Myself

Myself
        a secret to myself.
a wall
        within a wall.
one step of a ladder
                leading 
                        to another...
                                myself.
Myself
        secret after secret
   uncovered,
                then revealing
                        more
                to be discovered,
                        more
                complexities to be
   pondered
                        by
                                myself.
Myself
        when will i reach
                           myself?
        when will i uncover
                all the secrets of
                        myself?
        when will all the walls crumble 
                and fall because of
          their uselessness
                        and let me
                                follow the
                path of glory to
                                myself?
        when will i reach the
                highest step of 
                        the ladder
                                and find
                                        myself?
        when will all complexities
                no longer be so
                        but be taken as
                                being as simple
                        as walking, or
                talking, or smiling
                                and reveal
                        to me
                                myself?
                It is not so simple
                        to walk
                                to talk         
                                        at first.
                        for others it is not
                                so simple
                                        to smile
                                                to cry.
                                when will i
                                        be able
                                to do anything and
                        everything which that
                        within me enables me
                                to do?
                        when will i be able
                                to follow my course
                                        to myself and
                          rejoice
                                in finding
                                        myself,
                            and cry
                                to express
                                        myself?
                        when will i meet myself?
                        when will i be myself?
                        when will i be myself?
                        

        4/17/69