Why the hell couldn't he catch on to how I felt? I know why, because I never made it obvious. Who was I kidding? I'm a 15-year-old homosexual who's in love with my best friend and can't even admit which way I swing. The saddest part is I date a bunch of girls just so I can hide it. That's me, slutty Trunks.

Goten picked up a towel and wiped the sweat from his face. I guess our training session for the day was over, again. I hated going home knowing that, once again, I had failed to even show Goten a slight hint of how I felt. But then I might scare him away with my obsession.

I once tried to ask him for a picture of himself but then I figured he would think it was strange. So I went to ChiChi and asked her instead. A little smile covered my face as I lifted a towel to my face to remove my sweat as well. Goten always looked so hot when he was sweaty. I remembered the picture I kept carefully under my pillow.

Goten was dressed up in a suit and tie...it didn't fit his personality at all, but he looked sexy. I have an obsession with my best friend of the same gender... I bet he'd like me if I had a chest. Maybe I would be a transsexual when I grew up. Nah...it wouldn't be worth it. Breasts would only get in the way of training, and Goten wouldn't like me anyway.

"Wanna come over for dinner?" he asked me. Yes, yes I do. Will you be desert? I wanted to ask that but...no. I didn't want him for sex, I wanted him because I loved him. His personality, his smile, his kindness. I wanted to eat there but I knew I shouldn't...it would be the same as always. I go see him, I go home, and I'm an emotional wreck until I see him again. It's a cruel cycle and I let it go on.

"I shouldn't..." I said slowly looking down at the towel so I wouldn't have to witness his eyes looking at me. Maybe looking at me with love...no. Goten was straight. As straight as an arrow...but why couldn't that arrow have a dent in it that made it do a three-sixty? "Why not?" he asked in a sad tone. I looked up and saw his eyes.

DAMN IT TRUNKS! Why the hell do I have to see those eyes...? Why couldn't I be just like everyone else...straight? I swear I am the only homosexual in this damn world. Why not huh? Because I don't want to hear my mom ask me what's wrong when I lock myself in my room. I mean, as fun as it is to listen to her whine and all...I need a better excuse...

"I uh...well...I just wanna see my family I guess..." I said quietly. It was so hard to lie to him, yet I had to do it often. It was a bad lie though. Yeah, I want to go see my grumpy tousan and my bitchy sister and my over busy kaasan. Like he'd by it... I saw the hurt in his eyes and started to melt. Sorry Goten...so sorry...

"Oh..." he clenched his fists and looked down. He was upset for some reason... "Trunks...are you mad at me for something? You've been avoiding me a lot lately. I don't know what I did but I'm sorry...you only see me when we train...like you enjoy kicking the shit out of me or something. What did I do?" How wrong he was...no, I didn't hate him. I loved him. I hated fighting with him...verbally and physically. I hated this; I always was bad with words...

"No, I'm not mad at you Goten...sorry I came off that way. I just...been busy lately..." I whispered. Yeah, I've been busy. I've been busy holding my only photo of Goten in my hands and day dreaming about him. I really wished that I were straight. Things would be so much easier. I can act straight at least...it's enough for now, I guess.

He laughed coldly and looked at me in the eyes. I turned away. "Tell me the truth Trunks! You won't even look at me in my eyes anymore," he said putting his hands on my shoulders and forcing me to look at his eyes. I tried to close mine, but I couldn't knowing he would think I hated him. Maybe I should act like I hate him instead. That would make life easier...wouldn't it?

"I'm not mad at you Goten. It's just the op-" oopsies. Were not saying that...are we? "Just the what?" asked Goten looking so serious. I wished I were funny so I could ease the tension. His hands were on my shoulders and not because he was sparring me. I liked it. I almost wanted to lean in and kiss him. I wouldn't; of course, I'm not THAT stupid. I shook it off and welcomed myself to the real world. "It's nothing."

"You hardly ever tell me anything anymore too..." he whispered quietly looking away from me. "Don't worry about it Goten. We're still best friends, right?" I asked. Thanks for looking away koibito. "Hai," he said with a sigh. That was the strangest conversation I had ever had with him. I'm lucky drool didn't seep down my chin while we were that close. Why did he care so much if I talked to him anymore? I wondered if he felt pain when we were close to...knowing we shouldn't be together. Who was I kidding? He was straight...why did he have to be straight?

Goten looked ready to cry...it was so strange. I only saw him cry when we were kids. Now that I thought about it, he was acting strange and distant as well. He hardly would talk to me about anything anymore. He did invite me over to dinner after we sparred every time, and I refused almost every time with the stupidest excuses. I guess it was only a matter of time before he said something.

"Can I still go over to your house and eat?" I asked hoping he would be satisfied with this. I hoped so much he would. Please don't look at me with sad eyes again. It makes me feel as though my soul is being torn out, starting at my heart. "Sure!" he said putting on the fakest smile I had ever seen.

I guess after you know someone for so long you learn everything about them. Then one day they decide to change and become a mystery to you. Only a few things remain the same and always will. One of the same things was Goten's fake smile he put on for everyone. Maybe tonight I would raid his photo albums in search of the Goten I knew so well. That'd be great...

"Well I guess we better get going, huh?" I said looking up into the sky. It was covered with clouds and starting to rain. I could tell that the sun was no longer up. I always got to see the sunset with my Goten whether or not we were actually watching it."Yeah," he said as he put his shirt back on.

Ah damn, I was just in bishie heaven too. I put mine on as well and waited for him to fly off. I could swear I saw a slight frown on his face when I put on my shirt. No matter. I was most likely seeing things again. Maybe I needed to get some glasses.

I looked behind us to see if we left anything in the woods. Goten had left his towel, as did I. I didn't bother turning around to get them... I would just leave them there so I could pick them both up tomorrow.

About a half an hour later we landed at his house. I didn't know why he had been flying so slowly, maybe he was tired. My poor Goten, I hope you're well.

I watched him put his hand on the doorknob and twist it. I couldn't believe I had agreed to come. Now I would lock myself in my room forever all because I gave myself false hope. Oh well, it was worth it to make sure he didn't look at me with sad eyes for awhile. It was worth it to avoid a conversation like that again.

I soon realized I had been standing there spacing off for the last minute when Goten waved his hand in front of my face and said yoo-hoo. I blinked back to reality and half-smiled. He was showing his real smile that I loved so much. The two were identical to a person who didn't know him well, but I could tell the difference easily. It was mainly what showed in his eyes. Right now they were sparkling with laughter.

"Err...oops..." I said sweatdropping. "Come on Trunks. My mom just finished cooking the rice!" he said grabbing my hand and dragging me into the house. He had his hand in mine...

"Hey, careful!" I whined as I hit my head on a table."Gomen!" said Goten with a little mischievous smile on his face. It was worth a thousand bullets through my chest to see that smile.

I got up and sat at the table. Goten's niece, Pan, was there. So were Gohan, Goku, Videl, and ChiChi. All of them were staring at us and blinking. Pan was blushing...oh yeah, I forgot, Pan had a silly little crush on me. If only she knew I was in love with her uncle...that'd be entertaining but...nah.

"Hello Trunks, nice to see ya!" said Goku and Gohan as they started to chow down on rice. Videl stared at Gohan and told him to eat slower. ChiChi glared at Goten."You're late! You said you would be home at six but it is SEVEN!" ChiChi screamed. "AND YOU DIDN'T TELL ME TRUNKS WAS JOINING US!"

Goten walked over and sat down in the chair that was inches away from mine and looked at ChiChi. Sorry Goten...I didn't mean for us to get in a fight and make you late."Don't worry kaasan. There's plenty of food," said Goten shrugging as he pointed to a huge bowl of rice that took up most of the table. "Besides, at least he doesn't have fangs and is green, right Gohan?"

Gohan sweatdropped. We all knew he was referring to Piccolo. "Yeah, I guess so. Plus he's younger and more courteous." "He's much cuter too," added Videl as she looked over at Pan. Pan just blushed some more and I could almost see Goten get a little red too. Maybe I was right and he was sick. "Are you all against me?" asked ChiChi.Goku laughed a little and said, "Yup!"

Goten looked at me really quickly and then back to ChiChi. "Hey kaasan, can Trunks spend the night? We were...err...gonna help each other with homework. I got this really messed up math stuff...well anyway, it doesn't matter. Can he?"

Thanks Goten for catching me off guard. I mean I REALLY wanted to watch Goten sleep and all, and also go find a good picture of him for me to treasure for all time, but I didn't want to get that hope that he loved me back all over again, like always."Sure son, maybe Gohan can help you with your homework if it gets to bad though," said ChiChi smiling."Uh, no kaasan, we'll be fine on our own," said Goten smiling the largest fake smile I had ever seen him use. "Thanks!" I could see Gohan smirk at Goten when he said this. I didn't know we had tough math homework...

Goten got me some rice and then himself some. We both munched down and once we were finished, Goten challenged me to a burping contest. Of course since I was trying to be on my best behavior I refused. I picked up Goten and mine's bowls and carried them to the sink. I washed them and put them away. When I turned around I could see ChiChi's eyes sparkling and Goten ready to laugh.

"Oh! A boy who actually CLEANS UP!" she squeaked. Err...oops. "Trunks, you HAVE to marry into this family!" ChiChi glomped me and I sweatdropped. If only she knew whom I intended to live with maybe her opinion would change."KAAAAAAASAAAAAAN get off poor Trunks!" said Goten jumping up to help me get away. He grabbed my arm and dragged me away from ChiChi.

I could see a little jealousy in his eyes...but why? I could always read Goten's emotions like a book, but translating them was the hardest thing in the world. When we were eating we were so fucking close. I could breathe Goten's sweat. He really needed a shower...I guess we worked out a little hard. I'd give him that shower if he wanted me to. Not in a perverted way...ah...oh I give up.

Gohan was laughing in the background as he looked at Goten and I. Eep! Did he know how I felt about Goten? That is so WAY not cool! Injustice! Wait...of course he didn't know! Besides guys are scared off by homosexual males. Maybe that's why I always hid it. Considering all my friends WERE guys. But I only felt attracted to Goten...hmm.

Goten turned bright red and glared at his brother. "Quiet Gohan!" he snapped.ChiChi turned to face Gohan. "What's so funny, Gohan?" she asked.Gohan realized he made a mistake about something and shut up. "N-nothing kaasan. I just think it's funny that you want Trunks to marry into our family. Cause well...there's only one person of the opposite gender he could marry and that's Pan," he said. Pan blushed some more. Please Dendea, tell me this wasn't what they were getting at. "That is, unless you wanted him to marry Goten." Gohan started laughing some more.

EEK! HE HAD TO KNOW! My eyes widened in fear. Maybe they would think that fear was of being married to Goten. Please interpret it that way. I felt ready to die, but when I looked over at Goten he looked like he was on his deathbed already.

ChiChi, Goku, and Videl started laughing too. Their laughs were different then Gohan's though...maybe Gohan knew something I didn't about Goten. How could that be? Goten was the one who wanted us to talk...why would he keep something from me and tell Gohan?

"My son's not gay! Have you SEEN his muscles!" said ChiChi laughing loudly."Two boys getting married!" added Goku.Yeah, I was definitely ready to be executed. Kill me now, please. When I looked at Goten it looked as though he was trying his best not to run away. His face was just a little pink now and he was biting his bottom lip and kept glancing at me.

"Err...well we better go do our homework, right Trunks?" said Goten."Uh...yeah. Homework," I said. I didn't know WHERE Goten came up with that lie. I didn't even bring my book bag with me. Come to think about it, I didn't have any clothes either. I was pretty sure that if Goten was stinky then I was ten times as worse. Very unattractive. Stinky lil me sitting in Goten's room. The best thing about spending the night here was we usually shared a bed.

Goten grabbed my hand and took me to his room. Strange how he's been holding my hand a lot more lately. Who am I kidding, he doesn't think of it the same way as I do. I shrugged it off and watched Goten close the door behind us.

"My family says the strangest things huh..." Goten said quietly. Yeah, that would have to be the strangest thing ever. Oh well. I might as well ask him what secret he told Gohan and not me. It isn't fair that I don't know. We were best friends, weren't we?

"Yeah, they do. Hey...did you tell Gohan something you haven't told me?" I asked slowly. Goten's eyes widened. "H-how did you know?" he asked in a worried tone."Well his laugh was different then your parents..." I whispered. Great, I think he knew I liked him. His brother was playing a cruel joke on me. I hate this.

"Oh...well he wasn't supposed to find out. It was nothing though, don't worry about it," said Goten yawning.Oh my Dendea. He DID know didn't he? I had a look of fear on my face. Man I needed a shower, Dendea I wish he didn't know!

"Well let's hit the sack," he said plopping down on the bed. Wait, maybe he DIDN'T know! He wouldn't let me go to bed in the same bed with him if he knew. Unless he was playing with my head...that would be cruel and unlike my Goten. Wait...he's not MY Goten. I can't believe I'm a homosexual. I've had so many girlfriends...I've slept with so many girls. This is TOO CRUEL! I wanna be normal! I shook my head. "Not yet. I need a shower," I said sniffing myself. "So do you," I added.Goten sniffed himself and looked back at me. "Yeah, I guess we worked out hard. You should probably call your kaasan and tell her you're here too."

"Hai," I agreed as I picked up a phone. I called my house and Bra picked up the phone. "Hello! Briefs house! Bra speaking!" she said in a high-pitched voice."Hey Bra, I'm at Goten's," I said."Oh Trunks! You're in TROOOOOUUUBLE!" she said. She had such satisfaction in her voice. I pulled the phone away from my ear when I heard tousan swearing up a storm."WHERE THE HELL IS THAT BOY! THE ONNA'S BEEN WORRIED!" his voice boomed.

Eek, I never thought he cared. It was all to be explained in a second though."SHE WON'T MAKE ANY DAMN FOOD UNTIL THAT BOY'S HOME TO EAT IT!" "I ate at Goten's," I told Bra."You should have called!" said Bra giggling."Whatever. Just tell Kaasan I'm spending the night here and I'll be home sometime tomorrow," I said getting ready to hang up."It's Trunks!" said Kaasan. I heard three people fighting for the phone and then hung up. I just hoped Bra would actually give the message to Kaasan for once.

"So is it okay if you spend the night?" asked Goten walking up to me wearing only his boxers. His hair was wet so I assumed he took a shower while I was on the phone. He was rubbing his black hair with a towel and then pushing it up so it would have its normal spikiness that I was so fond of. I wish he had been wearing more then boxers right then...

"Hai," I replied as I swallowed the spit I knew would soon form into drool. Dendea, he WAS playing with my head, wasn't he? I tried to ignore my brain and looked at Goten. "Err...can I use the shower now?" I asked."Yeah," he replied yawning. "I'll be in the bedroom."

I nodded and walked into the bathroom. I shut the door behind me and locked it. I could smell his stench all over the bathroom and a small smile covered my lips. Yeah, I was obsessed. Yeah, I was his stalker. None of this mattered though because I was careful to be sure he would never find out.

I removed my sweat pants and my Caps Corp T-shirt. That left me in my wife beater and boxers. I removed both of those as well and walked into the shower. On my way I saw a little trail of Goten's clothes. I knelt down and rubbed my hands along them for a minute. I guess maybe I was so obsessed because I knew that I could never have him. There's nothing wrong with a little obsession is there?

I figured Goten would know something was up if I took a half an hour before I turned on the water so I slipped into the shower and turned it on. The water rolled down my chest. It was nice to clean myself in steaming hot water after I had sweated so much.

Once my skin and body was sparkling clean I got out of the shower and put a towel around my waist. I threw an other towel on top of my head so it could dry my hair when I was ready. I opened the door of Goten's room and smiled.

"Hey ya got any clothes for me? Can't run around in a towel can I? Not with your mom and Pan around at least," I said yawning. I guess I was getting tired to. Goten was facing away from the door and I swear he muttered, "I can only wish you would stay in that towel..." I blinked.

No way in hell was that what I heard. "What did you say?" I asked unbelievingly. He turned around and faced me. "I said, 'I think I'm having a movement of the bowel.' Anyway, sure, I got some of your clothes from the last time you spent the night. They're in my bottom drawer...on second thought I'll get them," (1) he said standing up and going to the bottom drawer of his dresser.

He came back with boxers and a wife beater for me. I didn't mind not being fully dressed. After all, he wasn't, so why should I be? Still I didn't understand what he was talking about bowel movements for...

Since when I slept I wanted to feel Goten's skin against mine I just grabbed the boxers and slipped them on under my towel. If I started acting too modest he would know something was strange. Now that I had my boxers on I took off the towel and threw it in his laundry bin. I took the other towel and started rubbing my hair dry since many drops of water had already covered my back. Goten had returned from putting my wife beater in the drawer and walked behind me. What was he doing now?

Goten took the towel out of my hands and rubbed it down my back to get rid of all the drops of water that had left from my head. He lifted it back to my head and rubbed my hair. I closed my eyes. This was so peaceful. I could do this all day and not care. I felt Goten's fingers on my head as he rubbed the towel on my head. Please don't let this be a cruel joke.

Goten wrapped the towel around my eyes as I opened them. Okay, this was not cool. I couldn't see a single thing and Goten was behind me. Not good, not good at all. I started breathing faster in fear of what might happen."What's wrong Trunks? Don't you trust me?" he asked as he caressed my back with his fingers.

Let me think here. Did I trust Goten...? At the moment, no. "Not when I can't see you!" I protested as I started breathing even faster.

I could tell he had one of his evil Goten smiles on his faces right now. It was in the tone of his voice."Oh, why is that? Do you think I'm gay or something like that?" he asked as his fingers went on my lower back.

This was cruel. How did he know? I gulped as I shivered with happiness. This was a mean game to play on me, Goten. Too mean! "No," I replied plainly. "It's just I can tell you have a mischievous smile on your face. I never trust you when you smile like that, so..."

I could tell he turned his head to his mirror to see if he was smiling mischievously when his hair rubbed against the back of my neck. He faced the back of my head again."Hey! How did you know that?" he asked grumpily."It's in your voice k-Goten," I said. Fuck, I almost called him koibito."Oh," he replied. He pulled the towel off my head and my breathing slowed down to its normal pace. I could hear someone laughing but the voice was deeper then Goten's laugh.

I turned around and saw Gohan in the doorway laughing. Goten had a distressed look on his face, and I had a confused one. What was so funny? My head getting played with...? I wondered if Goten had noticed how I shivered when he put his fingers on my spine."Hey what are you doing in here?" Goten screamed angrily."Well it sounded like someone was about to hyperventilate, but I guess it was just you and Trunks playing a few new se-" Gohan said. He was cut off when Goten hit him in the chin."Go away Gohan!" said Goten in a distressed voice."Fine, fine, fine. Turn away the guy who was going to make sure that your 'friend' was alive. I see how it is. Just don't let Kaasan or Tousan catch you-" said Gohan rubbing his chin. He stopped when he looked at Goten.

Goten now looked ready to cry. I wondered why. Wasn't I the one who was supposed to be ready to cry right now? Goten had just played a little mind game on me and now Gohan had seen me react. If my Tousan knew I was...well I wouldn't be alive at the moment. I had never seen Goten act like this. He was yelling at his brother, looking ready to cry, and helping me dry off after a shower. I wondered why my Goten would act this way. He's not my Goten...

"Just go away, please Gohan?" he begged his brother. Gohan frowned and nodded."I'm sorry Goten...I didn't mean to make you mad. But does this mean that T-" "I'll talk to you later okay? Right now I just want to go to bed in my nice warm bed," said Goten forcing a yawn.Gohan nodded and left. He shut the door behind him and Goten ran up to it and locked it. Now I was locked in a room with Goten... I had one thing to say on the topic. Kinky. Nah, not really. He flicked off the lights and looked at me real quick and blushed.

Goten walked away from the door and picked the towel off the floor. He threw it into his laundry bin and then walked over to his bed and lay down. I followed him and lay next to him. We pulled the covers over us. Now it would be time where Goten and I bonded. This was the strangest and the best part of spending the night.

"Why was your brother laughing and why did you get upset?" I asked to start our hours of conversation."Well you know how he knows my secret that nobodies supposed to know?" he asked me. I nodded. "Well he wants to tell you it or have me tell you it." "Then tell me it," I said growing a little smile.

Goten sighed. I don't know why I did it. I guess after feeling Goten's gentle touch on my back I felt I should get him back for messing with my head. No, I think I was just in the moment of being alone with him. Otherwise I wouldn't have tired to keep it hidden. I turned to face Goten. I lifted one of my hands to the top of his head where he couldn't see me and started playing with his hair. Oops...

He turned to look at me as well and saw my hand. Luckily he just ignored it or didn't mind. A content smile appeared on his face as he leaned closer to me. We weren't yet touching, but I would have killed to hold him right then. "I can't tell you..." he whispered. He lifted his hand up to my cheek and I shivered again. "Are you afraid of me?"

"No, why would I fear my friend?" I asked closing my eyes so I could remember this moment forever. "Friend..." he whispered quietly. "Say Trunks, what kind of girl do you like?" "I guess I should say my girlfriend, huh? Well...I don't...well I guess I like people shorter then me," just like you. "A sexy smile," just like you. "Black hair," just like you. "Dark eyes," just like you. "What about you?" I asked."I like people taller the me. Light hair that's a strange color. Blue-eyed. Sexy..." he said shrugging. "I don't usually spend much time with girls like you do." "I see. Well maybe I could hook you up with some," I said shrugging."No thank you. I have my eyes set on someone already," Goten said getting a little smile on his face.

Great, there goes all my chances out the window. He already liked someone. Why? Why couldn't he like me? He was only playing with my head! Fuck! And I responded in a positive way! In my next life I'm going to be a bullfrog. Then I can go after boys and girls and be whatever gender I need to be to get them."Who is it?" I asked filled with jealousy. My hand clenched my boxers. Or at least...I thought they were my boxers...

"Eep! What'cha doing with my boxers?" screeched Goten in distress."Oops...those are yours? They feel like mine..." I moved my hands to my boxers and rubbed them. Yup, they felt the same. "Calm down, I'm not a homo, you know. Don't get so uptight!"

He frowned. Why, I didn't know. Maybe I said something or did something wrong. I always made a lot of mistakes. I wish I could tell him how I felt but here I am telling him I'm not a homosexual when I am.

"Sorry, but do you know WHERE your hand was?" he asked me. Oh yeah, the guy was still a virgin. Oopsies... "Err...no, where?" I asked. He glared at me and folded his arms across his chest. "Not telling!" he said angrily."Oh...I see...sorry!" I said. Oh Dendea, I didn't want to get close to him THAT way. I wanted to hug him!

Worry filled my face. It was official, this was the worst day of my life. So horrible..."So who's the girl?" I asked."Nobody," he said looking guilty. My straight little angel. No need for not straight big Trunks. Oh well, I guess I was still feeling a little strange because I leaned forward into Goten and hugged him. Why, I don't know... Mental malfunction, most likely. His skin was so smooth, so perfect."Who do you like?" he asked me.

Who did he think I liked? I'm supposed to say my girlfriend, right? What was he thinking? He WAS just messing with my head. My poor head... "I know you don't like your girlfriend, you hardly see her," he said.

He was right. I felt guilty about loving someone else when she said she loved me. So I avoided her like I avoided Goten...but for other reasons. I rubbed my hands against his smooth back and he shivered. I sunk down deeper in the covers so my head was at his chest instead of my chin on top of his head. You know who I love Goten...you know, don't you?

I could feel my eyes filling with tears. Damn it, I was going to cry on my Goten. Whatever girl gets him is the luckiest girl in the world. The tears seeped from my eyes and streamed down my cheek and onto Goten's strong, warm chest. He pushed me away a little to see me."Something wrong, Trunks?" he asked. Yes something's wrong. You're straight, I'm not, and the moon is fucking falling to the earth. I could feel my soul being torn from my body and leaving me stranded as a shell with no heart. I looked up at Goten with watery eyes. I didn't care if he saw me cry anymore. I didn't care about anything anymore. I just wanted him to love me.

"N-No, I'm fine," I stuttered leaning back into his chest. 'Please, don't move me away this time. I want to stay here at least tonight. In your warm embrace,' I thought.

"Trunks...please, talk to me?" Goten begged. "Maybe some other time..." I whispered in a cracked voice. 'Maybe sometime when I have the courage...' I thought. I fell asleep in Goten's arms safely wrapped around me.

The next morning Gohan opened the door and peeked in. He seemed awfully eager to talk about my gay life. Well the strange thing was...I was only attracted to Trunks.

"Someone got some action," he teased."Yeah right," I replied as I looked down at Trunks. "No action?" he asked tilting his head."I'll tell you about it outside of my room. I don't want to wake Trunks," I said quietly. I took Trunks' arms off of me; as hard as it was, and put a stuffed teddy bear in my place. He moaned softly and then went back into la-la land.

I got up and walked out of the room. I shut the door quietly behind me and followed Gohan to the living room. He looked at the large bags under my eyes and sighed. "Did you stay up all night or something?" he asked me."No shit Sherlock," I replied as I glared. It had to be 5 in the morning. The sun wasn't up yet and everyone was asleep."Well tell me what happened," he said.

     I remembered how at first he had freaked out when he walked in on me crying all over my Trunks picture. I must have been drunk on cough syrup or something because I told him WHY I was crying and all. He backed FAR away from me at first but when he learned that I only loved Trunks and no one else, he slowly became cool with it. Not like I cared if I had his approval, but it was nice to be able to talk to someone about it.

"Well he wanted to talk about girls. When I told him I didn't see many girls he wanted to hook me up with one. I refused, of course. I asked him whom he liked since I know he doesn't like his girlfriend since he never sees her, and then he started crying. He hugged me and then he went down so his head was on my chest and all. So he likes some chick he can't have I think," I said sadly.

"Did you like getting hugged?" Gohan asked with a little smile."Do you like it when Videl hugs you?" I asked. "It's just the same. Girl or guy, it's all the same." "I see," said Gohan. "I think you scared the hell out of him last night though. He most likely thinks I'm gay now. When you walked in on me trying to..."

"Hey what the hell were you doing, anyway?" he asked me."Well, I wanted to see if he would react to a guy..." I whispered."Well did he?" Gohan asked me eagerly."Sorta. He shivered and all... I'm not sure that if it was cause he was scared of me though. He said he didn't seem to trust me when he couldn't see me. Probably cause he couldn't kick my ass if I tried something," I said frowning.

"Would you try something?" Gohan asked raising an eyebrow."No Gohan, icky! I'm a virgin you know!" I said angrily."Oh, gomen, I didn't know if you were or not," he said. I twitched. "Is Trunks one?" "No," I said, sad again.Gohan blinked. "And he TOLD you this?" he asked."Yeah, he's seems to be the player type," I said, starting to space off.

"I don't want my little brother dating a player!" "Well, he's only one with girls around. I've seen him act normal. He's really sweet, timid, and caring when I'm alone with him. He says things to me that I know he would only say to me. Apparently his little sister Bra likes me. Just like Pan likes him," I said with a little laugh."He acts different around you huh? I'd say he likes you too!" said my brother smiling at me."Like a friend," I said sighing. "He made that clear last night."I shook my head and shivered. "No, why would I fear my friend?"

"How so?" Gohan asked."Well...every time I touched him a little he would pull quickly away. He kept calling me friend. And well...I think he thinks I'm gay," I said frowning. "Well you are!" said Gohan laughing a little."Only with him! Other then that I wouldn't like anyone!" I protested."Ever think maybe he is gay too? You know, maybe he's too scared to admit it and thinks everyone will think he's strange," suggested Gohan.

"Everyone would think he's strange," I said leaning into the couch."I bet Vegeta would murder him twice if you and Trunks got together," said Gohan laughing."OH NO! I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT VEGETA!" I yelled. How not everyone didn't wake up, I still to this day fail to know.

"Eep! Quiet down! You'll wake everyone up!" Gohan squeaked. "Sorry," I said sweatdropping.Yeah, that would be perfect. Everyone waking up right when I was blabbing about my love for Trunks. That would be just great.

I had decided not to tell Gohan about the boxers incident...that would be just a little too embarrassing and I don't think it would help my brother get me Trunks. I scratched my leg and started thinking."Well I guess you better go and be Doctor Gohan, right?" I asked with a little smile. Gohan sipped some coffee and nodded.

"Yeah. Good luck with Trunks. Why don't you try to figure out why he started crying and maybe get him to spend the night again," said Gohan."You know, letting him sleep in my bed is just like having a girl in my bed," I said smiling a little even though I didn't mean too.

"Oh really?" he asked smirking back. "And I take it this doesn't bother you one bit." "I am a guy, you know," I said blushing a little.Gohan laughed a little and then finished getting ready for work. I crawled back into my bed next to Trunks as I moved the teddy bear away. I smiled as he wrapped his arms around me as he did before. I leaned over and kissed Trunks gently on the cheek. Oh Dendea above...that was nice. I wrapped my arms around Trunks protectively. A saw his eyes flicker awake as he stared at me.

"Hello Goten," he said leaning forward into my chest. I swear I felt him kiss my chest...nah. If he had he was just trying to forget the girl and use me to do it. "Sorry about the boxers," he said turning pink."Err...don't worry about it," I said. Why did he have to bring that up?

He rubbed his face against my body. His face was smooth. His cheeks were a little hot from when he blushed. Was he playing a game? 'Let's see who can mess up Goten's head first game!' I didn't care though. I was just going to let him do whatever he wanted...but why?

Trunks put his hands palm down on my back and started rubbing it. His body...so warm. His hands...so gentle. Why? Why couldn't I have him?

I closed my eyes and let that tingly feeling run through my body. My arms hugged the other boy tighter. He was so strong... I wanted him...I needed him...but I could never have him. Tears started to seep down my face."Why?" I asked quietly as they trickled down to Trunks' hair.

Trunks looked up at me with his beautiful blue eyes. He tilted his head. "Why what?" he asked."N-Nothing..." I whispered hugging Trunks again. Hoping he would not get up and leave me alone on the bed."Oh, okay," he said. He put his head back against my chest. I didn't care if he was playing with my head; I just wanted him to hug me again.

As if heaven had heard me Trunks wrapped his arms around me again. He moved one hand away and put it in my hair. This was nice. Holding Trunks, having him play with my hair, just being with him."What time is it?" he asked me."I...I think it's like 5:30 in the morning," I said looking over at the clock. He looked into my eyes."You didn't sleep last night, did you, Goten?" he said frowning."I-I...well...not really..." but it was by choice.

"It's my fault, huh?" he asked. I shook my head. "No, I did it on my own will. I just wanted to watch over and make sure you were okay. You stayed up watching me all the time, and I know it."

That was true. We always shared the same bed, and one of us always stayed up watching the other one sleep. My reasons were obviously different then Trunks', though. Nothing like this had happened though. We were actually hugging...it was strange. Was he playing a game?

"Hai," he said pushing away from me. He set himself at eye level with me. It was like he didn't want to look at me but had too. His eyes kept traveling and then landing on me again. "Something wrong?" I asked looking into his eyes."Well you know how the person I love isn't my girlfriend?" he asked me. I nodded. "Well the person's been playing games with my head. They act like they like me too but then we go back to being friends the next day and it completely messes me up. Even when I just see them I end up locking myself up in my room and sobbing. I hate it...do you think they like me?" he asked.

How did he know exactly how I felt? Gohan was right, Trunks was a player and I should stay away from him. These couldn't really be his emotions! Cruel fate...why? Why are you so mean to me? "No, most likely not. If they only mess with your head then they don't like you. They just want to see you respond," I said hopping that he would let go of the girl and give me another chance."Oh, I see. Thanks Goten..."

"Are you going to try and let go of her?" I asked. A strange look crossed his eyes and they teared up. This time he didn't cry though. I knew he was going to say something...he looked half asleep though now so I was not sure if I should trust what he would say next.

"It's a he!" he said as he buried his face into my chest.Yup, he was still sleepy because I KNOW he would NEVER say that. He was straight and I knew it all to well. Him and all of his girlfriends. He slept with most of them.

If he really were gay you would think he would have gone after guys like gay people do. Me, I just go after no one and wait for him to catch on. How many years have I been waiting now? "What did you just say?" I asked raising an eyebrow.

"You heard me!" Trunks shouted as he fought crying. I wish he would just cry. "You said you love a guy, so?" I asked. My heart felt light. At least he liked men, I told myself. That would mean that there would always be some hope for me.We slept most of the day away and Trunks went back home.

Later on when Gohan came home he made me tell him everything. I did, reluctantly. What a day...

I landed in the forest and noticed Goten hadn't arrived yet. I could feel my vision getting blurry. Maybe I needed bifocals or something. No, that wasn't it. I felt my legs growing weaker... I saw the ground rushing to my face. I never knew the ground moved. Well, I guess I better nap now, I'm really sweaty and tired...

He liked a guy and once they didn't get together then he would be mine, wouldn't he? Or maybe he was just messed up that night...either way I would never forget. I forgot slowly.

I was running late and I knew it. I didn't mean to, but I had to empty the trash. I looked up in the sky. Dammit. It was starting to rain, hard. I felt sorry for Trunks, there all alone. Maybe he would go home without me. No, he was much too loyal to do that.

I could see it. I could see the forest in my view now, as I flew. I landed in the forest closing my eyes, waiting for my friend to scorn me. When his scorning did not come I opened my eyes. In front of me I saw Trunks laying face down in a puddle. The odd thing was, his body was blue and shivering, yet his face was sweating. He was sick. I had to get him to his home so Bulma could take care of him.

I picked up my dear Trunks and lifted off into the air. I hugged his trembling body tightly. My poor love, he was so sick. I arrived fifteen minutes later at the Briefs house. I threw Trunks over my shoulder gently and banged on the door. A few seconds later Bra opened the door and was blushing as she looked at me. I rolled my eyes.

"Where's Bulma-san?" I asked with urgency."What happened to Trunks, Goten?" she asked."This is important, Bra!" I said getting worried. Moment's later Bulma moved Bra aside gently and opened the door wider. "Oh my Dendea! Trunks!" she squealed. "Follow me, Goten!"

So I did. We went through a few halls and ended up in a room with a bed. I gently placed Trunks on the bed and moved some of his purple-hair aside."What happened? Were you fighting?" Bulma asked me. I backed up some."No," I replied. "I found him there, in the forest in a puddle, unconscious when I got there."p> "I don't know how to thank you, Goten," she said as she gave me a hug. I turned away from her and looked at Trunks. "You can stay here Goten, I'll call your parents." "Thank you," I said. Once Bulma left I laid down in the bed next to Trunks. I hugged his cold body tightly. What did he have, hypothermia? He was shaking a lot. I leaned against him and started rubbing his skin. Please warm up... "Aishiteru," I whispered quietly in his ear. A small smile was on his face. This was what I wished for. Heaven would be if I could hear him say those same words back to me. His smile was enough though.

I looked around again. Still, there was no one. This strange urge over came me. I leaned forward and kissed Trunks gently on the lips. His lips were so warm...so inviting. I felt him kiss back. I opened my eyes to see if he was awake or not. He was not. He had his arms wrapped around me. I wrapped mine around him as well. I heard something drop from behind me. I turned and saw Bulma had dropped a bowl of soup on the floor. How much had she seen? Oh no, not this! I felt ready to cry. Please Bulma, don't tell Vegeta.

Bulma bit her bottom lip. I could see blood trickling down her chin. "G-Goten! Are you and my son-" I stopped her. "No Bulma," I told her softly, so I wouldn't wake Trunks. "It's a one way thing." "I...I'm not so sure about that..." she said. She took a picture out of her pocket and handed it to me.

My Dendea, it was a picture of me! It had tearstains all over it just like my picture of Trunks. Had she accepted that...that her son was gay? Was she able to handle it? Then, perhaps, my parents could as well!

Bulma's eyes got teary. "I'm just glad my son has someone," she said smiling. "Someone he actually cares about!" She hugged me again and kissed me on the forehead. Glad I made her happy and all but...a little on the scary side. Personally I wouldn't mind if she has turned into Trunks at that moment.

"Are you saying...that Trunks likes me?" I asked timidly. She shook her head. "Then what?" "He loves you," she said, growing a little smirk.Okay. Now that was just scary. I decided to just sit there and hug Trunks and ignore her for the moment being because, quit frankly, she was scaring me.

How could I believe that Trunks loved me when he didn't do a thing? He looked ready to die when I put the towel over his eyes awhile ago. Then again...he didn't pull away. I would have to talk about it with him when he woke up...and not till then. But in the meantime...

"Vegeta's going to kill me, isn't he?" I asked with a frown."I don't know..." said Bulma slowly. Strange...at the moment I didn't really care if Vegeta would kill me. I was too worried about poor Trunks. I rubbed my cheek against his and fell asleep. I could hear Bulma giggling as I did...

"Morning," he said with a small, content smile on his face."Good morning," I replied timidly. This was too cruel. Not now, not when I feel like I'm dying. "Guess what," he said. "Hmm?" "Your kaasan showed me this," Goten said as he handed me a picture. Okay...this was not cool. The picture was the one I hide under my pillow of him...

"Oh...that..." I said trying to ride it off as nothing."She also said something interesting," he continued. For the first time in my life I wanted him to shut up."What was it?" I asked."She said you loved me," he said with a content smile growing on his face. He moved his gentle face closer towards mine. He parted his lips and put them on mine. This wasn't right... What was he doing? I was too shocked to kiss him back... Actually, in my confusion I pulled my lips away. Strange, huh?

"What the hell are you doing?" I demanded breathlessly. "I see...she was lying?" he asked. Tears were filling his eyes. So much pain in his gentle face... Now it was time for me to admit it. The truth... "No, she wasn't. I do love you..." I admitted quietly.

A smile appeared on his face and tears streamed down his cheeks. "I love you as well, Trunks," he told me as he closed his eyes and leaned forward to kiss me again. I closed my eyes as well and kissed back.

I heard the door open and then a loud growl. Fuck, it was Vegeta...or Tousan. Whatever one would call him. I pulled away from Goten as fast as I could. This love was definitely the hardest love of all time."What the hell are you two doing?" he growled. "Saiyans do not kiss others of the same gender! Especially when the other Saiyan is third class!"

It's scary when all your fears come true all at once. I looked at Vegeta and sighed. I held Goten close to me protectively. Did Vegeta expect me to give up on my love just because he said so? Hell no."Go the fuck away," I snarled."Don't defy me, brat," he growled back.

Goten looked distressed and ready to die twice. I kissed his cheek gently in hopes of calming him. He smiled gently and kissed me on the cheek back. I smiled as well. Vegeta looked disgusted, as any other male would. "I will not have a gay son!" Vegeta stated."I'm not gay," I said plainly. "I only love Goten so we'll just consider him a girl. "For that comment Goten stuck his tongue out at me. Oops...guess I shouldn't have considered that he could be a girl.

Kaasan walked in and bopped Vegeta on the head. "What the hell are you telling my boy, Vegeta?" she demanded."Telling him not to be gay, onna," he grumbled."COUCH! FOR TWO WEEKS!" she hissed.

My mother angry...the scariest thing in the world..."B-but," he whined. "The couch isn't as soft and comfy!" "Shut up and get OUT. And no gravity room for a month!" she said sternly. Vegeta whimpered as he left. Kaasan smiled at the two of us and then left.

Finally I had my Goten all to myself...that is until my little sister walked in. When she saw Goten hugging and me she turned the brightest red ever. "AH! What are you doing?" she asked in a scared voice.

A smirk grew on my face and I answered, "I'm fucking him." "N-NANI?!" she shrieked. Goten hit me on the head and blushed. "You are not!" Bra ran out of my room more traumatized then ever before. Ah, and I was happier then ever before...

While Trunks and I lived together, some how the question of a baby popped up. Trunks was shocked, obviously. He was pretty sure it wasn't possible. I told him of the dragon balls and he agreed.

       After a few months we had gathered all the dragon balls. I assumed that after we got the baby it would be time to tell my parents my secret. After, we got our beautiful baby girl (Trunks wasn't happy I asked for a girl) that looked just like a mix of Trunks and I. Black hair and blue eyes. Had Trunks' face and my nose. Adorable all around. We named her Kitai. (More so me then him...)

The next week we went to my parent's house. Guess who was there? None other then my niece, brother, and his wife. They were having a family dinner. Wasn't I lucky to get Gohan to always show up at the perfect time?

"Are you finally going to tell them?" he asked me as Trunks and I walked in. I nodded and he smiled. "It's about time." "I agree," said Trunks holding Kitai and kissing her on the cheek."Kaasan's gonna die when she hears this," I muttered. I walked to the kitchen table and sat next to Trunks. Gohan was on the other side of me and next to him was Videl. Next to Videl sat Pan...then my kaasan and then my tousan next to Trunks. I sighed. I decided to wait till a little later before I told them.

"Who's the baby?" my kaasan asked."Her name's Kitai," said Trunks as he snuggled her."I didn't know you had a baby Trunks, who's the mother?" asked my tousan. Please Trunks...don't embarrass me now. I'm not ready... I looked at him with begging eyes. He nodded to me. "She doesn't have a mother," he said handing Kitai to me as he scooped up rice. I kissed her forehead and she giggled."Funny how she looks just like the two of you," said my kaasan."That's because she's both of ours," I blurted out. Videl giggled. "That's not possible," she said smiling at me."Yes it is..." I said. I felt my face growing warm. "ChiChi...did we have a girl?" My tousan asked my kaasan."No...Goten, what's going on here?" she demanded.

"Well Kaasan...I'm gay. I'm in love with Trunks and we asked the dragon for a baby girl..." I said. Great...my kaasan looked ready to burst. "WHAT?" she screamed."I love Trunks," I repeated. He blushed as well.

Kaasan shifted her head towards Gohan. "Say something to your brother!" she demanded. "It's about time you told them," he said smiling. He picked Kitai up from my lap and started making baby faces at her. Pan looked ready to die and ran out of the room crying. Videl fainted out of shock.

"YOU KNEW ABOUT THIS?!" my kaasan screamed."Yeah. They've been together for a few years now. They've been in love a lot longer then that. I guess that's what happens when you don't hang around enough girls," he said with a shrug. Gohan made another face at Kitai and she giggled again.

My kaasan fainted and my tousan caught her and started fanning her. "ChiChi!" he whimpered. Well I had had enough of this. I grabbed Trunks' hand and stood up. He stood up next to me. We said our good-byes to Gohan, and took Kitai. We went home.

"Our love is hell," I said lying down on our bed. "Do you want to give up on it?" he asked worriedly."No way," I stated. "It's worth it. I would die to get to you." A smile spread across his face as he lay down next to me and wrapped his arms around me.

"I guess that's just the problem with having a boy obsession. It's hard to find the one person meant for you and once you do you feel guilty about what you've done in your past. Not to mention all the people who want to break you up. Family members, friends, other obsessed people. But in the end it's worth it for the love," he said as he kissed me on the back of my kneck. I shivered happily. "I guess so," I replied.

Kitai was snuggling Goten on the blanket. Goten was exhausted from waking up at three in the morning to feed her. I picked my chibi tenshi up and hugged her, trying to free Goten of some trouble. Goten whispered thank you and then started snoring. What a koi I got...

Tousan was sitting far away from everyone else against a tree. Kaasan was sitting next to ChiChi and 18, gossiping about something or another. It was a nice sunny day. Gohan walked up behind me and patted me on the back. "How you doing today, Trunks?" he asked me with a large smile on his face. "I'm fine, but your brother is wiped out from the baby," I said pointing to the snoring Goten.

"Oh, I see. Pan tired out Videl when she was a baby as well. Nothing to worry about, though. He'll get sleep again eventually," he said reassuringly. "Good. I can't have him sleeping all day everyday. It's not good for his health," I said smiling. Gohan handed me a bowl of rice and I ate. Krillian grabbed a microphone and started singing karaoke style.

I couldn't help to laugh when Goten threw a pillow at him and told him to shut the fuck up. Everyone had accepted Goten's love and mine and it was reassuring. That night when we went home, I put Goten to bed early so he could get some rest. I fell asleep next to him and took care of Kitai whenever she cried. For Goten, I would endure any and every hell. After all, for love, it was worth it. For Goten, it was worth it. Goten...my obsession...

~*~*~*~THE END~*~*~*~

I never thought I would finish that fic...but I wrote the last 7 pages in one day. I'm so proud! Mushy, ne? Oh well...I hope I do well in the fic contest! Oh yeah!

(1) Goten's Shrine

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