i crawled out from underneath you
only to find locked up
poetry & mouth fulls of mud
falling from my jaw
i wish i was raw
wish i could feel some thing
like you do.
realize how underneath the dirt of the earth
i actually am
you'll only want to shove my heart
in my throat
choke on beating flesh
it will make things better
it will make sleep easier.
Cause it's always raining
in my head
 forget all the things
I should have said
Your skin my nails
Your mirror my face
Your skin impaled
For your scars are my grace.
~Wounded~
i love you
bringing the blade across
muscles tightning
eyes tearing up
the blade hits
i love you
it drags across
pulling the skin
catching
ripping stinging
the blood comes rushing out
i love you
feeling elated
i feel like im with you
it doesnt hurt anymore
it doesnt matter
nothing matters
except you
i love you
dressing the wound
antiseptic, gauze, tape
knowing i can never
show you how much
i fucking love you
You showed me how to love
You taught me how to hate
You taught me how to give
But all you did was take
You've told me how to cry
And showed me how to bleed
You've taught me the word empty
And shown me how to need
You taught me how to live
But now I want to die
You said you'd teach me happiness
But all you did was lie
I'm not afraid of happy endings...I'm just afraid my life won't work that way.
joints smoked in
paper of the new
testament, the ten commandments have
now burned.
i don't think i
really believed. maybe you did.
everything crumbles
everything falls
function stumbles
timing stalls
losing focus
replacing numb
completely weak
wittingly dumb
so alone
pitch black
neon emerald
peeling back
intravenous injection
lonely pride
pointing fingers.. (who)..
openly hide
sadly beaten
so.. pitiful
satanic Christ
correctly political
hurried up
slowing down
prisoner freedom
secretly found
oddly normal
blistering heat
suffering morals
truthful treat
without hope
gaining scars
paper demons
grounded stars
eyes open
memory lost
haunting past
ultimate cost
And all I want...is a lover who will kiss my scars.
I'm not so pretty now
They're filthy next to me
I'm staring at myself
in family therapy

I'm dying day by day
But no one cries for me
They'd rather slit their wrist
Than french kiss the elderly

Stop it you're hurting me
Stop it you're hurting me
Stop it you're hurting me
Stop it
kissed softly on closed eyes, the only way you'll dream of me. an angel's sleeping on my lap. i've placed his head upon my knee, brushed my lips on his hair, traced his mouth with my fingertips. whispered softly in the dark; never spoken aloud. your heart beats to the tune of life...on our naked skin. hold me forever and I'll be yours until tommorow dies. I'll kiss your lashes to feel your dreams...

And this is the part where I'd die for you.
fuck<you
She   said  "Kill me faster"   with STRAWBERRY   GASHES   alloverallover all   over
Don't worry
               


                 You're already


                            A


               Voice inside my head.........

guess i should tell
you the truth, you
seem to half want
to hear it anyway.
so yes, i have made
new scars and i swallow
a bottle of extra strength tylenol
instead of one-
did you notice in typed
words that im drowning again?
i'm making no effort
to stay afloat.
my body feels 21000
grams lighter,
and,
i wish that you
could still hurt me now

a girl sits alone on her bed
writing notes of things unsaid
she can no longer deal with the sorrow and strife
the time has come to end her own life
she finishes the notes and seals them too
now she knows what she has to do
she swallows her pills one by one
and finally the ominous deed is done
suddenly the pain begins to kick in
she hopes her family can forgive this sin
she becomes dizzy and all goes black
at this point she knows, she'll never be back
HOME
I make excuses
to touch you
and i cant stop
as if you knew
your looks will hold me
to the grave
this will never be
no matter how much
it still hurts
crave my touch
and drown in it
dont you know
that you're toxic
the ultimate low
is bending till i break
and only for you
i'll  s h a t t e r
Forever yours.

Forever mine.

You're all I ever wanted.
Why? Why is it happening to you?

Because you fucking deserve it.




Swallow
Your
Pride

...and gag
These hands
Wont untangle you;
The ones that tied
the rope around your neck.
Blew from the lips
A kiss bid adieu,
As the trigger mounts
From my fingertips.
I couldnt fix
What was broken....
So I burned it instead.
I hope youre happy;
As you watch
Your house
Burn to the ground.
My hands are at your throat......and I think I hate you.
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go all I hold on to