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 foreword
to be honest, i
never like julia roberts
and i never really wanna
go to her movies no matter how interesting the story plot seems
to go. (yup, i haven’t watched
anything from her, except maybe <<pretty woman>>.
nope, not even <<runaway bride>>, <<erin brockavich>>,
nor <<my best friend’s wedding>>. oh, i think i’ve
watched <<the pelican brief>>, though it’s
ironic that i don’t think anyone
knows this movie.)
on the other hand, i
always like movies about teachers, <<good will
hunting>>, <<mr. holland opus>>, and <<dead
poets’ society>> to name a few. so does the liking
overcome the dislikes this time? it’s a pity that it
isn’t.
having read the synopsis on the back, i actually bought the book before i knew it was made into a movie. when bb and i saw the trailer in hk,
(which is very ironic too, since at that time, the dvd was already out in hmv,
which was always earlier as it’s selling overseas dvds.) i told bb
this was one of the few cases where the starts made me
don’t wanna go to a movie.
(despite the fact that kirsten dunst stars in it too, whom I kinda like.) and bb says, “唔係呀嘩?!”…afterall,
it’s a story about a female art history teacher, teaching
in a top-notch girls’ college! that’s every aspect i would normally like to watch!!
anyways…hmm…dunno if
it’s finally on at hk yet? dunno if bb’s seen it?
now, i think
it’s kinda an appropriate time
for me to watch it, considering i’m
might take on some similar track. that’s
why i rented the dvd.
movie
hmm…somehow i don’t have much to say about this
movie, except that i’m not
familiar with american history during
the world war period (1950s), nor have i
much radical feminist views. it’s
not really what i’ve expected,
and the supposedly moving feminist ideas never really got onto
me. maybe women like me today are
fortunate that these 50s women have had their moves. anyways, i did shed a tear or two, moved by the
teacher-students bond, as always, and at the very beginning,
where katherine (julia
roberts) calls back home, silent with
tears, from afar where she’s all alone and estranged,
socially and emotionally. at no time of
my life will i be as associated with
that as i am now.
it just make me
wonder, am i all that suitable to
become a teacher? at this very moment, i’m somehow reluctant to take on this
task. i’m
just not ready yet. i still got so much
i myself yearn to learn: art history,
anthropology (myths & religion), ancient civilization, both
western & asian, forensics
archaeology, linguistics, languages, films, poetry,
literature…so much so as to browse through university
courses outlines and finding distance learning courses to study. i still got so much
to learn, how can i possibly have the
mentality and ability to teach others about anything? how can i settle myself down with a job,
(you’ve to know that once you’ve chosen your
“career” so to speak, there’s no turning back;
there’s just no time, no motivation to learn other
non-professionally related subjects.) depriving myself of the
time i can read and study about those
vast range of interests of mine?
i’m not like my mum, or
katherine in this case, whose goals are
to make a difference in their students’ lives, to help them
& guide them through their journeys. i mean, i wanna do all that, but have i got the confidence or determination? i doubt i will.
well, let’s face
it, i’m not the most independent
girl you’ve met, not to mention “strong”. i have strong will,
though, but i’m not too good at
adapting to changes and challenges. i am easily discouraged, and you can
even call me a pessimist. (yup, i know my weaknesses alright.) i’m actually
scared that i’m gonna fail at this attempt yet again and quit
before i can get a chance to enjoy it.
when I start something, i have all the
will power you’ll ever imagine, wishing to accomplish the
highest goals, (maybe setting a goal too high that it becomes
unattainable---that’s the dilemma of a perfectionist.)
putting myself under tremendous pressure, only to discover that
it’s not practical to achieve them all at once.
same goes for my
relationship. i
wanna make it as perfect as i have it figured in my mind, just to find
out that this may not be “it”, or that it may even be
impossible to ever find the perfect one. i tend to contribute whatever i can to the relationship, expressing myself
in everyway i can, just to find out
that i may be putting in too much,
giving pressure to the both of us. being loved by me may be
somehow very ?#060;/span>吃力 even. i reminded
myself of ?#060;/span>莉香 from <<東京愛的故事>>.
oh my god, what have i got myself into writing?? this is a moview for
god’s sake!! i
should have put all the above under “thoughts” page. anyways, I just don’t have much to say
about the movie. maybe i’ll end with some lyrics form the
ending title of the movie…and oh, by the way, i still don’t like julia
roberts after watching this.
you must keep on trying
smile…
what’s the use of
crying
you’ll find that
life is still worth while
if you just smile
smile…just smile…
oh actually, the theme
of this song, as related to the movie, is that mona lisa is
smiling on the surface, but “not everything is what it
seems”. the end.
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