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I apologize black woman
for all the seen and unseen lies,
For the heartache and pain
that brought tears in your eyes.
I apologize black woman
for not being true from the start,
For running away from you, leaving a
hole in your heart.
For ignoring your feelings
and pushing them aside,
Because I was too damn
arrogant and pumped up with pride.
I apologize for making
promises that I couldn't keep,
For building a foundation based on treachery
and deceit.
Being selfish and inconsiderate,
I did what I wanted to do,
Making costly decisions
without communicating first with you.
I apologize for not holding
you through restless nights and stormy days,
For my immature thoughts and my foolish
ways.
Instead of carrying your
love with me, I just threw it on the shelf,
After we made love I turned
away, only thinking of myself.
Your love for me was pure,
but mine was rotten to the core,
You caught me with another woman, and
I had the nerve to lie some more.
You cried your heart for
me, while I was out running wild and loose,
I destroyed the essence
of your love with physical and emotional abuse.
I gave you hell black woman
by giving up when times got rough,
I didn't slap you, I pushed you away,
even that's bad enough!
We brought a child into
this world, and I left you to bear it alone,
But deep in your soul,
you found the strength to continue on.
Yeah, I was happy when
I got the booty, but I was too scared to commit,
Knowing I wanted out of the relationship,
but not being a man about it.
I was suppose to build
a house for you love, but nstead I was digging a ditch,
I was totally out of line
for calling you a hoe or a bitch.
When you refuse to take
me back, I had the nerve to stalk and harass,
With all your emotional scars, I am
surprised you didn't kill my ass.
Now I see why you build
a wall around you because it is me you despise,
But that's the price that
I have to pay for all the times I wore a disguise.
I pray to GOD that one
day you will realize,
That I LOVE YOU
BLACK WOMAN, AND I APOLOGIZE.
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