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Demon of Elru @ 5/31/01 10:41PM

    First, CASEY @$%#$@$ %&#!#$% @%$*%^!!!!!! Okay, my car CD player is being weird. The thing is crap, 3 of my speakers isn't working, the thing is so fucked up! God!  Damn car, my I blow like... 3 fuses today! damn car! damnit!

Demon of Elru @ 05/30/01 10:53PM 

    First of all, before what I must say. I must mention that Trisha's new hair-do is is great! Oh yes Trisha, I did notice them ;-) I notice things people do not think I realize it's there... Now, continue my daily blahbling. I am very angry at Mike!! Once again, he got into an accident! Now he can't go anywhere, and just yesterday, he told me his will get his sunroof fixed once he get the money... I guess the money will be now spend on repair on the wheels and everything! Ugh!  Today I had a very bad headache, I couldn't get outta my bed. Thank you, Trisha, for asking about my health ;-p Well, I must go continue cleaning my damned room, later folks! BTW, check out the clan page to see my updated score in CS!

Elly Forever @ 05/30/01 11:38PM

Well...Tam started her new medications today...we'll see if there is any improvements. I think she knows shes dying...she asked me to take care of her sister if anything should happen to her. Tam and Stephanie are extremely close, so it would be natural for her to ask me to do something of that nature. Sometimes I don't know what to do... Fate a load of bullshit, I know there is more to this world then some set plan...we arnt in a movie...there are no scripts. I keep telling myself that...but who am I kidding. I cant argue science... I dont know what I would do without her. I love her in a way that most people will never know... Perhaps this is why I have no set path in my ways...sometimes Im an asshole to other people...then sometimes Im the nicest person in the world. someone was trying to convince me that money is the most important thing. I told him to go fuck himself, I would rather live in a box on the street and be happy then to be rich with these feelings. I cant help but feel Im being selfish...I didnt even tell her...but what do you say to someone like that. "hey...guess what, your life is pointless...you're going to die soon!" Fuck that, fuck fate, fuck everything. I cant. I wont. God...could you imagine if she read this...maybe this isnt such a good idea...another mixed emotion...in a way I feel I am letting out things that do not belong outside of my mind...yet in another way...I feel better, knowing that everyone in the world can know what i'm thinking... Perhaps Ill have something good to report next time.

Demon of Elru @ 05/29/01 10:13PM

    This really suck, we weren't able to construct Victor a PC for Slagg. Realized my GeForce2 MX 200 with a dead fan!! >:o Everything is going wrong, god damn it.  I am gonna fucking kill something. Happy Birthday to Holly. Bon Voyage pour tu, Melanie :-p ahh that's it for today, you cna all die! Because I am fucking depressed!

Elly Forever @ 05/26/01 11:48PM

Greatings...this is my first offical entry here. My name is unimportant, but what I have to say is very important! ....(not really...I just heard that line used in a radio comercial, and I found it funny). Xiwei introduced me to this place a while ago. It would be a nice way to know more about him....if I didnt already know everything :-D. I guess Im going to use it more as a vent... Many things on my mind that I need to let out...but no one I want there to listen. Actually...it doesnt make sence...I keep things to myself, only to tell the whole world, by posting it on the net...Hmmm.... Ah well...Its not like anyone I know is going to read this... But in the spirit of unity...Today, I... Had a picnic with my girlfriend in our backyard...which was soon ruined by the rainstorms. Then we went shopping...I got a new shirt, and she got this cute little sweater. Although its summertime, and its hard to wear sweaters in the summer....its still cold here. i think the high was 55 degrees. Other then that, nothing to eventful....went for a drink after dinner, and came home. :-)

Demon of Elru @ 05/27/01 02:55AM

    It has been not so fun day, things has been going wrong... my subs are not kicking hard as they should be... but anyway, we had a Clan war in CS tonight, it was great... I was owning everyone with a MP5, it was all equipment, MP5, Default sidearm and knife ONLY. I also rented 2 videos, Dune and Predator oh yeah! Brandi suppose to come to my house, OR Mike and I suppose going to her house around 0400 hours ;-) Casey is continuing her eternal struggle to get me to be friend with her again... (Yes, I said eternal, she won't give up!) Humans... Back to Dune, laters......................    

Voice of Id @ 05/26/01 12:38AM

    Sorry, I was late home :-D I got my subwoofer box today! yay! cost me 150 dollars :'(  Yes, you must think that the money could've spend on something else, or some others... would think that I should've spent it on someone else. Too bad I have no one to spend it on... to keep my self-esteem up, I've decided to set up the system in my car.  Today, the one who returned my year book that Mike was suppose to have.. was no one else but Casey! Why must she keep giving me trouble? If not someone else signed the back of it and I didn't want to damage this new book, I would've just ripped her comments out. Once again Casey, remind you that we are no friends, never will was, never will be, give up already. Happy birthday to Holly at Pub-X. Today at school... even though I didn't really want to say it, but many other agreed, TAG and MN looked great today :-D Yeah, if you want me to remove this comment, just tell me, and I will remove it, if you feel offensive, like most of the other stuff I put on here. (I know this log offended a lot of people lately. Once again, to remind you all, if I ever made you feel I am been offensive or if you think I did something wrong, simply tell me or IM me, sometime I am really uh.. screw up... yes. System is complete, many of you experienced it tonight, including MM, AJ, TAG, MN, Lisan and Pat-Rik. Well, gonna leave this with a simple thanks to all my readers! You humans rule!

Demon of Elru @ 05/24/01 09:22PM

    Sorry haven't updated lately, a lot of crap has been going on... much things I realized... There are friends out there looking after me, they are people that acknowledge my existence... The year book has been great, people has been signing it. Thanks to you all! I finally went to first period today... made it, got a referral and possibly ISS... lame... That's pretty much it... One thing I must mention...

CASEY, I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS, LEAVE ME ALONE! GO ALONG WITH YOUR OWN BUSINESS! CHRIST!

Elly Forever

Hi.

Demon of Elru @ 05/21/01 10:40PM

    Humans... this dating crap is such a bull crap... This blind date show is such a fucked up crap. They showed a guy that's like... almost like me... Computer nerd, Comic book collector, not a sports guy... he ended up with NUMEROUS BREAK UPS, HAVEN'T DATED FOR 3 YEARS.... now I fear the worse... maybe I should finish this life before I become someone like him.... ugh... poor guy... poor me...  

Demon of Elru @ 05/20/01 10:34PM

    woah... a comercial on A.I. looks pimp. Anyway, market suspect that the price of CD-R are going to go up this summer, Kevin wasn't taking chances, he loaded up on CD-Rs... wasn't bad... 30 bucks for 100 CD-R. Otherwise, there was nothing really happened today... Brandon has been proven wrong, it did hurt me a bit, but knowing my victory over him has make me ignore the pain (At least, trying to) ah well..... 

Demon of Elru @ 5/19/01 10:46PM

I guess I hate doing this shit during the weekends, since I am a bitch, and a lazy nerdy kid, I figure I never did anything all day long. This world fucking suck! Somebody kill me! Augh!!! Yes I am complaining how depressed I am, don't ask me why, I am just fucking depressed! Everything is fucking wrong! Nothing is okay! I hate all this shit! augh! Somebody comfort me.....

Voice of Id @ 5/17/01 10:49PM

    Humans.... It has been a good day. I couldn't wait to hook up my subs, so I used the boxes that it came in as the box for now. It works quite efficient... :-p Found out that Ilyas and Lise-Anne are dating now, congratulations to both of them :-D Also congratulations to Victor, Trisha and Melanie, they will be free from the bondage of school! Note for today, Mike had an away message about Casey doing something, I fear the worst. I hope she feels better ;-) That's all for today! 31337!

Voice of id @ 5/16/01 10:22PM

    I got my car back today! yay! Thanks Mike for giving me a ride to Mercury... The cost was $787 dollars.  Yeah! Since that... I have to wait for a bit for the CD player..... M&M Ownz! I don't have much today today. Oh yeah... My first period teacher has been wondering where I've been :-D She even called my house :-p (I haven't been to her class for 6 days straight :-p ) that's it for tonight, oh yeah.... I got a Bra for my car.. kinda don't fit or some crap... oh welll.......

Demon of Elru @ 5/15/01 10:12PM

    Another crap day. The repair isn't done, the stuff isn't even here yet! augh! I hope it gets done tomorrow. I didn't have to work today! :-) !!! If I had my car, I would've went to see the Mummy returns... That movie looks pimp. Tonight's Dark Angel looks quite funny too! There isn't much happened today. Crappy..... 

Demon of Elru @ 5/14/01 10:55PM

    Crap day, the repair for the car will be around 600-700 dollars, 4 new tires and 2 wheels... and they are used too... new ones cost about 300+ a piece... the used one only cost about 200 or so.. had to go with the used ones.... Then at work, there was nothing to do. Everything sucked. This is weird... I've been listing to Shania Twain... weird crap.  Then tonight.. went to Taste of Tokeyo... a bowl of rice... 21 dollars.. a noodle soup... 15 dollars.... and a whole shit load of sushi... total = 83 dollars! and we weren't even full! blasted japanese! Die! 

Demon of Elru @  5/13/01 10:56PM

    Sorry I haven't been updating this place. I guess I am getting a bit bored putting things here, and no one is reading it. If someone IS reading it... please... sign my guest book, or give me an e-mail or joinin in the forum! Anyway, the last few days has been quite hell-ish. Brandon has been advancing on his devious plan to own me, he is getting too close for comfort.  Then I busted two of my tires! 2!!!! and the rims (chrome...) are most likely be replaced. Est. repair is around $450 for 4 new tires and 2 new wheels.  Bah well.... Me don't get drive for a few days... If the axles are bent... I expect probably a few weeks. Oh yeah... the system will be put in soon as the car is done. Randal did the hook up to my car... it's great... perfect.. you can't even see the wires! I will have the cd player within the next 2 weeks... goody... now.. long as my car is good. Woah... Max X is sick... ah well.... I wanna see the new planet of the apes!

Elly Forever @ Unknown time

    Apparently, I might give Brandon access on editing this web log. But He did find 2 files of he and I talking! This guy is awsome, I own him lots!

Demon of Elru @ 5/10/01 8:39PM

    Today sucks BFGs....... My whole neck hurts...think i'll skip skool tomorrow or some crap, got my subs today! yay! Yes, the pic does look weird. Looks almost like my arms are missing... ah well. I can't wait till it's hooked up! I'll be playing techno a lot! I already tried them in Kevin's car, runs great, even he wants them now too! I will be going to sleep early tonight, sorry to all the Pub-X homies, I didn't come by. I'll see all yo foo'z tomorrow, later dawg!

Demon of Elru @ 5/9/01 10:36PM

    Day has been bad and evil. I had to spit out a few of the severalr easons I dislike Casey, and after I told her, she seemly accepted and left me alone, thank god! My Subwoofers also arrived today...but because no one was home to sign the papers, UPS will try again tomorrow. For unknown reasons, Brandi and Mike are not getting along, I hope Mike would tell me what happened. Supposely, Casey also visited Publix, and left with a smile, that gives me a feeling of evil plans ahead.. I feel unease... Dwane got Tribes2!!! Now we can all go Tribin' together! Yay! I also got some food for Lise-Anne tonight, and she was quite happy with it :-D Other than that... everything kinda sucked bad. 3 more compoents before my car stereo is completed: 

Dual 12" Band Pass Box

Car CD Players that's CD-RW Compatible

All the hook ups

Thing I have:

1000 Watts Legacy Series 2 High Power Amplifier

Two 12" 600 watt Kenwood Tornado 

Optional things I am thinking about getting

1 - 2 Faret Capacitor

Lightning Rod

Equalizer 

Demon of Elru @ 5/8/01 10:41PM

    It has been kinda crappy all day, people are all wacked toward me, supposely, everyone is pissed off at me, according to Mike. Well.. IF YOU PEOPLE HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME, THEN TELL ME! STOP TELLING MIKE! IF YOU DON'T TELL ME, HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW I DID WRONG? BLAH! Otherwise... everything else was stupid, didn't have the guts to finish off Brandon's task tonight...GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... oh well... Try to make this stupid page to password protected, it didn't work! I am pissed!

Demon of Elru @ 5/7/01 9:34PM

    It has been a pretty crap day, woke up to find my jeans with the super glue still on it! Mike!!!!!!!  Then school went as usual. Then after school, I got my car's oil changed and they found out my back tires are shot.. (Wonder why :-p) After that, I got my 1000watt amp back from Dwane's house, all dirty and I had to clean it... :-! so far, nothing but bad luck... Then while I was at Mel's diner, Brandi called me and called me a jerk for my post yesterday! I think that if someone feel offended, they need to NOT READ THIS WEB LOG, because I didn't force them, I speak all truth on here, and I end up getting bitched at! Stupid... I went to her house, Brandi's mom was very friendly.. TOO Friendly in fact... then she bitched at me more and then she said she and Casey was going to do something.. At the word of Casey... I just left.. I didn't hear what else she said to me, and I didn't really care. Afterward, tried to shop for some seat covers for my car, end up with nothing really good. I did stop by Publix and Melanie showed me the Prom pics, they were quite lovely... Err.. I mean.. Nice .., Yeah.. There was a girl that Melanie took a lot of pictures of.. seems like a bit like Trisha.. but the hair wasn't right.. and the lips wasn't right either.. Maybe IT WAS TRISHA, but with like.. make-up.. ah well....  Trisha pulled a Rachael is engaged prank.. blah.. It was quite lame, and the customer heard what they said and added their own comment on Lesbians and homosexuals... I notice that EVERY TIME when I see Trisha.. a topic related to Sex shows some.. I guess it's just her.. :-\ Afterward, I came home to rot in this hell hole and waiting patiently for my Subwoofer to arrive.. which it did not... Oh, and I hooked my Amplifier to Randal's car.. it worked quite well.. Can't wait till I get mine ^_^ Now I must go to my aunt's house because my uncle came in town.. Sooo.. leave comments on my away message to the forum is fine, later kiddies!

Voice of id @ 5/6/01 10:58PM

    Boring day today, nothing exciting went on, no one interesting came on either. Besides Mike.. and his continue love toward a "Godness who treat [him] like a dog" - ME I feel really bad for the guy, dunno when will he stop looking at her... Another thing bothered me...

Ellyforever (10:51:02 PM): dude...school is almost over...
Voice of id (10:51:40 PM): so?
Voice of id (10:51:46 PM): NO BRANDON! NO!
Ellyforever (10:51:52 PM): ....
Ellyforever (10:52:01 PM): Ill give you $100 if you do :-[
Ellyforever (10:52:03 PM): :-)
Voice of id (10:52:49 PM): lol!
Voice of id (10:52:50 PM): NO!
Ellyforever (10:52:58 PM): >:o
Ellyforever (10:53:48 PM): you ass fucker...god...Ive never seen someone so stuborne to help themself :-!
Voice of id (10:54:47 PM): lol

Brandon need to STOP his annoying comments at once! Time tos ave up money to build a LAN box for myself to own people with :-P yeah! Oh yeah, today I also reformatted my PC 3 times >:o pain in the ass... Scary people are going on and off line, and I've reached my limit to stay up, mom wants me in bed by 11:00PM :-! stupid... ah well, later people! Oh yeah... Gonna see a new Icon around the weblog soon! yay!

Demon of Elru @ 5/6/01 12:15AM

    Spent the day at AJ's house tweaking things out... I think the Prom just ended, everyone SHOULD be getting home now.. Unless they are doing the "Prom Tradition" so Brandon said. Trisha said she will take mucho pics for me to see. I might able to get permission to post a few up here :-D and just MAYBE those pictures might change my mind about not going next year.. I still doubt I would want to go. Brandon has been trying to get me to ask someone out, but I've resist, one of this days, he is gonna lsoe hair from that! I updated the picture page with a new pic ^_^ that pic is hot w00t! What you won't belive is that, the person isn't real! It's all computer! >:o!!!! 

Demon of Elru @ 5/3/01 10:34PM

    My whole body hurts... It sucks! Thanks to playing football and having my spine ram by a 300 pound guy... augh.... I was on the ground for almost a minute going "AGUH!!!!" It really sucked bad, when the guy hit me in the back, I landed hard on the grass with my chest.. now when I take deep breath.. It hurts.. :-( I think I will skip first tomorrow again, because that class is really gay, and I have a 50 in the class anyway. Congrag Ms. Braniff, you'll be the first class I've failed in my whole school career! Stupid bitch... I really need the rest now... oh and by the way... you people PLEASE Leave some feedback or comments on the forum, already got 1 person to posy :-D I am happy about that. I think I'll go take a break in my bed now from my body injuries.. Later people! 

Demon of Elru @ 5/2/01 10:57PM

    Crap day I guess, finally Mike gave Casey her presents! Seems that she like it, according to Mike. Well, at least I don't have to worry about that crap anymore, Casey has been trying to convert me back or some crap, I wasn't about to fall for it. I also got a great deal today, 2 600watt 12"s for less than 140 dollars! That's a great deal! I still suck in Tribes 2, I think CS is the only PC FPS Game I am good at... ick...  I've opened a special section in the Forum just for the web log. Thus stop leaving the comments in the guest book! Brandon is hooked on Bjork's "All is full of love", he can't stop singing it! I love this guy! I need more money.. so I can complete the system in my car.. augh!

Voice of id @ 5/1/01 11:11PM

    Today wasn't really interesting, nothing cool happened. Everything went on normally. I don't think I have anything to mark down for today, beside Brandon keeps bugging me about asking someone to Prom, even thought I've already considered NOT GOING! So people need to elave me out of school dancing conversations.. blah...

Once again, I encourage people who have comments on my posts to post in the FORUM! not the guest book >:o

Demon of Elru @ 4/30/01 10:48PM

     Damn this day, today was one of those days I do not want to live over again! Fucking sucked! everything was wrong! Mike Super glued my pants onto the school bench! leaving me with a big green spot on my ass! (the glue was strong, , it rip the paint off the bench :-o )  Then afterwards, some ass decided to put water on the spot iw as sitting in, leaving me with wet pants/t-shirt! It has been crap all day, was gonna send money out, print out the wrong address when I got to the postal office! After work comes back to Casey's plea a crap that I didn't wanna hear, only to get to Publix with a whole bunch of dirty looks from people.. ugh.. fuck today! The only good thing was I got to use my mom's Honda Civic, the car isn't better than mine or anything, but for now, the Civic has a better stereo  system, when I get the money..it's time for 2 500watt 10's!Times I wonder... why must i go through hell everyday!?

Voice of id @ 10:30PM

     It's a fine day people open windows, they leave their houses just for a short while.... Today has been a okay day, no bullshit from anyone, everything went my way. Brandon will be taking the Voodoo5 off my hands, while he gives me a Geforce2 MX. Gave some food away again, Mike always gets his wonton :-p I went to a customer of the restaurant's house, she used to be an art teacher... my god, she has so much art stuff, work made with different medium, paint, pen, rocks, stone, wood, water, fabric, car metals and even glass! I am sure a few people I know won't mind going there for a visit. Their house was basically a mini art gallery. Afterwards, I stopped by Pub-X to give away FOOD (I am nice am I not?) Saw this stupid kid from school, and he works there! Pub-X newbies don't know I am god there :-p Comes back to some Black & white with a TNT2! Ack, it lags... sometime after B&W, Brandi came on explain about why she is pissed about everything... See what people feel when they got no Id? They feel like crap! :-p Id rules. Prom seems to be May 5th, Trish and Mel seems ready to go, part of me want to go, part of me doesn't I guess that's the only bad thing about life, to be...or not to be....that is the question... But i am not even a senior, so I can stop worry about it, I doubt I will go next year, stupid dances... stupid..... oh yeah, any reader of this stupid web log, drop by the guest book or the fourm to tell me what do you think. Thanks!

All you know...

Is alone...

You see a

Phantom Stranger...

Demon of Elru

    I am really pissed about for the fact that my Voodoo5 is fried! Ido is not a happy camper because he spent 140 dollars on the card. Today's web log won't be long, Trisha kinda rushed me a bit. Anyway, Casey and I have completely stopped talking, I give her no IM, she sends me nothing. The thing seems will be this way for a bit. I got Tribes2! Can't play it because my Voodoo died! god dmanit! fucking shit! now i need to go get a new graphic card... what should I get? Another voodoo5? a Geforce2? or... a GeForce3 *HINT HINT* ^_^ Blah.... Nothing much else really happened today, everything has been lameness, fuck this crap!

Voice of id 04/28/01 @ 1:10AM

    OOOkay...let's talk about Friday (Damn Black & White has been slowing me down on doing web logs... 

school was just like normal, but I lost the basketball game, the other team was unfair anyway. All because our whole team are guys, the girls pushed us away and just whine about "don't touch me!" crap... gayness. Then got to lunch... heh... Mike started pinching Melanie's butt and stuff. The funniest thing I thought it was when Mike put Mel's keys into his back pocket and Mel was force to reach into his back pocket to get it ^_^; Then Trisha came by and they started playing around... It made me a bit jealous, but who the hell cares. Afterwards, Mel and Trish started throwing French fries at us... ick... one of these days, I'll get them back. Went to work...washed my car at work, it came back out just as dirty...ugh.. I was in a bit of happy mood today, so I figure I'll let people order Chinese food for free. Mike ordered a Wonton soup, and Trisha got a cashew chicken and a hot and sour soup. I am sure they've enjoy it. Came home to more Black and White! That game freakin addictive! ah! All because of the game, I missed all the friends came online, if they did come on... :-p oh well...

Demon of Elru 04/27/01 @ 2:37PM

    Didn't update last night...didn't get home till around...9:30, and then I was too busy playing Black and White to care about the web log. Everything was fine yesterday, besides for the fact that Casey sent me a few more messages. After school, I went to AJ's place ^_^ had some great fun and got some pimp games ^_^ Came home around 9:30, more Black and White... That's pretty much it about that day. The night before (4/25/01), after I completed the log, I had some an awesome chat with Mel, Brandon and AJ via voice conference  in Yahoo! Messenger. Some of you guys should get it, so we can have a shit load of us there! It would be very cool.... Gonna go play my Black and White.. Laters...

Demon of Elru 4/25/01

    It sucked ass today! My whole body felt like shit, I had to stay home from school, not like it wasn't good, but I miss all my friends :-( So, there wasn't actually much happening today. I still not yet able to sell my PC to anyone yet, thus it sucks. I got on the PC for a while, end up with Casey IMing me, why does she IM me? I don't know she is trying to "save our friendship"..MY ASS! If she still care that much, then she would know NOT to send me corny-ass chain letters! It was a bunch of shit. I am so pissed over that, I can kill someone, maybe myself.... There is a great contest at [H]ardOCP for a [H]ooter shirt, wore by a Hooter waitress during her shift, they took it, got her to signed it and sealed it for "freshness" heh heh... I registered for it, maybe I can convince a girl to ware it, so I can get THREE CPU coolers for free! w00t! I've also stopped by Pub-X today as usual, Mike wasn't there, so I left the Chinese food at the upstairs lounge for whatever hungry Pub-X worker to feast on. I also saw some of the greatest girls around town at hard work..^_^...hope none of them read this thing... ROFL.. I am kidding myself... Everyone was there in the beer section O_o Trisha, Brandi, Melanie, and her...and her...(Trisha and Mel is two of the few tall girls I know, can't miss them, and Brandi was upfront of everyone, CAN'T miss her either...) Then afterwards, I've came home looked at some 1337 heat sinks and coolers, saw some great talks about the GeForce3... Always wanted one.. heh...Maybe I will get one :-p We'll see!

Voice of id 4/24/01

    It's been a pretty trishy day, no evil women yelling at me, everyone was nice. I had to lower my PC's price down a bit trying to compensate with Adam's budget. The day gone well with normal sleep in Ms. Braniff's class, a few round of Magic battle with Keith and things. Oh yeah, Voice of id=Xiwei is in a good mood; Demon of Elru=Xiwei is in a bad mood. Just let you ppl know. Not many people read my Web log, I think there is only one person who reads it. Also today, I got a thank you card from Melanie, weird...no one ever gives me a thank you card or anything but a "thanks" usually, and I felt odd accepting it. Weird things turned out. From last year to this year, things as changed between Mel/Trish and I, in many ways. It was the Misunderstanding age (When all the crap happened) then the Long Silent Dark age (Mel was gone, no communication with them, or rarely), Recovering age (Says "hi"s and "bye"s once in a while, Silent age (Stopped communication), Normal average everyday people age (Started talking again), I wonder what will happen next. Things also dramatically changed between Casey and I, People -> kind of friends -> friends -> slowly moving away -> conflicts -> hatred... ALL IN LESS THAN TWO MONTHS! Great friends I have...and people born in the year of the boar suppose to have long lasting friendships...blah...buncha crap!

Demon of Elru  4/23/01

    Today has been a pretty good day. Decent, the classes were pretty easy, gave the CDs to Mel, we had a handshake, ROFL.... Then she told me she is finally going to the prom!! WOOOHOO! GO Mel! Anyways... Ryan and I had a talk about how he doesn't want me to get mad at him because Casey choose him and not me, what am I suppose to say? "Erm...I do mind, now get off of her!" Don't think that'll work, I told him not to worry about it. Came home to more of Casey's bitching, but i can careless, and she told me to go to hell, which I just put her on ignore. Not like she is trying to save anything. Casey sounds bitchy now a days...everytime she talks, sounds like she just wants to kill me on the spot. I am also make her hate me a bit, so they won't invite me to anywhere else (not like they would anytime soon anyway). It hurts everytime watch her and Ryan togather. Gay shit, what I hated was that she bitched about how I better not start the Id crap again, I almost just told her to fuck off and leave me alone, but I was able to control myself from saying that. She does live close to my restauant...don't want to get her at the place buggin' me. Tonight, Brandi ordered General Chicken from my place, and she paid for it too ^_^ Looks like a symbiotic relationship between New China and Publix is gonna start. That's gonna ownz!

Demon of Elru 04/22/01

    Last night was one of the best nights I had in a LOOOOOOOOOG while. Mel, A. J., Brandon and I had a long chat. That was one of the longest conversations I had with Mel, I see it as progress ^_^ Then I fell asleep around 11:30pm...

    This morning when I woke up, I Checked my away message... 2 new messages...from Casey... It bothered me...

That bothered me a lot, she is the one who sits there and treat me like death. Now she comes around and say I have a problem...hmmm.. she changed a lot...I rarely see her like that, I guess she was pissed about something. That was really lame she had to say that. Mike called me, I even almost thought I'll ask Mike for her presents back and return them all! Since I wasn't someone like that, I let it go.... I received a mail from Bill, he said he has no where he can use the picture I did...oh well gotta work at 4:30.... ugh.... Great...Mike comes on to tell me how he had fun yesterday... buncha shit. He even lied to his mom that he spent the night at my house last night, when he spent the night at Stephanie's house! Even thought I don't like him doing it, but he has been grounded the whole school year, I guess he is just not thinking. Don't matter, I just ruined his day... okay, this is enough bs for the day!

Voice of id 04/21/01

    okay, the first day of web loggin'! Looking from Bianca's page, it seems almost like a journal looking thing. I always wanted to do a journalish thingy anyway... Problem is, since EVERYONE will be able tor ead it, I am not gonna tell everything... sooo.. let's go!

    Today Mike, Brandi, Casey, Ryan, Stephanie and I went to Pelican Pete's Play land (a miniature golf course with a go-cart track and a room fill with video games and ticket games) for Casey's birthday. At first I didn't want to go because they didn't invite me, and I felt that I didn't belong there, but i went anyway. When we got there, they didn't even care for my existence! I left the place for 15 minutes and came back, they didn't even know I was gone! Around 3:30, I left feeling depressed and stuff. I speed to High Octane, a local car stereo store and got a quote on some of the speakers (Super expensive). I am still waiting for Brandi or Casey to call me so I can see what else they are doing. I feel that Casey don't really give a crap rather I killed myself or not. I remember few weeks back she was all worry and stuff, and I can tell her whatever I want. Now...ever since I guess.. she is now dating Ryan? I became just.. absolute nothing.  I don't feel comfortable being around her. It seems like I am now just a rock that disturbs her progress on some unknown mission, every time I try talking to her, she has a tone like she doesn't want me there, in fact, she has a tone that she hates me and just want me dead. When I left, only Mike and Brandi actually looked and ask "You are leaving?" Yesterday I didn't know did I want to even get her a present, she seems like a complete stranger to me now a days. I still got her a present....  Brandi's car also got keyed today, she thinks it's by Patrick... That's pretty much it for today.. I am still waiting for Bill Marrs, the owner of www.gametz.com to send me a reply on the picture I did that I've sent him, which I posted below. If any of you reads this, give me some input on it.

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