hopeless

so we've got to take it one step at a time
working blindly towards some great unknown
and we think all we've ever had is all but lost
seemingly far, far away never to be touched again
and I think to myself how hard it will be
to see your face so often and be reminded
of what I lost and cannot find anymore
your essence haunts me in my dreams
and lives as an ache within my heart
to know things will never be the same
and that I will always be alone
but that brings a vaguse senese of comfort
to know my heart will protected
from my erratic emotional self
and the stirring desires within
but to look across the table
into your deep brown eyes
sends a shiver up my spine
and a grimace to my cheeks
i wonder how you can do it
how you can function and focus and accomplish
when all I see, like gazing into a mirror,
is guilt and misery and dissatisfaction
but there is nothing I can do.

so I'll be waving my hands
and watching you drown
and watch you do the same.

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