..:: Adrian Dinca's Diary Pages >>> 'My Written Suffering' ::..</h> <body text="#FF8040"> <br /> <br /> <br /> <div align="left"> <A href="http://www.oocities.org/virgo07091982/fisiere_html/My-written-suffering_welcome.htm" title="Adrian's welcoming message">Welcome!</A> </div> <br/> <br/> <table align="center" cellpadding="40"> <tr><td align="center" valign="middle"> <A href="javascript:popUp('http://www.oocities.org/virgo07091982/fisiere_html/My-written-suffering-1_pfv.htm')"> <font size="+1" face="Bookantiqua"> Printer-friendly Version</font></A></td> <td align="center" valign="middle"> <A href="http://www.oocities.org/virgo07091982/fisiere_html/My_written_suffering-2.htm" title="Adrian Dinca's Diary - part two"> <font size="+1" face="Bookantiqua">Tell me more...</font></A> </td></tr></table> <A name="top"> </A> <br/> <br/> <table summary="Adrian Dinca's personal diary pages" border="3" align="center" bordercolor="#FF8040" bordercolorlight="#FF8000" bordercolordark="#804000"> <tr><td align="center" valign="middle"> <A href="#[Divine Wisdom...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> [Divine Wisdom...]</font></A></td> <td align="center" valign="middle"> <A href="#[Discouragement and Panic...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> [Discouragement and Panic...]</font></A></td> <td align="center" valign="middle"> <A href="#[Human Ignorance...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> [Human Ignorance...] </font></A></td> </tr> <tr><td align="center" valign="middle"> <A href="#[Apparent Refusal...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> [Apparent Refusal...]</A></font></td> <td align="center" valign="middle"> <A href="#[Tribulations, Fatigue, Suffering and Divine Rescue...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> [Tribulations, Fatigue, Suffering and Divine Rescue...]</font> </A></td> <td align="center" valign="middle"> <A href="#[Human Supperficiality and Keeping the Faith in The Divine...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> [Human Supperficiality and Keeping the Faith in The Divine...] </font></A></td></tr> </table> <br /> <br /> <table align="center" cellspacing="150"> <tr><td align="center" valign="middle"> <p align="justify"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> [Righteousness...] <br /> <br /> <br /> All God's children are "punished" for righteousness, but seldom are they able to choose the right "scourge" (among a wide range of life issues, humans do not always have the wisdom of making the right choice). Most often, it seems to us that the pains that we must endure, as human beings are also the hardest, and that nobody suffers more than we do. <br /> Our Lord, however, has chosen and decided everything for us, because we are His children, not our own masters, and we live our lives in His Home. <br /> <br /> "Do you chose to allow Illness inside your body?" Do not haste yourself in saying "Yes!". I know what Illness is, and I cannot brag with it. All I know is that I desperately want to get rid of the pains! <br /> God, in His endless compassion, had measured my burden for my own shoulders, and maybe, your burden for yours, as well. <br /> <br /> Beside this suffering, there can be another way for our souls' self-healing. We must acknowledge this properly! If it were for me to choose this (suffering), then its target would never had been reached, because a pain that you choose by yourself is not a serious one, and it would not determine the proud man (in anyone's case!) to be humbler... <br /> But if I am to endure this pain, in my Lord's Will; if I am to drink from the Cup, in His Will, I'll say then: �Thy Will be done!�, and after I'll praise the Lord, for I have been blessed by way of my own suffering, <br /> So, if the Lord chooses the Cup of Tribulations for us, then let us drink it in peace... </font> </p> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <div align="left"> <A name="[Divine Wisdom...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> <b>[Divine Wisdom...]</b></font></A> </div> <br /> <br /> <p align="justify"> <font size="+2" face="Times New Roman"> Wisdom has our God given to us, which is not only Food, but Medicine as well. Yes, even the suffering, which I was so afraid of until now, has turned out to be a blessing in disguise for me! <br /> "Hear me now, I am telling you the Truth: May those who weep now be blessed, as they will be caressed!", Lord Jesus once said. <br /> <br /> In my opinion, Crying and Laughter are two notions that go hand-to-hand, and they are so different, still... <br /> Through the Holly Crying we receive the best blessing ever, and those who cry with sorrow will be the happy ones, not only in the future, but in the present, as well: "Tears of sorrow are necessary, in order to keep awaken The Eye of Faith". We are in the Hands of our Lord, the same way as clay is into the potter ones. <br /> <br /> "As long as I was in good strength, I considered that I wasn't dependent of anyone or anything, but when the Hand of the Lord pressed heavily upon me, then I must confess that I only stayed alive due to His Providence. <br /> I am in my Lord's Hands when I suffer; I may be able to close my mouth when facing a bitter drink, but I cannot shut my soul when facing a bitter pain (...)", many of us probably said (at least once).</font></p> <br /> <br /> <div align="center"> <A href="#top"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> Elevate me...</font></A></div> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <div align="left"> <A name="[Discouragement and Panic...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> <b>[Discouragement and Panic...]</b></font></A> </div> <br /> <br /> <p align="justify"> <font size="+2" face="Times New Roman"> Discouragement and panic can easily settle themselves in someone's soul; pains and suffering are always tormenting our bodies and our very beings. <br /> No matter how strong our bodies may be, in an instant, we may easily be struck down illn! Even the toughest man may become weaker than a mere child is... </font> </p> <br /> <br /> <div align="center"> <A href="#top"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> Elevate me...</font></A></div> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <div align="left"> <A name="[Human Ignorance...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> <b>[Human Ignorance...]</b></font></A> </div> <br /> <br /> <p align="justify"> <font size="+2" face="Times New Roman"> I have seen how he, who once despised the miserable ones, now yearns, in his moments of despair, to be caressed. <br /> Even though more clouds may come after rain, and a storm can follow another, I am into my Creator's Divine Hands... </font> </p> <br /> <br /> <div align="center"> <A href="#top"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> Elevate me...</font></A></div> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <div align="left"> <A name="[Apparent Refusal...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> <b>[Apparent Refusal...]</b></font></A> </div> <br /> <br /> <p align="justify"> <font size="+2" face="Times New Roman"> "Oh, Lord, with tears in my eyes I had raised my eyes towards the Heavens, and I prayed, begging You to take away my burden, but You refused (...) Then I had to confess that You were/are/will be Everything, and I was/still am/will be nothing (...)" <br /> <br /> In each cup of bitterness, which God gives to each of us, there is a little honey, but you can only feel its taste after you have drank it entirely. <br /> My legs, that are now limping, will soon be healed on Golgotha's Mountain; I am entrusting myself to God, and He will heal me. He will never let the Pure-at-Heart ones to tremble, because my burden is so heavy... </font></p> <br /> <br /> <div align="center"> <A href="#top"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> Elevate me...</font></A></div> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <div align="left"> <A name="[Tribulations, Fatigue, Suffering and Divine Rescue...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> <b>[Tribulations, Fatigue, Suffering and Divine Rescue...]</b></font></A> </div> <br /> <br /> <p align="justify"> <font size="+2" face="Times New Roman"> Sometimes, fatigue overwhelms me, and I feel myself powerless (this happens when I expect a long time of sufferings, or a difficult event to occur); so, there is nothing unusual. <br /> In the end, heart weakens after months and years of continuous pressure... <br /> <br /> "Oh, will that Day ever come when I will have escaped from the Shadows of Death?!" <br /> I cannot get out by myself from this tribulation, but God can help me. He got me out of even worse tribulations than those which are currently threatening me! <br /> Indeed, I have seen the true loyalty and kindness of God, which is: that He kept me alive and gave me power to fight on... <br/> <br/> For nine years, Suffering has written its name all over my face. I am thinking about His strong Arm with which He pulled me out from the huge "waves" and saved me from the Storm which was, not so long ago, upon me. Yet, I still lay into the "prison-cell" of Pain, with my feet "tied-up" by a terrible physical handicap... <br /> The Lord is aware of my heavy situation, and He doesn't let me stay like that. I have come to such a morn before He had "smacked" me with them! </font> </p> <br /> <br /> <div align="center"> <A href="#top"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> Elevate me...</font></A> </div> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <div align="left"> <A name="[Human Superficiality and Keeping the Faith in The Divine...]"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> <b>[Human Supperficiality and Keeping the Faith in The Divine...]</b></font></A> </div> <p align="justify"> <font size="+2" face="Times New Roman"> In this life, we encounter fears and tribulations, up to ten times more than needed; friends may come not to care about one another anymore, yet your best friend are those who are loyal, and we may tell them all our pain. <br /> If my friends deny all my love, than I shall keep my faith into the Savior, and He will listen for certain. My deepest pains others must have experienced too, yet they may have suffered even more... <br /> <br /> All the tidal-waves pass me over, but I will surpass them, and I will gain the Crown of Life, that God offers to those who keep the Faith alive! <br /> <br /> The bitter "wine" of Life acts like a healing medicine over my entire being; the sweet drink of self-promotion leaves behind a bitter taste (to the one who drinks it), but the bitter drink of tribulation leaves behind a sweet one. Even in suffering there is joy! <br /> <br /> The song of sorrow has in it a tender melody that a joyful song cannot contain. In time of need, we become closer to God ("Our joys are like tidal waves"); beyond tribulations we learn that God's Gift is self-sufficient for us. <br /> Only those who have learned to suffer can claim spiritual recognition from God. <br /> <br /> Christian fellow, Lord Jesus Christ is the One who gives us the Cross, and it is not a punishment, but a gift! <br /> Oh, if only we could rise ourselves above all those meaningless, material things which are always standing in our way when we want to pass them by! But even Christians involve themselves in meaningless and fleeting situations, and they do find pleasure in these shreds. <br /> <br /> May I not be pleased with my place on Earth until I have not found my place in Heaven. Only in God's House I will find my true place (...). As I walk, I shall not slip, as long as my eyes look towards Lord Jesus�. <br /> Yet, nothing is more suitable to give to a man than a hard trial! <br /> <br /> Mean people have not yet passed through many tribulations; those who have no mercy of their peers and never cry with those who cry, have not experienced pain, as it seems; only a great suffering gives birth to a big heart... <br /> <br /> "Oh, how sweet is a mother's caress; it's amazing how she's the only one to know how to share her children's trouble; how she holds them tight into her arms, taking over all of their pain and burying it into her own heart�!" </font></p> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <div align="center"> <A href="#top"> <font size="+2" face="Bookantiqua"> Elevate me...</font></A> </div> </td></tr></table> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <table align="center" cellspacing="60"> <tr><td align="leftr" valign="middle"> <font color="#FF8040" face="Times New Roman" size="+1"> <b>translation:</b></font> <td align="right" valign="middle"> <font size="+1" color="#FF8040" face="Times New Roman"> 11.10.2005 </td></tr> <tr><td align="center" valign="middle" bgcolor="#FF8000"> <font size="+2" color="#800040" face="Times New Roman"> <b>The Dark Rose</b></font> <font size="+1" color="#000040" face="Times New Roman"> (temporary member of <b>C.R.T.C.</b> since September 25th, 2005)</font> </font></td></tr> </table> </body> </html>