Title: I Don’t Belong
Author: Bree (virtualjag@yahoo.com)
Disclaimers: “I Don’t Belong” by Kevin Max (www.kevinmax.com will have some of his songs on it) and Owsley on K-Max’s album “Stereotype Be.” Everything about it belongs to them and various other people. Don’t send ASCAP out to pick me up.
And of course the usual pointless JAG/CBS/Bellisarius disclaimer.
Archive: http://www.oocities.org/virtualjag
Notes: I bought the new Kevin Max CD and was listening along and hit this song. It seemed so Mic in Adrift II.
I’ve written songfic, but lately I felt like that was so much of it I avoided it. Now I’m stuck with a couple of other stories that are going nowhere fast, and so I decided a little songfic might help me out.

The passenger next to him pulled off his headphones and laid them beside the portable CD player in the seat between them. The guy leaned his seat back and settled in to sleep. Mic took in the kid’s spiky blonde and green hair, the number of earrings in his ears, the one in his eyebrow, and the tattoos snaking up and down his arms. He decided, against his better judgment, to ask.

“Excuse me. Hate to bother you, but might I listen to your CD?”

“Sure, man. Listen all you want, but be warned, that’s the only CD I have on me. The rest I airmailed ahead. Couldn’t stand the idea of the airlines bustin’ ‘em all up.”

“That’s fine. I just need something to distract me.”

The kid scrutinized him. “I think you’ll like that one. Guy’s got a mellow voice.”

Mic nodded his head. The kid settled back and closed his eyes. He slipped the headphones on and prayed. He cringed with the first bars of the opening song. Then his prayer was answered when a man’s strong, clear, and most importantly, understandable voice broke through. He leaned back, stared at ceiling and tried to take in everything bombarding his ears.

He woke suddenly.

“And so we broke up
And so you decided
It was you, it’s always you”

The first lines had broken through the sleepy haze he was in.

“Even though we were friends
I felt uninvited
The fraternity of fools
And I’m drowning slowly (going down)”

Like I told Renee, we were only acquaintances to the family. They might have found Rabb in the middle of the Atlantic. I’ll never be found. No one’s looking.

“And I’m fading like ink that’s a hundred years old
I don’t belong, say I’m wrong
Told you that you should have known me better”
I don’t belong, this my song, this my song”

I wonder if she is already forgetting about me. I wonder if she’s cocooned in Rabb’s arms saying that she never even really knew me. She never bothered to really know me.

“You made me a prince
You made me a pauper
Then you turned and closed the gate”

She was going to give me the world. Then, just as suddenly she pushed me down. I landed hard on my ass. I had to run before she kicked me while I’m down here.

“Even though I messed up
There wasn’t an offer of love
No mercy or no grace”

There was an offer. Too little, too late.

“And I see right through you (see right through you)
You wanna be just like me don’t you”

I always knew the truth; I chose to ignore it. I thought being oblivious would hurt less. I was wrong.

“I don’t belong, say I’m wrong
Told you that you should have known me better”
I don’t belong, this my song, this my song
You should have known me better”
(stupid things I’ve said and done)
Oh don’t you walk away (battles that I’ve lost and won)
Shame, shame, shame on me
(what I used to think was wrong)
I’m for the underdog, I like the one that don’t belong”

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