I woke up to something holding my left hand down to the bed. I wasn't sure what it was so I tried to shake it off, but it didn't work. I opened my eyes slowly and looked off to my left. There was a form sitting in the chair next to the bed. I strained to see who it was. It dawned on me it was Amanda. A small smile crossed my face; I wanted to get her attention.

I tried to sit up a bit, which mind you didn't work to well. So I took to whispering her name as best I could. She didn't move. She must have been really tired, I can tell, dark circles are visible on her face. My smile turns to a frown. I should of known what this whole situation would do to her.

I quickly take in her posture, and notice my book resting on her chest, open. I gasp in surprise that she read what I had written. I am not sure what to feel that she read it, should I feel happy, sad, mad? I am not sure. I know that we need to talk, lord knows I tried to do just that, but things always got in the way. So maybe that fact that she did read my journal is a good thing. I take a closer look at her and I can see that she had been crying. I have to wake her up; we have to fix things between us.

As I interlace my fingers with hers, I gently call out her name again. "Amanda?"

She stirs in her chair for a moment and opens her eyes slowly and smiled at me. It warms my heart that she feels like she can.

"Your awake." She said and replaced my book to the nightstand and stood up. She never tried to take her hand back from me, which I am grateful for. As she stood and leaned over my she brushed away some hair that had fallen into my eyes during my sleep. I love this woman.

"Yeah." I tell her, like it's not obvious that I am awake.

"How are you feeling?"

"Better." I turned to look up at her now, "Why are you here?" I had to ask. She didn't answer me right away; I knew she was looking for the right words. Things are still strained between us.

"You hurt me, Lee." She finally said. I already knew I did that, now it's time to say what should have been said a long time ago.

"I know, Amanda, and I am very sorry. There are some things that should have been said a long time ago that weren't."

She smiled and closed her eyes, "I know I read." She finished as she motioned to the journal.

"I am sorry I didn't tell you, that you had to find everything out this way."

"I understand, Lee." She said as she slowly sat down next to me on the bed.

I began to tell her of Sarah and about what happened between us and how she was killed, and especially what happened afterwards. By the time I was finished we were both in tears and holding on to each other like we were each other's saviors.

Amanda reached down and traced my cheek with her finger and leaned her forehead against mine. I have never felt such a feeling of love for a woman as I have for her. "I missed you." I told her.

"I missed you too." She responded. We didn't say anything for a few minutes, until she broke the silence. "I love you too." She leaned in and kissed me.

And that is when we knew everything was going to be all right.

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