Uncomprehending

surprised.
        surprised to find
        that what was not a year ago
                                        is today.
        that that which is to be today
                                        is here today.
        i don't understand.  but like.
        for it is fate.  and i am, we are, but victims.
        surprised to find
        that what i was
                        is not no more.
        that which i saw
                        is seen no more.
        i wish to understand.  but can't.
        i am, we are, but victims of the invention of time,
        no more than fate following its course through an interval.
        surprised
                no more.
                        i heard now i hear
                        i felt  now i feel
                        i knew  now i know              i will...
                          i was    now i am
                          you were         now you are
        how long?                       surprised no.  because that was to be.
        just uncomprehending.
                           to find that again i come
                           and you too.