Silence is often my only way out
I do not have to make decissions
And keep them
If I do not speak them.
Hurt does not come so easily that way.
It's not that I do not feel-
Am not emotional-
But opposite-
If allowed I am overly emotional
I can run circles around
Anyone when it comes to emotion-
I choose not to-
Because it leaves me in a tangled mess
Of eternally bleeding hellishness.
This alone scares me.

~*~MBJ~*~
6-2-01