Thoughts Of A Lunatic!

Kaleidoscope

Kaleidoscope soul
Chameleon eyes
Charcoal smudges as he cries
Give him a swollen smile
Stroke his face with mucky blue fingers
Wince as the bruises swell
He opens his mouth to speak
And is given a cyclone glare
The atmosphere turns over inside itself
The terror of what he hasn't said
Eats me up
Chews me and shreds my skin
He watches the nothing pour out
Curious eyes and eager hands
Runs a finger along my battered soul
Looks affectionately into my dull swampy eyes
Pools of dirt he sees and loves
Breathes in the stench of my rotten heart
Silent as it beats passionately on the ground beside me
Spitting crimson blood in his direction
All over his nice clean shoes
Caressing my cheek he gives a sigh
Whispers calmly a soft goodbye
And turns to leave
A blood-drenched hand grasps his
Desperation in it's purest form
Attempt to pull him closer
Smearing him in my sadness
Coating him in my sorrow
Offering him my worthlessness with a big pink ribbon and a plastic smile
Who would want it?
Feel him running down my face
Once I believed he would be here forever
With me in this pit of desperation
But he was always more
Always weaving magic around this domestic wasteland
My life
My world
Ruins
Love that is tangled like I am now
Knotted and ripped like I lay here now
Painted in the same crimson blood that I paint myself with now
Wishing he'd come back
Love me again like he always preaches he does
Does he?
Contemplate the idea
And scoop up the chards from my glassy eyes
Watch him try to walk away once more
Through the misty lens of the Kaleidoscope
Keep it forever close by
Just like him