Chapter 3

 

Looking at the piece of paper in his hand, Shinya began wondering how to tell his lover about it. 'Should I tell him? Die~ This hospital can turn me into a woman so I can get pregnant! What do you think?.... No no I think that will be too big a shock for him if he wasn't in the mood, or...at all maybe.'

He drifted into his mind again but decided it was the only way to tell him, he would make his lover's favorite dish, and then he will risk starting World War three, and tell Die about the hospital.

Walking to the kitchen, he put on his pink apron. Collecting things from the fridge and cabinets and started to make the meal.

Turning the stereo on to a station currently playing Ayumi Hamasaki's Fly High song, he began humming the song as he start cutting vegetables. He placed a kettle of water over the stove, waiting until it screamed at him before pouring the boiling water into the pot of vegetables he'd sliced up. Shinya himself didn't like vegetables, but as long as Die did, he wouldn't mind them in the least.

He'd always dreamed of being female, it was how he pictured himself, he'd even chosen female clothes over all other styles. Maybe bribery would work.

Shinya start to prepare salad, dicing up tomatoes. He hadn't started this task until the actual dinner was pretty much done.

Die entered the flat he shared with his lover, throwing his car keys on the nearest table. 'I smell something delicious,' he thought as he slowly walk to the source scent.

He entered the kitchen and saw Shinya blowing on something and tasting it. Thus, came up behind him and hugged Shinya. The sudden embrace startling Shinya at first but he relaxed after seeing his lover's face.

"What's my little Shin-chan have here?" The red head cooed calmly in his ear.

Shinya giggle a bit then answered, "just making dinner for my Dai-Dai."

Die rose a fine brow and with an amused smile he replied, "wow that's new, something particular on Shin-chan's mind?"

"Ne Die-kun, I prepared the bathroom for you, why don't you go and take bath, until dinner is finished hai?" Shinya said as he pushed Die out of the kitchen and led him to the bathroom. He took Die's jacket off , smiled at him and went back to the kitchen, on the way placing the jacket in the closet.

Die couldn't complain, actually, Shinya didn't give him the time for that anyway.

After a while Die reappeared out of the bathroom with towel around his waist. He looked to the plates set on the table on his way towards the bedroom to get changed. He was hoping dinner was ready.

Ten minutes later and Die walked out of the bedroom, his mouth gaped at the scene in front of him. Plates arranged carefully and beautifully, red candles and red rose petals scattered all over the table, and two glasses of water beside other two for the wine.

Shinya wander out of the kitchen holding the tray with dinner on it. He gazed to Die, standing there stunned. Placing the tray on the table carefully and held the dish to place it on the middle of the table.

He smiled at Die and said, "come now why you are standing there?"

Die looked at Shinya who was wearing a beautiful short red dress which showed how elegant and slender he was, and don't forget about the legs. The legs that Die fell in love with at the first glance, and the smile, the smile that even made Die's heart flutter. God how much he loved this man..

Die sit at the table smiling at Shinya who poured red wine into his glass for him. Then Shinya took the opposite seat and sat across from Die.

After a nice dinner together Die and Shinya were sitting in the living room on the sofa.

Die sighed in content as he pat on his stomach, "God I'm full, that was very delicious meal, even my mother can't cook like that," he mumbled then flashed a wide smile as Shinya giggled and cover his mouth with his hand.

Die. being stubborn, removed Shinya's hand from his mouth "I want to see you smile.."

Shinya smiled at him, then Die kissed him on the lips softly, they parted after a few minutes from the lack of the oxygen. But that didn't stop Die from kissing along Shinya's jaw line and neck.

"I love you Shin-chan" He whispered as nipping softly on the other's neck. Shinya panted and tangle his fingers in Die's soft hair.

"I love you too Die-kun.. I love you so much.. But--" He gasped sharply as he felt Die's hand sneaking under his dress and stroking his inner thigh. Die stopped his hand movement to ask...

"But..?"

Shinya shifted on his seat, "well.." he looked around at everything but Die then complete "I-I... I want to show you... Something.."

Shinya stood up from the sofa and walked quickly to the bedroom, Die gazed at him with confused eyes. Shinya return to the living room and sat on the sofa beside Die. Die noticed that Shinya held something in his hands.

"Anou... Read this..?" He rose the piece of paper before of Die's face.

Die took the paper and read through it.
"Want You To Want Me Hospital, phone number 666double66?" mumbled the red head, and raising an eyebrow in curiosity.

"There is also a web site, here read it, it's down, I just didn't catch if it was .com or .net or whatever," Shinya replied as he pointed at the scratch on the paper.

"Okay..." Lowering the paper his intent gaze shifted to his lover. "w-what is this for?"

Shinya answered while he glanced everywhere, at everything.....but Die, "well, this hospital.. I saw this hospital advertisement yesterday... Uhm.. Yeeeah yesterday... A-and they..They said there is are pills.. pills you take for twenty days.. and-and then.." The words were stuttered and jumped together awfully.

"Come now spit it out, you take pills and?"

"It..It helps.. I mean..It changes.. No turns.... you into a woman then you get pregnant --"

"SHINYA!!!!!!!!!!!!" Die yelled out in shock and disbelief and Shinya rose his both hands to cover his face, he was afraid that Die would hit him at any point..

"Shinya are you crazy? Do you believe this shit!? Those people are liars!! Only stupid naive people like you will believe those stupid things--"

"But he said 95% of the people he had tests on succeeded--" Shinya attempted to defend.

Only to be cut off again.

"95% of the people he had tests on are DEAD!" Die spat out and Shinya winced at the tone, bit his lip and Die continued "Shinya... IF you ever tired or even thought about trying to turning into a girl with the help of some whack job psychopath.... I will never forgive you, hell you would never be impregnated by me, because I would leave you never never touch you -again.-" There was no thought for the others feelings, no pity in his tone, but Shinya was being ridiculous.

"And THIS!" he snapped, ripping the paper into many pieces and throwing it in the air, so the pieces flew in front of Shinya's face. "Is ridiculous."

Die walked to the bedroom and slammed the door behind him. While Shinya still sat in the same spot on the sofa looking stunned, he blinked few times still absorbing what did Die just said a second ago.

"Hidoi..." He whispered hugging himself, rubbing his temples trying to calm himself down.

A few minutes later Die came out of the bedroom and saw Shinya draw his knees to his chest and prop his chin up, staring at the coffee table in front of him.

Die moved slowly and sat beside Shinya. Shinya could smell the tobacco emitted from Die's presence, but he still did not want to look at him.

"...Shinya.." Die started, "Shinya look at me.." but Shinya didn't abide Die's request. Die sighed and looked away to the floor as he spoke, "Shinya I don't want you to do these things because I really care about you! I don't want anything bad to happen to you... I know it will make you happy if you have a child but think about what could happen if it didn't work? What if you become ill or what if the operation didn't succeed--"

"There is no operation." Shinya cut him off almost bitterly.

Die sighed and completed his side, "okay even if there is no operation how can you believe them? They just want to have money anyway. Even if that requires they lie " His tone of voice stayed to a calm neutral sound. Placing his hand softly to the others back a weak sigh passing his lips when no response came.

"I don't want anything from this world.. I just want you Shinya.. Just...I, want to see you happy.. But in the same time? I don't want to see you suffer.. Shinya.. Shinya I love you and I also would love to have a child with you. But...No. No I don't want you to be pregnant or transformed into a woman or anything. I want you as you are Shinya.. we can adopt a child."

Shinya looked at Die, opened his mouth to say something but nothing came out. Pressing his lips in thin line and looking to the floor not saying anything.

Die looked at him carefully, "we can adopt a child, I want you to, one who looks like me and you, if you want.. Tell me what do you think about that..?" Die asked with wide smile as he looked at Shinya.

Shinya on the other hand was looking at the floor, lost. He wanted to have his own child.. But it seemed that Die does not agree at all..

He looked at Die with small smile, and he nodded.

Die can see the shine of tears hanging from Shinya’s eyelashes. He bent down and kissed him softly, Shinya sighed and closed his eyes.

Die kissed Shinya with both hands holding his pretty face, kissing his eyelids, cheeks, and jaw line. He trailed the kisses to his mouth. He kissed Shinya's lips and sucked on them, sliding his tongue into the others hot cavern. But when they parted, Shinya only looked confused as to how Die could seem so angry one moment, but loving the next.

Die didn't hesitate a moment, he gathered Shinya into his arms bridal style, taking him to the bedroom.

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Next day Shinya woke, his eye fluttered open. The strong sunlight made him cover his face with his hand, he looked to his left, 'Seems that Die woke up early today...' he thought to himself. Rising from the bed, he winced a bit, then looked around and search for his red dress. He found it laying on the floor no too far from the bed. Bending down to pick it he walked to the chair in front of the dressing table, placing the dress there and picking up his bathrobe he wandered to the bathroom.

After taking a nice long shower he walked to the bedroom and changed his clothes. Then went to the kitchen to make cup of tea for himself.

He waited for the water to boil, looking around curiously.

" I wonder where is Die.. Where did he go..? He said that we would go out today.." He pouted, speaking aloud to himself and looked at the water, boiling. He poured the water in his cup and added sugar and then placed the tea bag in his cup, wandering from the kitchen to the living room sitting in front of the TV and focusing on the news.

Die entered the flat humming a happy song to himself as he swirled his keys with his finger. He stopped in his tracks when he saw Shinya sitting on the sofa watching TV. A smile crept on his face, he walked and sat on the chair beside the sofa where Shinya was.

Shinya tore his eyes from the TV and looked at Die.

"Oh you are back, thought you wouldn't be for a while," he said with smile.

"Did you forget that today we are going to the adoption center? " Die, still smiling as he answered Shinya.

Shinya bent his head and smiled shyly, he thought that Die was joking with him yesterday or something.

"So.. do you want to go now..?" He asked, and Shinya nodded "Then go and change your clothes now, I will wait for you in the car."

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They entered the adoption center together, some of the kids were playing outside which caught Shinya's attention. He looked at them with a wide smile, Die standing beside him with his hands in his pockets.

A girl walk beside them, Shinya bent down smiling at her, "Hello little girl, what's your name?" He asked softly, though, the girl looked at Shinya then she turned around and walked away without saying a word.

"Ooh she is so kawaii," Shinya squealed.

Die sighed as he thought 'I don't know what is the kawaii thing in this situation.'

A middle-aged woman walked toward them, Die and Shinya bowed to her, she asked them if they needed help and Die told her that they wanted to adopt a child. And so she led them to the main entrance and told them about the center and what to do.

As they were walking some other kids playing in room caught Shinya's attention and he walked to the big glass window as if in a trance, he placed both hands flat on the cold glass as he is gazed at the children.

Die walked in Shinya's direction, standing beside him. The woman came along behind him and told him that the kids were from age two to five. Shinya was looking at the kids, they were all playing together but he spotted a girl who sitting alone in the corner holding her teddy bear.

"Why is that girl sitting there.. alone? " He asked pointing at the girl, Die and the woman looked over.

Then came the woman's answer. "Oh, that girl been like this since she came to the center 2 weeks ago. She has some kind of autism She has never spoken to anyone since the day she entered this place, and never shows any emotions."

Shinya's eyes soften as he heard this, then he immediately responded, "I want her."

Die quickly turned to him, "Eh..?"

"You heard me, I want her."

"But.. She is ill, she is...is"

"Don't you say it! She just has small problem which we can solve if we show her love and care!" He snapped quickly.

"Shinya!! Are you serious?? If you want her you should consider that you will have to deal with her problem! Hell it's not like you are buying a dress and take it home then didn't like it so you return it." Die said carefully.

"Die I know that! I'm not a child you know," He spat back right back.

"But she is--"

"SHE IS NOT~!" Shinya cut his words, when the woman faked a cough to get their attention to her. Shinya looked at the floor blushing and Die looked away.

He sighed then asked the woman.. " How old is this girl..?

"She just turned 3," the woman answered almost hesitantly.

"Oh so sweet" Shinya nearly squealed, "what's her name?"

"Miyu."

Shinya's eyes widen and Die looked at the floor in defeat he knew for sure that Shinya would never change his mind about this girl now.

"Miyu-chan.." Shinya whispered to himself then turn to Die, "Die! I want this girl!"

Die only nodded then looked at the woman. "What do we need to do so we can adopt her?" He asked as he walked with the woman to her office, Shinya still watching the kids.

"You will need documents such as a birth certificate, marriage license, child abuse clearance, and personal references. So at least one meeting will be at your home"

"oh.." was Die's only response, He look down and bit on his lip.

"Why you want to adopt a child?"

Die froze before stammering his answer, "oh..it's.. it's because.."

"Your wife has problems..?" She inquired.

"Yeah...she...can't get pregnant?" He wince at his own answer, but he didn't lie did he?

"I see. Well you can come tomorrow to complete the documents ,If you want to read about this girl here is her information," she handed a paper to Die, who looked through it.

After reading Miyu's information and made an appointment with the woman tomorrow so he could complete the documents, Die bowed and walked out of the office. He spotted Shinya who was standing in the same spot before Die left him.

Shinya looked in Die's direction with questioning eyes. Die nodded and smiled at him, "Tomorrow we will finish the documents," to this, Shinya smiled widely and hugged Die.

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Next day Shinya and Die headed to the adoption center at 1:30 P.M.

30 minutes later Shinya opened the flat door and head to the bed room with long steps, Die walked slowly closing the door behind him.

Entering the bed room Shinya threw himself on the bed crying his heart out the clenching the bed sheet under him.

"Why? Why?" Shinya cried out.

Die sat beside him placing comforting hand on his back, "Shinya.."

Sobbing, Shinya asked, "Why Die..? Why they don't want me to have a child? Why, why?? I'm human like they are!"

"..."

"I.. is it bad thing to be gay..? is it..?" Shinya clenched his jaw, tears running from his eyes.

Die pulled him into hug whispering and cooing in a gentle voice.

~~~~ 7:00 P.M. ~~~~

Shinya opened his eyes looking around, he was laying in bed and Die seemed to be nowhere. Glancing at the window, he frown, it seemed that he slept for a long time.

Walking out of the room he saw Die in the kitchen placing something in the sink.

"Oi, you are awake?"

"Hai.. Anou.. why you didn't wake me up?" Shinya questioned in a small voice.

"You looked tired and miserable, thought sleeping would make you feel better... feeling better..?" Die asked

"Hai.." Whispered Shinya.

"Good," he headed to the bedroom.

Shinya's heart felt heavy, he could tell what Die was going to say now. So he walked to the bedroom slowly, seeing that Die peered into his wardrobe makes his heartache.

"Die?" He softly called.

"Yes honey?" Die responded not even looking at the man who was standing at the rooms entrance. "Here it is!" He pulled out a T-shirt then looked at Shinya. "What is it Shinya?"

"A-Are you going.. out?"

"Yeah, I'm going go to my friends. Don't wait for me for dinner, I won't be home until later."

Shinya froze on the spot, was Die really that emotionless?

"Ja," was the last thing Shinya heard from Die before he closed the door behind him.

"Kuso!!!!"

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Drinking milk, and watching some boring TV show, while flipping in some magazine, multi tasking, a thought hit him...
"No! I'm not staying home! Die goes out and meets his friends every day and I get stuck in this apartment! I will go yes out, I will," Shinya decided

He took his jacket and left the apartment.

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The street was crowded with people, Shinya walked through them, but the stopped walking and reading some advertisement that caught his attention. Then he felt something bump his legs, he looked down and saw a little boy, he smiled at the look on the young face, bending to be in the same level, "What's wrong cutie, got lost?"

The child didn't respond but Shinya was still smiling at him, "what's your name?" He asked but then a large sized woman pulled the boy almost harshly scolding him.

" How many time should I told you not to speak to strange people!?" She pulled the boy away and never looking in Shinya's direction.

Shinya huffed in irritation, 'Why did mean people have sweet kids?' Pouting at the thought something made his vision go blank, he flinched and took it away from his face.

Looking at the old newspaper in his hand, he huffed again, he was going to throw it but something caught his eye.

'Want You To Want Me Hospital, we will always make you happy, call us, take it, try it, make it, and you will have it, trust us, we only want to see you happy.'

Happy.

'Happy..?' Shinya thought, his eyes gleaming as he smiled. "Lucky me!!"

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Author Notes:

1. I'm sure Shinya's behavior will annoying you all, but well he will change that when he will get what he want ne?

2.Big thanks to sugar_x_pain she Beta-ed this Chapter.

3.Forgive us me and Nao chan coz I were lazy and she were sick..

4. comments are love <3

Beta Notes:
1. Shinya's behavior is annoying Nao to no end. Oh the drama.
2. This took me a while to beta, I was sick, and the weather didn't help my mood any, and some other things stepped in the way.
3. I'm just the beta, I shouldn't be leaving notes, but I wanted to apologize to Uru-chan and everybody for having to wait so long.