well, in case you never noticed, i've got a lot of thoughts. and i mean A LOT. so, i'll just limit myself to one a day for those of you who can't handle too many thoughts, and stick 'em here....
sunday, april 14th, 2002
any guy who makes you cry (hey, that rhymes.... hehe) isn't worth it. never ever ever. well, unless of course, it's the happy sort of crying..... hehe.
monday, april 8th, 2002
fuck EVERYTHING.
friday, march 29th, 2002
damn it all. thoughts suck ass. excuse the cussing, but they do. let's see. i have one friend who wants me to go to prom. another friend who doesn't. and a load of others who won't stop asking me who i'm going to prom with. argh. i want to go to prom, but i don't want to at the same time. but i'm not writing this in my journal because all ppl are gonna do is give me advice or tell me to go. i need to decide this for myself..... i think.
saturday, march 2nd, 2002
you know, everybody goes through the same breakup process. well, except the ppl who caused it.... ok wait never mind. change that to, all girls go through the same breakup process. it's cuz we're so sensitive.... but yeah. there's the hurting process, where you just hurt and hurt and keep hurting.... sometimes it lasts for a really long time til even your best friend gets annoyed of it. haha. during that time, there's lots of depression, eating (which equals to getting really fat), crying, feelings of worthlessness, etc. but then, after that, things start to get better. that's the healing process, where you do things like go to the gym to work off all that fat and ignore your ex and his new gf. well, kinda ignore.... eh. hehe but anyway, the point is, it's ok! everything will pass in due time.... just be patient. suffering supposedly brings wisdom, right?
ahem.... that was indirectly for someone else, especially the last part.... just that i don't know if she reads this....
thursday, february 21st, 2002
forget all your frustrations! be grateful to have a best friend! go hug him/her or just tell him/her how grateful you are for him/her!
tuesday, february 19th, 2002
ok this may be a bit of an overanalysis.... but ok. is it truly better to suffer, and learn, and thus get over something? or is it better to just ignore and avoid and pretend it doesn't exist?
sunday, february 17th, 2002
ok! be positive, be happy, just live your life to the fullest! forget the past, worry not of the future, embrace the present, cuz it's all that you have. :)
wednesday, february 13th, 2002
see! if you just don't think, it'll be ok! :) sure, there are still those annoying dreams cuz they're from your subconscious and what you're actually thinking about, but at least those don't happen 24 hours a day right? only when you sleep.... but anyway. thing's will be better. hopefully.
sunday, february 10th, 2002
grrr. don't think. thinking is bad and leads to bad bad things.....
thursday, february 7th, 2002
the good thing about being online while you talk to people is that they can't see how you're really feeling. so even if you're sobbing, tears going everywhere, you can still be typing "haha" or "lol" on instant message. you can just lie to anyone.... they wouldn't know. it's the ultimate irony.
tuesday, february 5th, 2002
are some things really worth it? even though it may seem like it's worth all the pain, all the suffering.... is it really? just for a few simple moments of happiness.... you sacrifice it anyway. even though it hurts so much.....
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