intensity
i don't really care anymore if it hurts
because life is inevitably pain
but life is a lot of things
and i want to feel them all again
i've left the safety of being numb
i've opened all the doors that have been locked for years
and here i stand at the edge
just waiting
and any minute i'm going to dive right in
but my mind is like an overbearing mother
swearing i'm going to hit my head and drown
he was always afraid of my heart
because my heart was full of things
he didn't want to hear
and i can't cry because i don't need to
and i can't hide because i'm not afraid
and i can't imagine that i'd ever want to stop this
and i can't believe i locked it away
and all the doors are flung open
and i'm letting the waves carry me out with the tide
and i'm delirious and unreasonable
and i think i'll stay this way for a while