When it comes to sex, I have so many different views: about me having sex, about others having sex, about what sex is for, and about what defines sex (thank you, President Clinton). The Mirriam-Webster Dictionary defines sex as such: sex \"seks\ n 1 : either of the two major forms that occur in many living things and are designated male or female according to their role in reproduction; also : the qualities by which these sexes are differentiated and which directly or indirectly function in reproduction involving two parents (example: When a survey asks for your sex, you check either the male or female box.) 2 : sexual activity or behavior; also : sexual intercourse sexual intercourse n 1 : intercourse between a male and a female in which the penis is inserted into the vagina 2 : intercourse between individuals involving genital contact other than insertion of the penis into the vagina; also : sexual relations That's fine for a dictionary definition, but, as I expected, it doesn't address very much. Just so we're all clear, I'm talking about definition 2, not definition 1 of sex and definition 1, not definition 2 of sexual intercourse. Are we all on the same page now? Good. They did forget to mention what happens after the penis is inserted into the vagina. It makes people loose their minds. You go insane, if only for a little while, and all logic is tossed out the window. You are helpless; a prisoner of the moment. You don't think about having a kid, getting a disease, being taken advantage of, or if you're taking advantage of someone else. After all, there's plenty of time to worry about these things AFTER the moment is over. And after the moment IS over, these things are called REGRETS. A few of these things can be taken back. There are abortions or adoptions for the unwanted children and cures for many STDs. However, you can never take back your virginity. What if all the other person wanted was sex and you wanted more? It's going to take a while before you trust again. But what if you were raped? It takes a strong heart, mind, & soul to recover, and you'll still always carry that scar with you. What if you were the rapist or the one that led the other on just for the sex? Is there any guilt or are you just a sick fucker that gets off on those things, not caring that it's wrong? I know there's a lot of what if's after sex, and that's what scares me. I am a person who needs order and planning in advance. Chaos is okay with some things, but the risks involved with sex have just too many life-changing outcomes for me to handle right now. #1: I NEVER want to reproduce. I don't even want OTHER people to reproduce at this point. It's not that I'm Pro-Choice; I'm Anti-Life. This world has too many people in it already. Do you know how overpopulated this world is? The last thing we needs is more children of irresponsible, fickle minded teens who can't get it through their thick skulls that having unprotected vaginal intercourse is for making babies, DUH! Like any risk, yes I agree that it doesn't happen every time. But all it takes is ONE TIME, weather that be the first time or the hundredth time. That's a risk NO ONE should EVER take UNLESS their GOAL is to create offspring. No excuses! #2: Who the hell wants a Sexually Transmitted Disease? The general population is unhealthy enough as it is, so why would someone go diving without a wetsuit? At least when a daredevil does stunts, he takes all the necessary precautions to lower the risk, but having unprotected sex with ANYONE is just ASKING for trouble. There is NO WAY to know for sure what someone else may have; I don't care how much you trust each other. Just watch the movie KIDS and you'll know what I'm talking about. #3: I don't know about you, but I sure do get pissed when someone takes advantage of me in ANY way, not just sex. We've all gone through the steps: denial, anger, fear, guilt, self-pity, and acceptance. First, you can't believe they did this to you, so then, of course, you're pissed. But then you're afraid of what others will think because how could you let that happen to yourself? So you cry and get all depressed and swear off the entire offending gender until the next hot young thing seems interested in you.Finally, you accept the fact that some people ARE assholes & shit DOES happen and move on with your life. #4: I personally am not too afraid of taking advantage of another. Most likely because I've never had sex and don't personally know of its addictive properties. I have given ORAL sex, and I really enjoy it, even got off on it a few times. I'll even admit that the last few weeks before I ended my last relationship, I kept him around just to play with his dick. But when I got tired of his caveman attitude and there was no longer a cock to suck, I didn't suffer withdrawals. On that note, I've never really enjoyed oral being performed on myself, aside from having my tits sucked (if you can even call that oral sex). Maybe he didn't do it right, but I didn't feel any sexual sensations. Manual stimulation is something I find fun to do, too. But, again, manual stimulation being done to me has yielded unsatisfactory results. Now personally, I feel I get the most out of dry humping. When he's on top, pressing down on me, rubbing his rod against my snatch, the two separated only by a satin sheet...now THAT'S what I really like. But on a less sexual level, I really enjoy the little things most: holding hands, slow dancing, putting my hand on his thigh as he puts his arm around my shoulder when we sit together, him kissing my hand, neck massages, sucking on his earlobe & blowing in his ear, running my fingers through his hair, holding each other, biting, scratching, spanking...oh, I got a little off track there, but you know what I mean. And let me mention in closing that those last few things are what I PHYSICALLY enjoy doing with a guy. There's all sorts of other NON-PHYSICAL stuff I enjoy, but that's straying a little TOO much off the topic. Perhaps I'll make an entry about that another time.