"JC? You in here?"

Silence.

"JC?"

Sniffling.

Lance walks into the bedroom and sees JC lying on the bed, curled up in the fetal position, crying.

"JC?"

"Don't Lance. I just want to be alone for a while, please?"

"Jayce, I'm not gonna leave you here alone. I'm gonna sit here and be with you like you were for me. You knew what I needed better than I did. Now let me do the same for you. I won't say anything until you are ready to talk. Ok?"

"Mmm hmm." sniffle, "Thanks."

How could his parents just drop this on him like that? No wonder the guy doesn't like his birthday. This is the second crappy birthday he's had and the guys only 20. Jesus. I may have gotten disowned but at least I know who my parents are. I wonder what he's thinking? How can anyone this stressed look so good. Even with tear streaks and puffy red eyes the guy is gorgeous. I wish I could wrap my arms around him and hold him. Why can't I? He's upset. If anybody asked all I'd have to say was I was trying to comfort him a little. Nobody would ever have to know I have other ideas. Too bad he doesn't feel the same.

What did I do to deserve this wonderful person? He is so sweet. What is he doing? Oh my God. Wow, this feels good. I wish we could do this more often. I wonder if my parents have any other bad news they need to tell me. I mean it isn't everyday that out of the blue you find out that the people that have raised you for as long as you can remember turn out to not be who you think they are. Shit, that felt good. Do it again. Yes, rub my back some more. Where was I? Oh yeah. I wonder who my parents are? Mom, I mean, Karen said I have a brother and three sisters. I wonder where they are. I hope they're doing ok. I wonder if they got put in good homes too. How do I find out?

"I want to find my family."

Man, he feels so good in my arms. I wonder what he would do if I rubbed his back? Mmm. He must like that. At least he has stopped crying. Oh shit, he said something. What'd he say?

"What?"

"I want to find my family. I want to know if my brother and sisters are ok. I want to know who they are. Where they are? You know all that stuff. I don't so much care about my mom and dad, but I'd like to know at least where they are."

"If that is what you want. I don't think that would be so bad. It shouldn't be that hard. If we make it big and they find out who you are they'll probably come to you anyway."

"Yeah, but what if we don't make it big. What if they were adopted too and their new families don't tell them about any of this stuff. What then?"

"We'll find out. I'm sure they have records and stuff. We'll just ask your mom and dad. The Human Services Department keeps records on all that kind of stuff. I don't know how much of it they are allowed to tell you but it would be a good place to start."

"Thanks Lance. I'm glad you're here."

I wonder how he would react if I kissed him. Just try it and see. It can't be any worse than when you told your parents, and he already knows your gay. That won't shock him. Just do it.

What is he doing? Oh, is he doin what I think he's doing. Mmm. That was nice. I wonder if he'd mind doing that again. Ooooh. He did it again. Ok. He's looking at you for your reaction. Smile. Yep that's what he was waiting for. My turn. Lean in and kiss him. Oh yeh. That's great. Nice, soft lips. Oooh. Hey, is that his tongue? Ok. Open your lips up and let him kiss you. That's it. Stop being so retarded. It's not like he is the first person you've ever kissed.

Yes, he didn't freak out. Now he's kissing me. Ok, lets see how he reacts to a little tongue. Hmmm. Nice. Open those pouty lips, that it. Good boy Josh. God he tastes good. I wonder what he had to eat that was so sweet. Tastes like, hmm Dots, yep, that's it. Oh, what is he doing with his hand? That feels good. Ok. We gotta stop before someone walks in. Pull away. Oh, please don't pout at me like that.

What? Why are you pulling away? Oh, yeah, I'm supposed to be upset. If somebody walks in all hell would probably break loose.

"Wow. That was just. Wow." Lance stammered.

"Lance? How's he doing?" Joey asks from the doorway.

"I'm fine Joey. Thanks. I'll be back down in a few. Are Karen and Roy still here?"

"Yeah, they are man. Look I don't have any idea what you're going through but those two people down there raised you. They loved you and gave you a home. They gave you food and a roof over your head. They gave you a brother and a sister that love you very much. They are more your parents than someone that is related to you by blood is. Just because they don't have the same blood as you, don't throw away what you have with them just because you found out you have another set of 'parents' out there. Karen and Roy have always been your mom and dad. They still should be. They have done nothing wrong and you should love them just the same."

"Damn, Joe. Where'd that come from?" Lance asks.

"Nowhere. He just called his mom and dad by their given names instead of calling them mom and dad like he has since we have known him. He did it when he left too. He didn't see the look on Karen's face when her 'son' called her Karen instead of mom. That had to hurt something fierce. I know it would kill my mom if I called her be her name instead of mom."

"Ok, Joe. I get what you're trying to say. It's just allot to process at one time. How would you like it if all of this were happening to you? What would you do Joe?"

"I would still love my mom and dad. That wouldn't change, I know that. Nothing can change that. They are my mom and dad. I bet even Lance could relate to that. Right Lance?"

"Yeah, he has a point Jayce. Even with all the shit my mom has pulled, I still love her. If she walked in that door and apologized I would welcome her back into my life with open arms. You just can't replace that kind of love. Just because those people have the same blood and some piece of paper somewhere has their names on it as your parents they really aren't your parents. Do you understand what I'm saying here Jayce?"

"Yeah, I do. Can you guys give me a couple of minutes? I want to wash up and then I'll be down ok? Then maybe we can finish that birthday party you guys worked so hard on. Lance could you ask my mom and dad to come up here for a few minutes? Thanks."

"Sure Jayce."

JC goes in the bathroom and washes his face. Karen and Roy come up to his room and are sitting on his bed when he comes out.

"What's up JC? Why did you want us to come up here?" Karen asked.

"I just wanted to tell you that no matter what, I still love you both and you 'are' my mom and dad. Nothing will ever change that. Ok?"

"Sure son. You have no idea how good that is to hear." Roy says.

"I do want to know who my family is though. I would like to find them. I'm not so concerned about my birth parents but I would like to find out who my brother and sisters are. Do you think that would be possible? Will you help me to find out? Do you think this is a bad idea?"

"No, it is not a bad idea. We would be glad to help you find out. We can call the social services people and see if they have any information on them. We do know that they were all adopted out so there should be some record of the court appearances and the adoptions. Maybe we can get my brother to look into it for you. He probably knows who to talk to and what information is available to us." Roy says.

"Josh, you know we love you and we'll support you no matter what." Karen says and stands up to give JC a hug.

They return to the living room and the rest of the guys all get up and give JC hugs. They continue to party for a while.

"Lance? Do you have a room that we can sleep in for the night? We have an early flight in the morning but we didn't get a room at any of the hotels." Karen asks.

"Yeh, first room on the left. I just washed the sheets and bedding a couple of days ago."

"Thanks Lance. I think Roy and I will be going to bed now. I suggest you boys do the same pretty soon. Thank you for letting us stay. Night boys."

"Night mom and dad. Love you."

Night Mr. and Mrs. C." the others chorus.