The Home Video

by Lady7 ( runaluna )

Comments: It might seem like a Totchi fangirling session in the beginning, but it’s not ^^ there’s more to come. If you don’t like it, plz just keep reading. I’m sorry if it gets too much n too random.

Chapter 5B


Toshiya whistled softly as he walked down the narrow corridor. He had no idea what made he felt so cheerful. Maybe it was the scene Shinya caused this morning. Toshiya snickered, amused by Die’s shocked/pissed reaction. He was so angry it made him speechless. The red head just sat there, shaking.

Oh it was good fun. Like the old times. Die used to tease Shinya all the time. But hey … Toshiya paused and wondered. Die was only saying it was Fun to rape Shinya, so what’s the big fuss? It’s not like he really raped Shinya.

Toshiya had always thought he was a genius. Not like Kaoru, the music mastermind, or Die, the big heart when he’s not trying so hard. Or Kyo, the wonder child with so much “pain” he had to write depressing lyrics, or Shinya, the Strength.

No. Toshiya was a genius because he was Savvy. He was the most confident in the band, and he was the most loveable. It was easy to fall in love with Toshiya; beautiful and good looking, blessed with a model posture, photogenic, very stylish and easy on his bling bling.

Sure, his teeth were crooked. But Toshiya lifted up his chin, and lived with his imperfections. That’s his trademark. Without it, he wouldn’t be Toshiya. Speaking of teeth, the bassist was quite pissed when he found out he wasn’t really the trademark smile in the band. Before when he smiled, people would smile with him. And when he laughed, people would laugh at along with him. So he was feeling very emo about it at some point, and it really showed in some of his recent pics.

Oh! Speaking of emo-ness, Toshiya would also like to clarify the situation with Prima-Kaoru. Dude! Korea’s the new Japan! With hair like this, he looked like a seventeen year old Korean. What’s better than that!

So anyways, Toshiya concluded. Shinya must be jealous of Die’s “friendship” with Piggy. It used to be Shinya all the time but during the tours, Die hang out with Piggy half the time they were there. And whenever five of them finally got together, Die would talk about Piggy this Piggy that, Piggy taught me this really cool word … heh. They took a lot of pictures too. Everyone else was even saying Die looked like Piggy’s hot Asian girlfriend no wonder Shinya was mad.

Toshiya hummed louder as he turned to his right and stopped abruptly when he saw a figure walking toward his way.

Kaoru was texting on his PDA so he hadn’t really spotted Toshiya. The bassist sneered at the way Kaoru was all busy on his newly purchased gadget. It made him sick. So he was smart so fucking what! Kaoru loved to look down on him sometimes. He really wondered why. At least the sex was good ho shit he looked up!

Toshiya immediately turned around and walked back to where he was coming from.

“Toshiya!”

Lalalaa~~

“Totchi!”

The younger man walked faster, hoping Kaoru would think nah it was just a hallucination. But Kaoru wasn’t Kaoru if he wasn’t persistent.

“Toshiya! I knew you saw me!”

Dammit! Kaoru managed to catch his arm! Well, he must be running cuz no one else had Toshiya’s long legs. So Technically, he had wider steps and-

“Oh Kaoru!” he faked a surprise, “I was about to go there!” he pointed at the way Kaoru was coming from, “See ya!”

The guitarist glared and held on his arm, tight.

Toshiya gave up and just stood there.

Kaoru held out a hand.

The bassist lifted an eyebrow. Then he smiled and took the hand, shaking it. Kaoru sighed frustratedly and smacked the younger man’s hand. Toshiya gasped in shock. Kaoru ignored it and held out his hand again. Aww shucks. Toshiya knew he wouldn’t be able to get away this time.

“Ohh!” he exclaimed, “You’re asking for the tape?”

Kaoru rolled his eyes

“Well… I completely forgot about it!” Toshiya laughed and ran fingers thru his hair.

“What do you mean you forgot about it? I thought I said, the next time I saw you, you’d pass it to me?” Kaoru inquired, looking at the other man in disbelief, “This is getting ridiculous!”

Toshiya lifted up a shoulder, “I thought it wasn’t such a big deal!”

“WASN’T SUCH A BIG DEAL?!!!” Kaoru’s face turned red as he raised his voice, “What do you mean!!! There’s a fucking sex tape out there!! You bettmmmmpph!!”

Toshiya’s hand had clamped his mouth shut. Kaoru pushed it away from his face and glowered at the younger man.

“If you wish the whole world knows about it” Toshiya muttered in a low voice, “You can go downstairs in the lobby and shout it out!”

Kaoru looked around them frantically. After making sure no one else was there, he turned back to Toshiya.

“Look, Kaoru. I don’t know why you don’t trust me. If it was Shinya having sex with you, you wouldn’t even think about it. Not even once in your head! So why are you having this crazy notion that I might leak out the video?!”

“Shinya is careful. And he’s trustworthy. And he wouldn’t do such stupid thing” Kaoru answered almost too quickly, “And, come to think of it, I don’t think Shinya would even land himself on a sex tape in the first place!” he ended confidently.

Toshiya looked at him and shook his head, “If there’s a hidden sarcasm there, you must remember YOU were in the video too, Kaoru!” he exclaimed, “You fucking taped it!”

Kaoru cleared his throat, “I just want to make sure”

The younger man threw his hands in the air, “It’s in my room! Okay? In the closet I just looked at it last night!” he lied thru his teeth. Kaoru thought for a while, studying his expression. Toshiya shook his head, “Fine. I’ll pass it to you”

“When?” Kaoru asked sternly.

Toshiya didn’t answer. He simply smiled. The Flirt Smile, with the eyes action.

Darn! Wished he thought of it faster! What’s the one thing Kaoru seemed to be weak of?

Toshiya himself! Duh! The bassist walked the sexy walk and Kaoru was distracted long enough, when he realized what had just happened Toshiya had left the building.


***

He closed the door quietly, took off his shoes and walked toward the living room. Throwing the keys on the table, Die took off his jacket and looked around the house.

Shinya’s room. The door was closed. Ever since Die moved in, this was the first time it was being closed. Miyu wasn’t even around.

Wait, there was a sound. Die listened intently. Like a scratching sound.

Slowly, Die walked toward Shinya’s room and stood right in front of the door. Realizing what it was, the red head smiled fondly and traced his fingers on the wooden surface.

Miyu was scratching the door.

Then very soft footsteps could be heard. It was barely there, but Die knew Shinya was now standing right in front of him on the other side, probably trying to stop the dog from leaving her marks on the door.

Die took a long, deep breath.

“I want to apologize”

Miyu whimpered.

“I know I was acting like a jerk this morning” he whispered.

There was no reply.

“I said things I shouldn’t have said, and even though I could say those things, I shouldn’t have said it that way. I didn’t mean to make you sound so bad in front of the others, leading them to have bad image about you” Die bit his lips and waited. Still no reaction. So he continued, “I probably had shared too much information, and about the fucking thing, come on. I thought it was fun. Piggy and I always talked about you-” he could FEEL Shinya’s glares thru the door.

“It was never about making fun of you!” Die said quickly, but then he panicked cuz he heard Shinya huffed and footsteps could be heard, “Okay! Fine, maybe we made fun of you, just a little bit!” he confessed, “But that’s because you’re so pretty!”

Die paused and waited. It was really quiet so the red head assumed Shinya stood still. He took another deep breath, “That’s the thing, Shinya. Whenever I talked about you, I got carried away” he said softly, placing a palm on the door.

“I wish I could tell the whole world that you are mine” Die bit his lip, “I wish I could say it out loud, I was your first time, and I was so proud” he whispered, and shook his head slowly, “But I can’t”

Miyu was scratching again, but this time the door shook, and Die felt that maybe Shinya was leaning on it. So he inched forward, and leaned on the door too. It felt warm. It was strangely comfortable.

“You know I don’t mean whatever I say sometimes. Of all people, you should know best” Die whispered, closing his eyes. He took a deep breath and smiled.

“I love talking about you. Sounds cheesy but you’re my favorite subject” the red head laughed shyly and continued, “Sometimes when I talked to Kaoru, I bit my tongue to prevent myself from saying too much. I was always so scared this relationship would be revealed by my stupid mouth. I’m not careful like you”

Die pulled away from the door. Placing his hands in the pocket, he sighed.

“I’m sorry. I really am. BUT. There’s a but” Die paused, “I still feel strongly that what you did was wrong, and you should return the tape to Toshiya. And apologize. I need you to do this, Shinya” he ended firmly and waited. There was no reaction. Hell, it could be just his imagination that Shinya was listening to him at all!

The door clicked open, and Miyu leaped out from the small gap. Die gasped in surprise and picked her up. He looked up but the door was closed again. Die pursed his lips and nodded. Fine. It’s okay. If Shinya needed time to think it thru, he would wait. So he walked back toward the living room.

“I’m sorry I yelled at you” he patted Miyu’s head.

(meanwhile in the bedroom)

Shinya was staring at the door.

Very intensely

Very confusedly

His smooth forehead wrinkled as thoughts ran pass his mind. Oh. Should he go out now? Would he look too eager? Shinya paced back and forth in his room, maybe he shouldn’t. He was the Head Strong in the relationship. If he went out for Die now, the red head would probably made fun of him! Oh. maybe he should wait for a couple of minutes … maybe fifteen minutes.

Shinya glanced at the clock hanging on the wall.

It was three in the afternoon. Hm. Maybe he could lie down for a while. So the drummer climbed up to his bed and lay down. Fifteen minutes would be just right. More thoughts appeared in his head. What should he say? How should he start first? The speech Die made just now was so amazing, Shinya was smiling from ear to ear. ‘You’re my favorite subject’?! That’s so cute! Die knew the kind of things Shinya would fall for!

So now he needed something to top that.

Something witty

Something smart

Like …

Shinya blinked his eyes and yawned. Then he looked at the clock.

Hmmm, six … FUCK! It’s six already?!!!

Hurriedly, he jumped off the bed and stormed out the room. Oh he ruined it. He ruined the moment! He didn’t deserve Die! Shinya placed a palm on his thumping chest when he found Die was lying on the couch, sleeping with Miyu on his chest.

The dog’s ears flickered.

Shinya quickly brought a finger to his lips. Then he slowly sat down next to the couch. Not waking Die up, he started to study his lover’s face. He did it all the time. At night when he woke up and Die was asleep next to him, Shinya would watch him and smiled. He would also trace Die’s face with feather light touches. If Shinya was Die’s favorite subject, then Die was Shinya’s favorite sight.

Miyu licked Die’s fingers and the red head blinked his eyes.

“Die kun”

The older man turned around and looked surprise. The younger man smiled and took his hands.

“I’m sorry”

Die merely stared at him. Shinya sighed and continued, “I know I’m wrong. I shouldn’t have stolen that tape from Toshiya’s place. It felt awful when our tape went missing, I thought my world was crumbling down” Shinya paused to study Die’s fingers. “Yet I put Toshiya in the same situation”

Shinya shook his head and whispered, “I feel so bad. I’m really sorry” he looked up and smiled at Die, “Tomorrow, first thing in the morning. I will go to Toshiya’s house, with the tape …” he stopped and looked at Die, “I will … try to place it back at where I took it. Or maybe ..” he scratched his chin, “Maybe just put it in a random place. Pretend nothing happened”

Die opened his mouth but Shinya shook his head, “No, no. Don’t make me confess and apologize! Please!” he pleaded desperately, “If you make me do that, I won’t be able to face Toshiya, ever again”

Shinya waited for Die’s reaction. But the older man was only smiling.

“I was going to say” Die finally spoke, “You don’t have to do that”

The drummer widened his eyes

Die held Shinya’s hand tight, and continued, “I will go to Toshiya’s house. I will return the tape. I will place it in a random place, wherever” the red head shrugged, “I will do it”

Shinya was speechless.

“B-but … why?” he managed to utter

The guitarist slowly sat up, and pulled on Shinya’s arms so the younger man was sitting on the couch, next to him. Shinya watched as Die wrapped an arm around him and gave his left shoulder an assuring squeeze.

“I’m an idiot, Shinya. Or at least, I tend to act like one sometimes. When I messed up, you were right there for me. You cleaned up the mess I created, stood by me and at the end of the day, you made sure I was tucked in safely under the blanket at night”

Shinya smiled

“So when you screw up … once in a while” Die stuck out his chest and patted it a few times, “I’m here to fix it for you”

God, Die just knew the things Shinya would fall for.

“Thank you” he whispered, and threw his strong arms around the red head, “You’re so cheesy” Shinya muttered in Die’s shoulders. The older man leaned forward and pushed Shinya down the couch, “You know you like it” he flashed the mega watt smile.

Die suddenly turned to Miyu, sitting on the floor, “Adult content coming in five minutes, children please … go somewhere else” he said to the dog.

Miyu barked.

Shinya rolled his eyes, “Miyu is an adult”

“Well … I’m not comfortable being watched” Die pouted, defending himself

The drummer looked up and raised an eyebrow, “Ohh, so taping yourself doesn’t make you feel uncomfortable? Seriously Die, you say the most idiommmmmphh!!”

***

Meanwhile, far far away, across town, someone was very agitated.

“I can’t believe this!!!”

Toshiya threw yet another bag of garbage to a corner and stared at the living room.

“I’ve got … tons of crap!” he exclaimed, looking at the boxes piling up on the floor. He had managed to label them, tho. Clear enough for him to see half of the things he had didn’t even belong to him! Kaoru had a box. Die had one and a half, Shinya had two and Kyo omg, Kyo’s stuff …. filled five boxes. Toshiya grumbled and picked up the huge box he found in the kitchen, and then placed all Kyo’s belongings in it.

The bassist was quite pissed off. He had started searching for the tape from three in the afternoon, from the genkan (where they put their shoes – sorry I don’t know the English word for it ^^;), to the kitchen, to the living room, his room everywhere! But it’s not there! That stupid thing wasn’t here!!!

Toshiya sat down on the floor, thinking hard.

Was it missing?

He scrunched up his face. He was really sure he had it in his room. But it wasn’t there! Toshiya tried to refresh his memory but he just couldn’t remember!

Ooh God

Toshiya sighed

Time to admit it

Gone. It’s gone.

He was picturing Kaoru’s face. God. If he found out. No. WHEN he found out … that’d be the end of him.

Come on. Toshiya refused to give up and squeezed his eyes shut. He had to think hard. Where did he put it?!

Gah! He opened his eyes and saw the boxes

Damn boxes. So many boxes but none of his stuff! Boxes … box …

Wait

Toshiya blinked

Can I have this box?

Wait a minute

…

Shinya was here.

The tape couldn’t miraculously fly out the window could it? Toshiya was really sure he placed it in a right place. How if … it was STOLEN?

By Shinya?!

Toshiya got up, and started to walk around the living room.

Shinya DID appear OUT OF THE BLUE. Acting weird and all. How if … how if … he found the tape, and took it! Ohh! He WAS acting weird! He asked for a box, maybe he put it in the box!

And the more he thought of it, the angrier he became..

“Okay, think of it this way” he spoke to himself, “How sweet it was for Shinya to bring breakfast and bathroom stuff. He looked like he had something in mind. Then he started rummaging thru my cupboard, the shelves … maybe he found the tape, by accident!”

He raised an eyebrow, “Or was it an accident …? He didn’t drink the tea I made, didn’t even touch the food he supposedly bought so we could eat together! And he left without even saying goodbye!” Toshiya exclaimed. Then he realized he needed to calm down a bit, cuz his thoughts were scattered around and he needed to focus.

Finally, Toshiya put two and two together and came up with a conclusion. It had to be Shinya! Because no one else came to his house!

But … for what …?

A sextape was still a sextape. What good would it be for Shinya …?

Well, whatever it was, Toshiya had a suspect.

“Just wait and see, Shinya! Hi Totchi, just drop by to surprise you! Here’s breakfast and some African salt to calm your nerves” Toshiya said in a mocked sing sang tone, “Calm nerves my ass!” he hissed. Ohhh tomorrow morning. The bassist held his hands in fists and had this Toshiya Glint in his eyes.

Really, it was always UGLY when Toshiya jumped too quickly into his own conclusion.

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sidenote : i think this chap shucks ;__; i was in a bit of rush. me goin to singapore tml -__- n i was very distracted by seiichiyamagai's dieshin love timeline i just cant focus! comments r very appreciated! XDD

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