"One night?" I asked again. "How can he ask such a thing? After all you've done for him."

"I don't know. You know I don't want to?" Lance pulls his head back to look in my eyes, "You know I'd give anything to get him better, but..."

I lift a finger to his lips, "Shhhh. I know this isn't something you thought of. Although..."

"What? What are you thinking Jayce?"

"Well....I don't know. This whole idea almost sounds like Justin is 'trying' to drive us apart." I frown.

"What? How could you...." He rolls off of me and lays on his back, "How could you say that? You were the one that started all this."

"Look....Lance. I'm not saying he did plan it that way, it just seems that maybe he's trying to take advantage of you. He knows you'll do anything for him to make him better."

"So would you."

"Yes, I would. But I'm not the one he wants 'one night' with. I can honestly say that I would have turned him down without any question, but I'm not you. I'm not stupid Lance. I know you still have feelings for him."

Lance props himself up on an elbow and looks at me, "I love you Jayce. There is no one else for me. You are the one and only love for me."

I close my eyes, "Maybe you should do it. That way..." I take a deep breath, "That way 'you' can be sure 'you' didn't pick the wrong person."

"Jayce?" Lance lifts a hand to my face and wipes the tear from my eye that had snuck out, "I don't need to spend a night with Justin or anyone else to know that you are my true love. No one can take your place. You are my sunshine on a rainy day. You are my light in the darkness. You are the light of my life and there is no way I could live without you."

I open my eyes and look into his amazingly gentle eyes, "I know that's what you say now, but aren't you just the least bit curious about what you could have had with him?"

"No."

"How can you be so sure? He was the first for you, in so many ways." I reach up and cup his chin, "I won't be mad Lance. I just need to know the truth. I see how you are with him. There is something between you two that isn't there with anyone else."

"Jayce? What are you saying?"

"I'm saying that maybe there is something between you two that goes deeper than friendship."

He leans in and tries to kiss me. I pull away, get up and go in the bathroom, closing the door behind me. "What have I just done." I lean back against the door and let the tears flow. I stay in the bathroom for a while trying to gather my self control again. When I come out I stop in my tracks, Lance is curled up in a ball on the bed sound asleep. I walk over to the bed and look down at the man I've given my heart to. (He looks so tired. I sure hope Justin lets him get some rest.) I go around to the other side of the bed, sit down, "I love you Lance. I trust you to do what you need to do. I just hope you love me enough to come back to me when this is over." I smooth his hair down on his head and place a kiss on his forehead, "Just don't expect me to be here when it happens."

I get up, pack a small bag and walk to the door, "I love you with all my heart Lance, but this is a decision that only you can make."