May 30, Monday ~ A Note Of Appreciation

Just got the time to write here. Errmm.. not that I'm too busy with works piled high up to my head. No, i'm just busy with the new status I got right after my dear lanun uttered the akad nikah. I'm a wife now. Not just any wife, a partner with a man I truly love and cherished; a man to whom I make a pledge to be with him no matter what happen, rain or shine, in sick or health, rich or poor; and I vowed to always be loyal to him, to our family, a promise that will never be broken till the day I die. And even after that if I'm lucky enough I will see him again in the life after that. I know it's not easy, there are many obstacles and if I cried, I hope it's the crying of happiness, if I laugh I hope I'm sharing it with him. It's not for 10, 20 years. I hope it'll lasted forever, insya Allah. It's just one week plus now; and he's away right now back to Lumut last Sunday. A bit strange coz for the last one week he's the first thing I see in the morning and the last thing I see before I sleep so I'm trying my best to absorb everything and cope with the situation. Fret not hon, I'll see you next week, right?

Anyway would like to thank all of you who came to my wedding, I apologize for not being able to attend all of you. Also a bunch of gratitude for ur presents; really, just being there meant a lot to me. The picture is not ready yet, so as the video but I'll post some here soon.

May 17, Tuesday ~ Love's In The Air

I'll start taking my leaves tomorrow until next Wednesday. So I'll be back on Thursday next week. A new me :)

Anyway if you can't view the invitation card window, klik here.

May 16, Monday

So the 'rewang' began. Yesterday they came early morning to wash the flour to make kuih halwa maskat. Don't know if you guys ever heard of it but it's a tradisional manisan, so sweet and stretchy, yellow-brownish with some nuts. In order to make it we have to 'wash' the flour and put the water in a big container. Tunggu 2 hari sampai air tu mendak, buang air kat atas dankita cuma gunakan mendakan tu. Campur dgn bahan- bahan lain, kacau atas api sampai dia jadi pekat, masukkan dalam bekas dan tunggu sampai dia sejuk dan potong. Sedap! :) ptg plak dtg pilih beras ramai2. Meriah :) yang penting kerja yang berat menjadi ringan.
My sister Adut started her matrix today. My parents sent her to the Kuala Pilah Matriculation Centre this morning. All the best sis :)
Also wanna wish all teachers in the world Happy Teacher's Day today. Thanks to all my teachers from my kindergarden school to my lecturers in UKM- if it's not for them I must not be here, where I am now. Syukran..

May 12th, Thursday ~ Scratched

Drove like a maniac today. 10.15 am, I went to Blossom's office at incubator. After that drove to a stationery shop to photostat something. Waiting. And waiting. More waiting. Then drove back to my house. Mizi called. Kak Ila called from KL. Andrea called- check the PAM's server ( no can't do - I'm not in the office ). Mizi called again. Ignored all calls. Must arrived home quick. 12.15 pm- drove back to PAM. Had to fetched Mizi at his house. Missed the turn so I make a u-turn and MAX scratched along the border side. Served me right :(

Back at PAM. No lunch today. Not in the mood.

May 10th, Tuesday ~ Cemburu Buta

Am sooo annoyed today- PAM Merlimau called saying they face some problem when they wanted to use the system- all the pcs- showed the same error: Cannot connect to database. Contact ur administrator. From our experience, usually this happen when the network cable pulled out so I called that guy who's incharge for the 2 districts- Merlimau & Jasin. He wasn't in the office ( it's already 2.20 pm ) so we had to call his hp. I knew he warned me about not calling his handphone because his wife don't approved of that so I gave the telephone to Aim ( Mizi is still on leave ). And as expected he didn't answer, and after a few minutes he called back. Still at home ( he's house is near the Jasin's PAM station) so maybe he took the advantage to go back and have lunch. Nothing wrong with that but it's already 2.30 pm, get it? He's kinda pissed of because we called him using my number ( Aim takde kredit, so terpaksalah guna hp kita ) and said his wife had some problems, that's why he's late. I mean, come on... it's not like I called to talk anything mushy-mushy to him, this is important, ok? Job is job, the clients are getting restless because after 15 minutes their problem still haven't fixed. I hate when girls act like that, you know, mengada-ngada like they 'own' the guy. You wanted some attention, do it some other way. It's so yesterday. Shows some respect to ur husband, pls, do not embarass him like this. Sure you love him but she already know I'm his colleague who has nothing to do with him at all, other than work. WORK, get it??

And I do not agree the way my friend responded to that behaviour. He's the husband, at least stand up for himself. It's not like he did anything wrong. Eeiii.. tak tau la nak cakap apa lagi.

So I made a mental note to myself, never let this things happen in my marriage. Give each other some space, that's what we practiced all this 7 years, and that's how we survive this long-distance relationship. Trust your partner, and do not worry, you'll know when there's something weird going on because women's instinct is so good, nobody can't escape from it.

May 9th, Monday ~~ Ermmm...

Hectic weekend. Had to work last Saturday because PAM asked Telekom to do a network testing. At first Mizi appointed Fairuz to be at PAM Masjid Tanah and Zef at PAM Alor Gajah ( as usual ) but Zef has something important to do while Fairuz went back to Penang so he asked me to go there. Easy task, just watched the Telekom people do their job testing the network- sending and receiving data. They brought a test gear ( a set of devices to test the network costed about RM26,000- you can buy a Kancil if you sold it out =) ) but didn't use it since another Telekom team at HQ used it. After that they plugged in this device to the router to do the looping test which will be monitored by the Telekom and the test must be run for 24 hours before they know the result. After that I followed them to PAM Alor Gajah to do the same test. Since the result can only be known on Sunday, I had to be there too but I have already postponed my appointment on Saturday to Sunday so I asked Mizi to send someone else.

Would like to take this opportunity to wish my mother and all the mothers in the world "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY" and a bunch of gratitude for everything you have done for me all this year and counting. If you look at how hard my mom tried to prepare everything for my wedding, you would think it's a 3-days-3-nights celebration. But I know she just wanted the best for my wedding and by doing all chores by herself will make her more secure of controlling the smoothness of the wedding. Syukran mak, don't know what will I do without you..

May 6th, Friday ~ Mending A Broken Heart

Talked to Lanun dear a bit last night. Well, not literally- we just sms and tried to avoid talking about his wing parade. It's very awkward, I didn't know what to say to him, knowing that he wanted to forget what happened today so I made little talk about movies, about my thumb, and practically everything under the sun except that. Something my father did somehow made up his day. Thanks abah, it's really suprising though I knew my father, always concern about his children e.g if we have big exams or taking driving test, etc etc he'll always make sure he called and wish us luck or later after we finished to know how we are doing. He's working at JB so it's difficult to maintain the relationship but he has his own way, which why we all love him so much. He's very forgetful, so we just tell him about something knowing he might forget about it the next minute but he always suprised us by calling exactly at the right time. And now he has another addition to the team- my future husband- and I know they will get along very well :)

So tell me, how do you mend a broken heart? Time will do. I hope. I wish things were different. Now I have the answer when people ask me, if you got one chance to go back in time, when @ what you will do? Wish I could go back to yesterday. Wish I was there for him.

My sister, Adut passed her driving test yesterday. Congrates sis :). She's going to do her matrix at Kuala Pilah next fortnight ( 16th May )- her first time going to live away from home. Fret not sis, you are a big girl now and I'm sure she can handle this.

050505, Thursday ~ Happy & Sad

Today is the happiest day and the most frustating day of my entire life. How could that possible? I'm so happy because today Lanun dear is getting his wing in a special ceremony at Kolej Tentera Udara, Alor Setar. And here I am, sitting in front of my pc at my office instead of being there with him. That's the saddest and the most cruel thing I have ever done to him. I know how much he wanted his family and me to be there but too many obstacles and.. I don't know.. Can you imagine him being alone while everybody else was enjoying the company of their family and love ones in the most glorious moment of their life. I'm sorry hon, I know words are not enough to explain this and nothing I can do to turn back time or make it up to you but believe me, it's depressing enough for me here too. I'm so sorry hon..really am..

I should have been there. Should have been.

May 3rd, Tuesday ~ Where Is The Happy Day

As usual, after 2 days off I'm a bit reluctant to go to work this morning. But life goes on. Woke up at 6.15 am, performed my prayer, make breakfast ( yummilicious scrumbled eggs Singapore style ) and took my bath, got ready for work.

Something bad happened to Lanun dear last week. His knee was injured, swelled and couldn't walk. He have to stay in bed all time coz it hurts too much. So there's a possibility that he couldn't be in the parade to accept his wing. Oh, even I can understand his frustation if his leg doesn't get better by this Thursday. I tried to cheer him up but this is something so important to him, nothing much I can say except be patient. This is not something we can predict or control.

Orang kata dah nak dekat ni, darah manis. Don't know how much truth in that but I think it's just a way to remind the bride-to-be to be more careful and avoid any unwanted circumstances that can lead to more dangerous situation. And after what happened to Lanun last week, I was even more cautious doing everything- in the house, in the kitchen, while driving, etc etc. Pray so hard that nothing bad will happen to us in this few weeks to come.

So many things to do today. Go to Nagoya. Buy that thing for the curtain. Then go to my office. Print my invitation card. Photosthat 300 copies. Cut into two. Buy the envelopes. Send my clothes for dry cleaning. Pay my telephone bill. Buy decoration for hantaran. Get the permission to nikah from JAIM at 11th floor. Send back to Pak Wahab. Call the mak andam butik to confirm everything (again) and make an appointment for a body and face treatment this week. Gosh, I've click the panic button.

Oh, btw, you guys must have seen the pop up window when you enter this website ( disable any function that disallow the windows popup, just this once ) so do come to my wedding, there's a map included incase you are from out of town :)