Anya walked into the room and midnight during her rounds and found the still form lying in the bed. She immediately hit the call button to get the doctors to the room but after assessing the situation determined that it was much too late for them to do anything. She pulled the sheet up over JC's face, walked out of the room and promptly walked into Justin.

"He's gone, Justin."

"I know. I just wanna sit with him for a while."

"Alright, you can sit with him until the doctor comes in."

"Thank you."

Justin walks into the room, sees the form under the sheet and the tears begin to flow. "Why, Jayce? Why couldn't you let me love you? Why wouldn't you let me in? What am I going to do now? I loved you so much. What am I going to do with myself?" Justin sits down in the chair that he had been sitting in earlier while holding JC's hand. He reaches under the sheet and takes the cold hand in his, "I'm gonna miss you so much Josh. I know I wasn't much help to you but if you'd have only let me in, I might have been able to help." Justin looks up to see his three brothers standing in the doorway. "He's gone guys."

They walk in and Chris states, "Yeah, we know."

"It just suddenly felt like a big part of us was missing." Joey stated.

"Yeah, I couldn't get back here fast enough. He's really gone, I can't believe it." Chris states.

Lance walks over to the small table next to the bed and pick up the note that's lying there. "Guys. I think you need to hear this."

"What is it Lance?" Joey asks.

"It looks like a note from Jayce. It's in his handwriting anyway."

"Well, read it already." Chris demands.

"I think Justin should read it first. Most of it is addressed to him."

Justin turns but doesn't make any moves to take the note, "I can't Lance. You read it."

"Ok." Lance clears his throat.

Dear guys,

Please don't hate me for what I have done. All I ask is that you guys, Lance, Chris, and Joey. I ask that you look after Justin so that he doesn't follow me. I love you all greatly and hope that you can forgive me for what I've done.

Justin,

My sweet Justin. I'm sorry to leave you the way I have. Although, unfortunately, you are probably the only one in the room that knows how I have truly felt.

Be strong baby. Don't let people treat you like shit. Don't blame yourself for this or for Britney. You couldn't have stopped her if you had tried. I ask that you talk to the guys. They will help. Let them, they're gonna need you. You are a special person and I know that deep down inside you know this, it's just been beaten down extremely far down into your soul.

Remember I will always love you and I'll always be there for you.

Chris,

Take care of Justin, he needs your craziness more than you will ever know.

Joey,

Take care of Brianna, make sure she knows her daddy loves her. Please help Chris and Lance, they aren't as strong as everybody thinks they are.

Lance,

You are the strongest person I have ever met. Wise beyond your years and more loving than anyone I've ever known. Take care of yourself. Don't work too hard. When you get a chance look in on Justin, Chris and Joey just to make sure they are well.

I love you all dearly and I'm sorry for leaving you without saying goodbye.

Love always and forever,
Joshua Scott Chasez

Lance wiped the tears from his eyes and moved to the body, "Why Josh? I still don't understand."

***************** The door opens wide and Karen, Roy, Tyler and Heather all burst into the room. "Hey big brother. Time to wake up man. Come on."

Justin's head flies up off the pillow and takes a deep breath. (It was a dream. That whole thing was a dream.) He looks over to see JC's smiling face. "God, I love you Jayce."

"I love you too Justin. What brought this on?"

"A very, very bad nightmare. Can you tell me something?"

"Anything Just."

"Have you ever been raped or abused by Johnny or anyone else?"

"What," JC asks wrinkling his brow. "No. I can honestly say I've never been with anyone other than you Justin."

"Good, I love you."

"I love you too." JC smiles. "Do you care to tell me what brought on this crazy bought of professing your love to me?"

"Maybe someday. Right now I want you to make love to me."

JC's eyes glitter with amusement, "I'm be honored, baby."