

<Bell to Brennan.>

His reply took a long moment as a hand slowly ungripped the sink 
and tapped the communicator.

"Brennan here, sir."

<In my Ready Room, Commander.  Bell out.>

He continued to stare at the man in the mirror, his body still for 
a moment longer.  His jaw tightened, and he straightened up, 
exhaling quickly.

He dismissed those thoughts from his mind.  They were different 
people, he and this Kevin Mallory.  And he will not think of it.  
Now was not the time.  It would never be the time.  Not for him.

He closed his eyes for a moment, took one slow breath.  Opening 
his eyes and looking into the mirror, he saw Daniel Brennan, the 
Starfleet Commander, looking back at him.  Nodding, he pulled down 
on his uniform jacket, then turned smartly to walk out of the 
head.  He crossed the Bridge, and, coming to a stop outside the 
Ready Room doors, tapped the chime.

Respectfully Submitted,

Takako Nagumo,
CDR Daniel J. Brennan
XO, USS CHESAPEAKE (NCC-31813)
Task Force Bravo, Green Fleet

NRPG:

All: Apologies for the drop off in posting.  This one just took a 
while to come together. :)

Amy: Off to you.  I'm assuming she has just read Tats-Marush's 
report and wants to talk.

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Takako Nagumo                              <tnagumo@pop.pitt.edu>
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CDR  Daniel J. Brennan      XO        USS CHESAPEAKE, Green Fleet
LCDR Sian-Mairead Flynn, MD CMO USS ALEXANDER NEVSKY, Green Fleet
LCDR Duncan A. Morrell      INS                    ALB Holodeck 4
CDR  Julianna M. Sforza     COMREC   Commander, Starfleet Records
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