Hold On To The Inside - Eleven


Joey walked out of the room and down to the livingroom. Tears were streaming down his face as he walked away from the scene he had just witnessed.

"What's wrong with you?" Lance asks, coming from the kitchen.

"Excuse me?"

"What are you crying for?"

"I just let the best thing to ever happen to me go."

"What? I think you'd better explain, cuz you aren't making a damn bit of sense."

The two of them walk into the livingroom and sit down. Joey looks to Lance, "You sure want to know?"

"Yes, I'm very curious. Please enlighten me."

"Ok. Well...while I've been gone, the only thing I could think about was Jayce. I came back down here to see if he could forgive me. To see if we still had something or if I truly had blown it, like you'd stated over the phone. God, Lance. What am I gonna do? I love him so much."

"I don't understand. If you love him so much, why the hell did you just walk away. He needed you and you just left. Without a word."

"I was so confused. I didn't know what to think. How do you react to the man you're in love with turning into a woman? I was dating him because he 'was' a guy. If I'd wanted a woman, I would have stayed with Kelli."

"That still doesn't explain why you just up and left. I can understand it taking some time to get used to but, why just leave?"

"I thought if I got away. Gave myself some time to think...Hell I don't know what the hell I was thinking. I know it hurt him when I left but I couldn't stay and watch Justin doing the things that I should have been doing."

"Well, why didn't you step in and take care of him? You realize he's cried himself to sleep every night for the past week. Tonight was the first night he didn't and I think that was because he was exhausted."

"I couldn't, I just couldn't bring myself to touch her. Everytime I tried I'd get nauseus."

"You couldn't touch your boyfriend because he made you sick. Man, you are messed up. How the hell can you say you love JC and you can't even touch Rose? You do realize they are the same person?"

"Yeah, Lance. I realize they are the same person. I just can't deal with her. I want my Josh back."

"Well, I don't think he's ever coming back Joey. Even once the baby is born. You took him away. You broke his heart. I can't forgive you for that, even if he does."

"How do I make it right? What can I do now? He doesn't want me anymore, but he still has my heart."

"You gotta deal with it man. You hurt him, now it's your turn to hurt. You brought this on yourself. Deal with it." Lance walks out of the room and back up the stairs.

"How do you deal with the fact that the man you love, is in love with someone else?" Joey said to himself. "What am I gonna do?" Joey lay down on the couch. "Might as well get a bit of sleep. Maybe things will look better later."

Ten minutes later Karen walks into the livingroom and narrows her eyes, "You, what are you doing here?"

Joey jumps, "Huh?"

"Why are you here? You come to see what your handywork has done? How dare you come to this house."

"Whoa. What are you talking about Mrs. C?"

"I'm talking about Josh. How could you do that to him, then come back here and expect us to all act like nothing happened?"

"Um...what exactly are you talking about?"

"I'm talking about you. You getting my baby pregnant, then breaking his heart, and then running off to spend time with that...that...other woman."

"I wasn't aware that you knew. I'm sorry for just leaving. I've already talked to JC. I have nothing else to explain. To anyone." Joey states as Chris walks into the room.

"Oh, you're going to do some explaining, and you're gonna do it right now." Chris states, pushing his sleeves up. "I may be little, but I'm a pissed off Irishman."

"Chris. Leave him be." Justin states as he comes in to see what is going on.

"What? Why?" Chris asks.

"Because," JC says, coming up behind Justin and wrapping his arms around him. "He's not worth the trouble."

Joey looks at JC with shock clearly written on his face, "But...I thought..."

JC looks at him, "Just becuase we talked, doesn't mean that I've forgiven you for what you did. You just left without saying a word. That hurt more than anything Joe. It's gonna take a while to get over that."

"But. What about..." He motions towards Justin. "What about that?"

"What about it? He's been here for me. He's shown me something you never bothered to."

"What's that? He showed me that love doesn't desert you when something bad or completely unexplainable happens, it just gets stronger."

Joey stands there with tears in his eyes, "I'm so sorry for everything I've put you through Jayce."

JC walks over and hugs Joey, "It's gonna take some time but maybe we can be friends again someday."

Joey hugs JC tightly to his body, "If you need anything, for you or the baby, don't hesitate to ask."

"You got it." JC turns around and looks at the roomful of people. "Man, I'm the luckiest girl ever."

"Why do you say that Jayce?" Chris asks.

"Look at you all," He smiles. "I've got the best friends in the whole world. The coolest mom on the planet and..." He looks at Justin, "And I just found the most wonderful thing in the world has been hiding in my best friend."

"Um...Jayce?" Lance states from the doorway. "What the hell are you babbling about?"

"I'm in love, I got great friends and I'm gonna have a baby. What more could a girl ever want?" At that he turns pale as a ghost and passes out.