wooohooo its friday! hahaha....i downloaded lord of the rings the other night that movie kicks ass ....the more i watch it the more i catch things i missed the first time i saw it....so far this week ive had an attack of the itches...my skin gets really dry and icthy this time of year with the weather changing from 14 degrees one day to 70 the next....i was up all night the past few nights scratching and basically being uncomfortable blah...im going to start looking for a job this week...im sick of being home so much...what i want to do is another story....i really dont want to do customer service but it looks like thats where i can make the most money right now....i dunno we'll see...other then that not much else on my mind...ill blabber more later ciao
posted by Laura 5:22 AM
well damn i havent written in a long time so maybe this one will be long....where to start ...well i just got back from vegas 2 days ago....i had a blast...i think the whole time i was there i maybe slept a total of 6 hours....i didnt win anything big but i broke even which is good in vegas....i felt a little bad while i was there because i know if i was healthier i would have been able to do a lot more...but I still had a great time...it was good seeing my mom ...its funny until im usually face to face with her i dont really realize how much i miss her...and of course when i left we both cried...i know im sappy sometimes but its my mom im allowed to be....my family dynamic is so weird...after my father died me, my mom and brother became very close and living 1500 miles away from them is sometimes really really hard on me....it gets so bad sometimes i miss the fighting as much as the fun stuff lol....anyways, it was great seeing her....i worry a lot about her especially with me living so far away...i dont know what i would do if anything ever happened to her and it scares me to think i would be so far away if something did happen...but i guess thats what happens when you move away from your family....i grew up in a town where no one moves away and everything pretty much stays the same year after year....i guess thats life though you can choose to stay in the same place and do the same things your whole life....but ive never been that type i like adventure i like doing the opposite of the norm....not to be different but because constant change excites me...new things excite me...the daily grind bores me and always has....plah i can see this turning into a bigger rant if i keep going so im going to stop before my mind starts thinking a bunch of crazy shit and i cant sleep tonight...anyways ill try to keep up writing more now that the holidays and stuff are over ....ciao for now
posted by Laura 1:05 AM
yay!! i got presents in the mail today from matt....hes such a big sweety....he got me all sorts of cool little things....im so excited for christmas ive been trying to convince allen to open his up early lol....anyways lord of the rings starts wed. and im wicked excited....it has always been one of my favorite book series ever since i was a kid...so im definatly going on wed to see it....im feeling a lot better to...i have more energy now to do stuff and i can actually go out all by myself shopping and not worry about passing out....I am a little sad but its only because this time of the year i tend to miss my family especially my mother....as much as she drives me nuts i still miss being around her on the holidays...o well ill see her in march i guess
posted by Laura 8:51 PM
well i went to walmart last night and ive decided that it is the devil's liar....theres 11 days till christmas and people are shopping like mad buying whatever is packaged pretty and walmart only has 4 lanes open....i mean was it a shock to them the sudden onslaught of customers piling into walmarts??? did they not know it was the shopping season???? complete idiots....and im all for this red, white and blue christmas....but come blue pointsettas? wth is that about?....maybe im into traditional stuff more but blue pointsettas just look weird...im kinda grumpy today this flu has been kicking my ass and i really want to go shopping and finish up everyone....living so far away from my family i have to mail everything and the longer i wait the less likely it will make it on time....hell i havent even gotten my christmas cards out yet!!!! =\
i have nothing left to bitch about this morning...maybe ill have something later
posted by Laura 5:50 AM
holy shit my mom sent me these sugarfree chocolate truffles today and OMG THEY ARE AWESOME....i was so shocked they tasted so good...i ate one and was like damn life is good...btw i love chocolate and not being able to eat sugar kinda pissed me off...but i have chocolate again yay!...
posted by Laura 11:31 PM
day 17 and im still eating soup....blah....i found out friday that milk makes me really ill so no more milk =\...anyways nothing much else new...we got the lights up on the outside of our house yesterday they look really cool...growing up we never decorated for christmas (being my mom is a jew) so i like to go all out during the holidays...im still staying positive this year even though money is a little tight with me not being able to work which is amazing because im not one to stay so positive....anyways ive also gained back some energy but not enough to really do anything other then warm up some soup and pour a glass of water...i have no patience for this shit and im getting annoyed a little...anyways before this turns into me just bitching for an hour ill say bye and write more another time
posted by Laura 11:08 AM
wow i havent posted in a while...and since nate ordered me to do it i guess ill fill you all in...bascially i survived my operation...they took out my spleen gall bladder and 1/2 my stomach yeehaw!....its been really a rough go since....in the hospital i injured my lower back and right thigh so its been really hard to sleep....i didnt sleep much in the hospital except that my morphine drip helped...i was a button pushing fool with it...even if it only disposed morphine every 20 mins...since ive been home i havent been too comfortable i cant sit in one place too long and well walking from the kitchen to the living room makes me winded...but its surprising how much little things like being able to sleep on my side bring me so much joy recently...ive been staying really positive which is kinda bizarre for me...i feel really helpless most the time and i hate HATE that feeling....it sucks when you've layed down and cant get up without someone lending you a hand...i wont even go into my story of how i was stcuk for 30 mins by myself and couldnt figure out how to get up with the least amount of pain....i got my stiches out yesterday and my doc says im doing extremely well which is good news...im hoping by christmas im feeling better....anyways i dont really have much else to say right now other then of course im getting dizzy so i better lay down ...
posted by Laura 1:06 PM