"I can assure you Mrs we are doing everything we can.But screaming isn't going to make this better."The doctor tried to reason with her,whilst looking down at the unconcious girl he and a few paramedics were wheeling down the corridor.
"I'm afraid you can't come into surgery Mrs .Please take a seat in the waiting room,and someone will get back to you shortly."The doctor stated,before helping to push the girl through the double doors of the large room.
*********
"Mrs ?"A nurse asked,as she walked towards the small waiting area.
"Yes.Is she ok?Is my daughter alive?"Mrs almost screamed,but the nurse simply looked on at her sympathetically and allowed a small smile to creep across her face.
" null is fine.She had to have a blood transfusion though,and this has resulted in her becoming very weak,because so much blood was needed to keep her alive.She is awake though,just don't be too surprised if she doesn't seem very happy to see you or want to talk much."The nurse warned.
Mrs smiled gratefully and allowed herself to shed a few tears.
As she walked into her daughter's hospital room she couldn't help but let out a gasp.The site in front of her was devestating for any mother to see,but she just couldn't get her head around the fact that this was really her little girl.Her baby.The only person in her life she had left.The little cherub she had watched grow up from a cute kid to a beautiful,smart young woman.But to any onlooker she now looked a state.Her hair all matted and stuck together with grease,her usual smooth skin had been replaced with a oily and spotty mess,and her glistening null eyes had become narrow and filled with fear.
" null honey it's ok.I'm here now." null 's mum soothed,taking null 's hand whilst trying to place a smile on her face.She had to be strong for both herself,but most importantly null now.
"...m...m...mum?" null muttered,whilst pulling a face.
Her mother felt sick.She could do nothing.She raised her hand and brushed null 's hair out of her eyes.It was obvious null was in pain.
"Shhh sweetie.Don't talk if it hurts."
"Mum...what...h...happened?" null asked,braving the pain,but still letting it show by the expression on her face.
"You had a blood transfusion null .Apparently you lost alot of blood somehow,and they had to act quick.So they gave you a operation and added someone else's blood inside you."
"I know what a blood transfusion is null .I'm 18 not 8!" null joked,this time feeling the pain start to wear away.
"Oi missy!Don't get lippy with me!" null replied,giggling slightly,but smiling warmly as she realised that her daughter was going to be ok.
"Mum who donated their blood to me?Is there any way i could contact them or maybe meet up with them?" null suddenly asked,out of the blue.
"I don't know who gave blood to you,but i'm not sure it's a good idea you meet up with them null darling."
"I just want to say thank you.They've given me another chance to live,and i'll never beable to repay them!" null said solemly.
"Ok null .I'll ask a doctor later.But i think you need some rest right now." null said,once again sweeping null 's hair out her eyes and kissing her forehead,before walking out the room and closing the door.
*********
" null . null .There's someone here to see you."The familiar voice of null 's mum rang through null 's ears,disturbing her dreams and waking her sharply.
null slowly opened her eyes,trying to adapt to the harsh sunlight the best she could.She tilted her head slightly and looked in the direction of her mum.
"I'm so glad your awake sleepy head!Anyway i spoke to a very kind nurse last night and he told me that the donar of your...their blood didn't want to be known,but i told him you were desperate so here's null !" null 's mum said,very excidetly null thought,as she pointed to a corner of the small room.
null 's gaze followed her mum's arm and set eyes on a firm body. null allowed her eyes to stop there for a few seconds before working their way up towards the mystery person's face.
null felt her mouth go dry as her breath caught in her mouth.This was quite possibly the best looking guy she had ever laid eyes on,and the best part about him was,there was some of him inside her!(lol)
His null hair flopped over his face and fell onto his eyes.That was another of his stunning features...his eyes.They glistened in the strong sunlight and allowed the sparkling to shine.
"Hey!What's up?" null chirped,tearing null away from her ' null fantasy'.
"H...hi! I'm fine y'know just had a big op,nothing major!" null joked.Sure she stuttered once,but null was definately at ease with this boy now.Heck she was even joking with him and she'd only known him a few seconds.But boys always were null 's strong point.She just naturally felt relaxed with them.She didn't have to be something she wasn't.She didn't have to dress up and do everything everyone else did to look 'cool'.Most of her friends were infact boys,but this wasn't out of choice. null didn't have any female friends,because all the girls that had known her called her a slut because she 'chilled' with the lads. null didn't mind though,dudes were surprisingly so easy to talk to and girls were just so...well bitchy!
null let out a small but loud laugh. null had definately made a good impression.
"I'll leave you two to it then." null 's mum said smiling at her daughter.
*********
"Why did you have to have a blood transfusion null ?" null dared to ask.He'd been talking to this beautiful girl for a few hours and it was only now he had thought to ask her the reason why she was kept in hospital.
"I...erm...don't know.My mum said something about loosing alot of blood." null rushed.Lying wasn't one of null 's abilities!
" null I may have only known you for a few hours,but i can still tell when your lying.I'm not stupid!" null laughed at null 's lame excuse to lie.
"I can't tell you.Not even my mum know's" null muttered,looking down at the boring,plain sheets she was lying on.
"Ok i'm not going to force you to tell me,because i know you'll tell me when your ready!" null said simply,leaving null in a very confused state.
"What do you mean?" null asked,scrunching up her nose as she tried to think.
"You'll see.I'm really sorry but i have to love you and leave you.Here's my mobile number.Call me when you get out of here.I'd hate to loose contact with such a cool chick!" null said,whilst rising to his feet and placing a crumpled piece of paper in null 's open palm.
null couldn't help but blush.She immediately felt stupid.After all,her other boy mates had said she was cool plenty of times,but her face had never become tinted with a soft shade of red. null was really special.
null turned to leave the room but null 's voice stopped him.
" null wait!" null shouted quickly,so as she grabbed his attention
. "I erm...just wanna say thank you.You've given me another chance to live and you have no idea how thankfull i am for that.I'll never beable to repay you properly." null said,taking a deep breath afterwards.
"Just meeting you today has been enough for me.I couldn't think of a better person for my blood to go to." null cringed when he realised how lame that sounded.
null once again felt her face burn up and watched as null left the room,flashing a cheeky smile when he walked past the transparent window.
null sighed.Once she got out of here she would definately keep in touch with null .She couldn't loose him.He was special.And he made her feel special.
*********
null smiled as she breathed in the fresh aroma of her room.Oh how she had missed her room.She inspected every last inch of it,just to check everything was intact,the way she had left it.
Her small bookshelf crammed with books on famous people and bands that had inspired her like The Beatles and Nirvana,but also from television like her many books on Friends.And then on to her video area.Every single episode of Friends was here.Ever since the last episode, null had felt a emptiness in the pit of her stomach,and so started the fun mission of buying every episode of Friends.She still cried with laughter every time she watched an episode.
null 's eyes wandered to her trusty cd's.These were null 's life.Music was near enough null 's life.She walked over to her cd player and opened it.Her trustworthy Blink 182 cd's image filled her eyes.She tilted her head to the corner of her room and saw her most prized pocession.Her null !
As she walked over to her null she heard a sharp cracking sound beneath her. null looked down towards her feet and picked up her now broken cd case of Green Day's 'Nimrod'.
null sighed.She was confused to say the least.She hadn't planned on coming back,she wasn't supposed to be here.And two weeks ago she would of quite happily try and end it all now,like she had that night,but there was one thing keeping her here. null .
No matter how much she tried,his cute face,eyes,hair,cheeks,nose,torso and bum kept reminding her that she had something good in life.And it was only a phone call away.
*********
Her hands trembled as she held the lethal weapon in her hand...well maybe it wasn't lethal but it was a terrifying prospect to her.
"Hello... null .It's null .I was wondering if you wanna meet up some time?You would?Today?No...no...that's fine.I just didn't realise you were so keen to catch up on things.Ok c'ya then!Bye!" null hung up and sighed deeply.God that voice.So deep,with such a strong accent.Gorgeous.There were no other words to describe it...well actually there was,but i'm trying to keep this a clean fic!lol
*********
She knew it was too good to be true.But null wasn't surprised.Everything she ever had that was in any way good in her life had either vanished,abandoned,died,or tried to kill her!She let out a sigh as she remembered something one of her aunties had said to her.
"Your life's like a episode of Eastenders.I'm never quite sure if your living in reality or an half an hour long chapter!" -
The next day her auntie died of a heart attack.
null wiped the droplets of rain that were now fiercly pelting down,leaving a invisible mark on null 's soft skin.She turned and started to walk back to her house when she was stopped by a familiar voice,or rather shout.
" null !Hold up!" null turned and found herself being confronted by the new found love of her life, null .
"Sorry i'm late,i lost my null !" null said very apologetically,realising null was pretty upset.
"Wait.You play null ?!" null shrieked excidetly.
"Yea.Why?" null asked,completely confused by null 's reaction.
"Because that is just sooo cool! I play guitar!too!" null replied,very matter-of-factly.
"You do?Hey erm your soaking.Wanna come to my house.You'll love it,all we do is jam all day!" null asked,smiling sweetly at . null
"Sure!"
null stood there just staring at null .Taking in every stunning feature she had to offer.Just like null had done in the hospital,the day she met null .
null lifted his hand and wiped a droplet that was running down null 's nose.His other hand playing with null 's hair,which had gone straggly and curly due to the rain.
" null ?You gonna take me to this 'jamming place' or what?" null asked,giggling softly at null .
"Huh?erm...ooo yea.Sorry about that!" null blushed as he quickly removed his hand from null 's face,and linked his hand in her's.
*********
"Yo dude!Who's the chick?"
null looked on shyly,standing quietly behind null ,their fingers still entwined together.
"This 'chick' is null ! null this is null , null and null ." null did the introducing bit.
Everyone said their hello's and then null remembered the purpose of him and null being there.
"Wanna jam?" null asked simply,allowing a soft smile to creep across his face.
*********
"Well i met this girl, just the other day,
I hope i don't regret, the things that i said now,
When we're laughing joking with each other now,
im glad i met this girl
She didn't walk away,
I think she was impressed and was having a good time,
And when we're laughing joking with each other,
Spending all our time together..."
null smiled as she watched the boys do their thing.They certainly had talent,and null was sure they would get signed one day.
Her foot started tapping by habit.If she heard a good song,her foot would be tapping instantly.And this was definately a good song.Infact it was better than good,it was great!No actually quite possibly the best song she had heard in a LONG time!
null liked the way that it played with her mind slightly,as it wasn't quite pop,not punk,or rock,just a completely different style.Totally original,with a twist of the 60's.Which wasn't bad.Amazing songs and artists had come from that era.
"Good work dudes."The sudden stop of instruments and vocals stopped null from thinking anymore.
"So what did ya think?" null asked as he plonked himself down next to null ,and placed his arm around her shoulder's lightly.
"I'm still wondering how you guys aren't signed yet.You dudes are totally awesome and you deserve a contract more than anyone else than i can think of!" null enthused,ensuring the guys had a permanent smile on their faces for the remainder of the day.
"Well we actually screwed up a few times.No way was that our best yet.It could of been if someone was concentrating instead of checking out the very fit chick that's sitting in our living room!" null said,intending every word to be aimed at null . null blushed slightly,and removed his arm from around null 's shoulder's.
" null you can shut up.Just coz your jealous coz yooouuu don't have a girlfriend!" null teased.
"I'm just waiting for the right girl!" null lied,but he always insisted this was the truth,he didn't want to seem like a loser to the other guys.
"erm...i think i should go." null started.She didn't feel comftable watching a room of guys fighting over girls.
"NNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"
The whole room was filled with laughter as every head turned towards where the shout had come from.
A very embarrased null looked at everyone shyly.
"Has it changed your mind?" null asked,starting to laugh at how stupid he had just sounded.
"erm...yes!" null forced herself to say.She could tell null wanted her to stay,and she hoped the rest of the guys wanted her to as well.But most importantly she wanted null to want her to stay.
null turned her head to smile at null ,but was confronted by a empty space.
"Hey where did null go?"Vicky asked,to no one in particular.
"No idea." null replied.
null got up and offered his hand to null ,which she accepted. null pulled null up and led her upstairs.
"I'm guessing he's in here." null whispered softly as he winked at null and walked back down the stairs.
null looked up to a plain oak door and lifted her hand to knock.
"Come in" null 's familiar voice filled null 's ears.
"Oh hi null .Sorry about leaving you downstairs,the lads tend to fight about girls alot,and i just get bored of it now." null apologised as he put his null down and flopped on his bed,gently stroking the space next to him,motioning for null to sit there.
null walked over to the bed and quietly perched herself on the edge.
"I don't bite!" null explained,looking on at null .
"Sorry." null apologised.
null wrapped his arms around null and gently pulled her backwards,her top lifting slightly at the side.
null stared and gasped as he noticed the huge scar which was embeded in null 's skin.
" null what happened?" null asked.
null quickly pulled her top down and stood up.
"Nothing.Listen null i'm really sorry but i've got to go." null quickly made up a excuse.
"No null .Not until i know how you got that scar." null was stubborn.
null sighed and sat down on the bed,where null was now sat upright,intrigued as to what null was about to say.
"I've never got on with girls.Boys have always been my friends.I've never had a female friend before.Because of boys being my friends,girls have become jealous of my close relationship with boys,and ever since school i've been getting bullied by this group of girls.Now they go to the same college as me,and they've started following me home.You can probably guess the rest!" null said,looking down at her hands and rubbing her side gently.
"They did this to you? null you shouldn't take that shit from anyone.It's not fair and they have no right to abuse the fact that you get on well with boys." null explained,raising his voice slightly,and moving his eyes up to null 's face.
"I know.But what can i do?There's a whole group of them and one of me.It's fine honestly.It's just a scar,it's not like i'm dead!" null tried to laugh,she really tried,but only a small sqweak escaped her mouth.
"But if they carry on like this that's exactly what will happen.They'll get more violent and could end up killing you null .You can't let them get away with this,there's got to be somebody that can help you." null urged,squeezing null 's hands as though she was dying there and then,his eyes willing her to seek help.
"Trust me there's no one.Who would care about me?I'm just the girl that boys see as a laugh,a good mate.Or i'm the girl that everyone hates because of my ability to like boys as friends and not want to use them for a shag." null explained,feeling a lump form in her throat.She had never told anyone any of this.Her mum and boy mates all thought she was really popular at college.
"What about your mum?I'm sure she cares about you." null reasoned.
"Yea but she's not always going to be here for me." null said,feeling the tears sting her eyes.
" null you can't say that.Your mum's still young,i'm sure she won't be leaving you just yet."
null gave into temptation and let her emotions run freely down her face.
"My mum...she has cancer.She's been given a few months,max,to live." null sobbed,the tears streaming down her face.
null gasped,and felt his mouth go dry.He knew he had pushed her to the limit.He shouldn't of kept asking questions,he could tell she didn't want to and he kept urging her to,and now she had been reduced to a emotional wreck.
null felt null 's warmth surround her as she sobbed violently into his chest.This was the first time she had cried about her mum's illness since she had been informed a month ago.But she knew she still had to tell null .She just wasn't sure if she was strong enough.
" null there's something else i need to tell you." null looked up,her vision blurred by the salty tears.
"Go for it."
"The reason i met you,why i had a blood transfusion.It wasn't a accident.My blood didn't just fail,and i didn't just loose blood miraculously.I...i tried to kill myself." null 's face was stunned but null decided to carry on.
"It just all became too much for me.I've lost nearly everyone i've ever loved,and when my mum told me she was going to die,i knew i would be left by myself,all alone in this great wide world.And it terrified me.So i tried to end it all.I thought before i started cutting myself though.And i mean i REALLY thought.I tried to think of all the reasons keeping me here in this life,and i couldn't come up with one.Anything i did have would of all be gone in a matter of months.The bullying was becomeing too much for me to handle.I wouldn't beable to hide the cuts and bruises much longer.Everything in my life sucked.So i figured if i had gone then,everything would be ok.No more bullying,no more lying to my mum and mates about popularity and most of all i wouldn't have to sit in a dark room,watching my mum slip away from me.I remember walking around my room,smelling everything one last time,looking at photo's of people i had once loved,before they left me,and cleaning my room,putting everything in it's correct place.I heard my mum screaming when she found me,she woke me from the darkness that was surrounding me.I was floating above my body,watching everything,hearing everything.It was strange because i didn't feel any emotion.I didn't feel any guilt.It were as though my emotions were locked up in a box,with the key missing.I followed my lifeless body and mum in the ambulance,when i suddenly felt myself being dragged away,being sucked in.And the next thing i know,i'm lying in a hospital bed,the constant beeping of machines causing my head to ache.And then i met you,and all my worries vanished.When i left the hospital and returned home,my bedroom made all the fears return.And i don't know what i'm going to do when mum goes.Where will i live?How am i going to buy food?How will i pay rent?Where will i get ANY money?I'm 18,with no job,no career options in mind.I'm attending college,taking courses i KNOW will be no use to me in the future.And now the bullying's going to continue." null explained every last detail to null ,whilst null listened intently to everything null said.
"I'll look after you.You can live here,you won't need to worry about food because there's plenty of it here.There has to be with 4 growing men living here!You won't have to worry about rent until you settle in properly.You could drop college and get a part time job,whilst you think about what you REALLY want to do with your life.And then you could pay rent with the money you get with the part time job!AND the bullying will stop,if you leave college." null explained,smiling softly at null .
"I couldn't move in with you guys.It's not fair on you or the rest of the lads." null stated,wiping her eyes with the sleeve of her hoody.
"I'm sure,no wait i KNOW the guys won't mind.Besides they'll love the female attention!" null joked.
null smiled.
"I'll think about it.I've got to go now though.I'll text you or something." null said,jumping off the bed and exiting the room.
null listened as he heard null say her goodbye's to null , null and null ,and then heard the faint sound of the front door closing.He sighed and lay back on the bed.
***1 month later***
null and null hadn't really stayed in contact over the next month.The occasional text was the most both could be bothered to do.
" null when's null coming round here again?" null whined.
"I don't know.She hasn't said anything about meeting up yet." null replied.
null looked outside.The rain was pouring from the open heavens again,just like the last time he had seen null .
A faint knock disturbed null from his thoughts of null . null got up and pulled open the door.
A small framed figure,with wet and stragled, hair stood in front of null .Her null eyes brimming with tears,and the heavy rain pelting down on her frail body.
" null ?Oh my God come in!" null said,concern etched across his face.
null walked in,her teeth chattering and her body shivering. null pulled his hoody off and handed it to null .She put null 's warm hoody on gratefully,the hoody falling down to her thighs due to her small figure. null flicked her wet,straggly hair,and let it lie on her shoulders.
"Your mum.She died didn't she?" null asked,already knowing the answer.
null simply nodded,her body refusing to find strength to talk.
The next thing null knew,she had hit the hard floor,and felt the blackness engulf her.
*********
"Shhh she's waking up!" null could hear null 's voice,as she started to come round.
null blinked wearily,finding it difficult for her eyes to adjust to the harsh sunlight.
As she finally opened her eyes fully,she tried to lean foward and sit up,but her body had still not found the strength she desperately needed.
" null don't bother if it hurts." null 's sweet voice rang through null 's ears.
" null told us about your mum.And we're all really sorry.If you need anything we're all here for you." null soothed.
null glanced around the room,searching for the familiar face that she loved so much.
There he was. null null .The guy who null knew was so right for her,in so many ways.
"How are you angel?" null 's voice sounded tired,but a grin was spread across his face.
"I...I'm ok i think." null stuttered,finally finding a small energy resource inside her,that allowed her to speak.
"You really scared us when you fainted like that. null was so frightened he was going to loose you,but he stayed up with you all through the night.But he couldn't sleep anyway because you stole his bed!" null laughed.
null searched her surroundings.It was true,the bed she was lying in wasn't her's.And the manly aroma definately wasn't her's.
"I talked to null , null and null ,and they all agreed it would be for the best if you stayed here.That's if you want to of course." null offered.
null smiled at all of the lads generousity.She really did need somewhere to stay,as the council had wasted no time in sending a letter,confirming that null had to leave the house within the next week.
"Thanks.I could do with a roof over my head." null replied,indending it to be a joke,but knowing the truth that it was all too realistic to be converted into a joke.
The lads smiled,and after 20 minutes left the room,so null could get some rest.
*********
"Well it's quarter to four,we're hanging out at the pizza place,
And we all got our boards,later on we're gonna catch some waves,
Well that's what i said when i left her in bed,
With the radio on and the book she read..."
"Hi guys!" "Shit null !You scared me!" null said,jumping backwards as his heart started to beat faster.
null , null , null and null laughed.
"Are you alright sleeping beauty?" null asked,as he walked towards null and kissed her on the cheek.
"Yea.Alot thanks." null smiled.
"Hey we're gonna rent a movie out and order some pizza tonight.You up for it?" null asked casually.
"hmmm yea i guess." null replied,taking a seat next to null on the sofa.
"Cool." null replied.
***Later that evening*** "Is JAWS alright with you null ?" null asked,using his finger to trace the outside of the video case.
"erm...yea.I've never seen it before though." null replied,as null sat down next to null .
"Haha.Well if you get scared just hide behind null ." null scoffed,carefully placing himself down on the floor.
"Ok."A bewildered null said simply.
********* null felt her heart race as a severed head sprang out of the boat,that was underwater.
null dived for ' null s chest as her breathing started to quicken.
null , null , null and null all chuckled and turned their attention back to the tv screen.
********* "Do you know what the stupidest thing ever is.That film isn't even scary,and yet it scared the crap out of me!" null squeled,as she finally came out of her spot from hiding in null 's chest.
"Pizza?" null asked,handing the box to null .
After a few minutes of eating null started talking again.
"Is it just me that's scared of that film?"
All the guys started laughing.
"What?"Vicky asked,confused by why the lads were laughing.
"You've got something just here..." null said,leaning towards null with a serviette in his hand.
null misunderstood null 's choice of body language and leant foward too,pushing her soft lips against null 's.After a few minutes she pulled away from him.
"Woah!"Was all null could mutter,completely shocked by what just happened.
"You guys just kissed.OOO null and null !" null teased.
"Haha null you've got something just there..." null started the same approach again,this time exchanging roles with null . null smiled and leaned foward once again.The kiss lasted alot longer this time,and it wasn't until null physically tore each other apart from each other,that the pair finished the passionate kiss.
"So i guess we won't be needing that spare room then eh?" null laughed.
"Oh yea null ,i forgot to tell you,you've got to go and collect null 's things,whilst me and null spend some 'alone time' upstairs in my room!" null teased,throwing a key at null ,and taking null by the hand,whilst leading her upstairs,for the first night of a beautiful relationship,that thankfully for null ,wouldn't slip away.Because null was going to make sure the pair stayed together forever,and that he wouldn't let null 's new life collapse in a heap,just like her old one did.