Dear Diary,

I've been so utterly terrified for the past few days. Quiin got shot in the last world and if he had died I could never have forgiven myself. Ryan was great. He knew enough about medicine to save Quinn's life. I was a wreck the whole time. God diary if he had died I would have wanted to go with him. Thank god all is in the clear now. Ryan left us this morning. He said he wanted to sttart a new life. He wanted me to go with him. I couldn't do it. I couldn't leave Quinn. I am so confused about my feelings for him. Ryan took the news well but I think it hurt him. I wish that hadn't happened but with Quinn everything is different.

Love,

Wade