Before You
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01. Don't
02. Wish Come True
03. M & S
04. Open
05. me
06. White Death
07. Heaven
08. Hush
09. Involved
10. Now [AV]
11. Audience
12. Would you?
13. On and On
14. Running Away
15. Roses
16. Standing There
17. My Habit ~For You~
18. Order
19. Curtain Act
20. Endless Sorrow
01. Don't
You can't tell me
You've never been here
To see this lie.
You can't understand
That I'm not lost
In this broken lie.
If you've never seen me,
Then how can you judge me?
How can you say if I'll make it?
If you've never known me,
Then what are you saying?
You've never known what to say
Just empty words
That you've forgotten to know
Now turn around,
Go on with your life while you still can.
There's nothing left in here to look at.
What's the point in this crime?
Just leave before you get ahead
Your fake smile betrays you,
Yes, I know your lie
Again
Just turn around,
What is it you are trying to prove to your world?
There's nothing left in here for you to mock.
What's the point of your crime?
Just leave before you get left behind
I'll get through, just like always,
No, don't worry...
Now turn around,
Go on with your life while you still can.
There's nothing left in here to look at.
There's no point left in this land,
Don't worry...
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02. Wish Come True
You built my world
Around your deception
And I fell in gladly
I swim faster, harder,
And still I'm not
Getting any closer to you
Now that I have wasted time,
I've become tired and I'm falling short
This embrace is the worst thing
I've ever realize I don't own
You are the only thing
That makes everything right
And it's just now I realized this
So this illusion that I
Dropped onto your hard floor
Is eating my alive
When someone's wish comes true,
You have to realize
Someone elses shatters
On this hard floor
That lies here
Unpolished
As my voice echoes in silence,
I wonder if you ever were listening
It's not right
Alone, I sit, a little longer,
Please would you tell me...
How many shards of love
Do we need to find
To make every thing right again?
So much illusion has taken
Over my world and I
Have nothing left inside
When my wish comes true,
I have to realize
Someone elses shatters still
On this hard floor
That lies here
Unpolished
You are the only thing
That makes everything right
So this is why I'm falling down
Your crazy world of games
Is keeping me alive
And killing me still
When my wish shatters
Against the hard floor,
I have to know
Yours will come true,
Here on this floor
That I worked hard
To polish for you
You covered my heart in your deception,
But I'm so glad I felt alive once
Maybe someday I will have a new wish
To follow once more
Please...
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03. M & S
Life tried to teach you a song
But you learned another one
You say the world is going wrong
But you don't say which one
You asked me once what the world would do
If you weren't around
You were looking for a reason to leave
But I won't show you the way
I can't say if you believed me or not
But I promised I wouldn't lie
"The earth would stop spinning,
the moon would crash into the stars.
There would be nothing but darkness
and I wouldn't be able to breathe..."
You asked me how you could
mean that much to the world
You asked me how you would
keep the world from ending
I simply told you...
You keep my world from ending
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04. Open
I know I repeat things a lot
but it's because I'm avoiding
saying things I want to say
Someone once told me
my only fault is not being open
It only made me realize
how little people really know me
Hiding my dreams away,
I know it's my own fault
What dreams am I to follow?
I want to speak,
I want to sing,
I want to write,
I want to dance,
I want too much
How many doors have I
unintentionally slammed shut?
How many quietly open now?
I'm tip toeing silently
towards an open door
If it closes too soon,
if it's not the right one...
Maybe a chance is what I need
I'm tired of the same old thing
I'm changing myself slowly
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05. me
We were perfect in every way
I'd like to see you change my mind
Our faults were personal,
more and more I wish for those times
The faint smile invading my lips,
I want to crumble it up and throw it away
It's no longer mine to wear,
so why is it still here?
I've taken a sharp turn away
from my first thoughts
I've tried to convince myself
but I can't pursuade even me
I don't know what I'm wanting,
whatever it is, I don't expect it
I'm just stuck in the past again
so forget my crazy words
Whatever I'm saying,
I know it means nothing
so please pay me no attention
I think I like being poor
With no outside thoughts,
those on the inside can't be hurt
The angel's wings are slowly
becoming faded again
They're flickering away in the light's night...
I'm only me again
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06. White Death
Deathly white, it litters the ground
The water falls from the sky,
Washing it from its birth
Its death adds beauty
To the once bare ground
The blossoms spring from the depths
Its birth adds beauty
To the once bare land of green
If it's all beautiful,
Why do we hate death the most?
We are sad to see things go,
But are we happy they were here?
Trails of deathly white blossoms,
Leading you to their source
Suddently, their deathly white
Becomes life
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07. Heaven
A whip cracks across the sky
It's like everything in this world,
You can see it before you hear it
Heaven can't be mad
They're perfect, unlike us
Maybe they're mocking us?
And all the crap we do...
It's the sound
of things breaking
and shattering
against the hard floor
of heaven
It's the sound
of silent screaming
and hateful eyes
glaring at us through
heaven
Heaven doesn't hate
They're perfect, unlike us
Maybe they're telling us
Something we should know...?
We see the light racing by,
And then it's gone before it's there
But when we hear the sound fall...
Everything starts raining down
It isn't just any sound we hear,
It's the sound of our lives...
Shattering on the floor of heaven
Just where we threw them last
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08. Hush
Quiet
It's a secret
You won't be learning really soon
My heart
Is a secret
I'm holding close to myself
I once played in that field,
Now I sit outside this place
And watch as everything passes by
Sometimes, I stay too long
And it's then I realize
That I must return to my
Dying world Across the street
It's always the same thing,
It's always safe at first glance,
But after the first few minutes
I realize we've been under attack
Ducking, hiding, playing dead
It's all apart of everything,
It's exactly what I must do
To keep them from killing me
My heart, My soul
They are hidden in a war
But Hush, little one,
Quite, sweet one,
It's a secret You can't tell
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09. Involved
The words coming from your mouth
You try to make them sound angry
It's mostly to cover up the hurt
Though maybe there's anger involved
It's a crazy, hurtful place to be
It's almost like no one cares
It's not as easy to give up
As some may think
I've tried to many times
and I'm still stuck here
But it's not as easy to hold on
As some may make it seem
There's always choices involved,
almost too many to make
It all comes down to who they hurt
and who smiles from them
Are we as involved as you think?
Or are you streatched thin for other reasons?
Did you ever have any idea
what you might be getting into?
I'm sorry I couldn't be perfect
I'm sorry they refused perfection
But tell me what you were thinking
If you really knew the whole story
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10. Now [AV]
It's so hot in here,
I can hardly breathe.
So I turn it down and
I'm dissapointed
With the air I breathe.
So I simply stand under it
And let it fall on me
It burns my skin, but it's
Nothing more than I expected
And you,
I can hardly see you,
Your blurry image in the mirror
So why,
Why do I have to be strong
For you? For someone I can't see?
One day, I hope to really have you.
This would be one of those times,
That I just really want you.
It's so hot in here,
I can't even breathe.
But even if I could,
I wouldn't want to.
I'll simply stand under my sin
And let it fall on me
It burns my skin, but it's
Nothing more than I expected
And you,
I can hardly hear you,
Your drifting voice in the echo
So why,
Why do I have to be strong
For you? For someone I can't hear?
I wipe off the fog,
But my view is still obscured.
Red lips, wet hair, secret eyes
Who are you? And why are you here?
Someone tell me...
One day, I hope to really own you.
This would be the one day I
Never wake up
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11. Audience
Four more minutes
Last four more years
Haven't you seen me?
This is the longest second
Of my life
Why did this light fail me now?
No, light, don't fail me now...
I'll perform my ritual dance
Before this stone solid audience
But I have a heart of solid stone
I can out last this cold audience
Keep your heartless stares
I don't need them.
I don't need you.
I'm dancing before you again
My heart isn't moving with my body
But this audience of stone
No, it's not giving in too much
But I can out last this audience
Ah...
Three more minutes,
Just three more years
That's all that's left
In this cold place
Twenty five years
Will this heart make it?
With this audience
You've given me...
Fifteen
Eyes Watching
Twenty one
Audience and
One me
I'll perform my ritual dance,
Oh, I'm dancing before you again
Do you see my heart dying?
Twenty heartless thoughts coming
Burning through my mind...
Ah...
Don't do that to me.
Remember?
I don't need them.
I don't need you.
No, I don't need you.
Three
Twenty five
Fifteen
Twenty one
Twenty three
One
Ah...
I'll perform my ritual dance
Before this stone solid audience
But I have a heart of solid stone
I can out last this cold audience
Keep your heartless stares
Keep your stone cold stares...
Keep your hearts of stone...
Keep yourselves close....
I don't need you.
I'm dancing before your
Stone cold watch again
This is the longest second
Of my life
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12. Would you?
If I lit up the sky
With hope and a quiet lullaby
Would you want to cry?
And if your tears
Were all your hurt and fears,
Would you leave them there?
Alone on the ground
With no light, no sound,
And would you care about them?
So if they kept you alive,
For all of this long drive,
Would you abandon them on this road?
Your heart has fallen,
You were betrayed, now it's stolen
And would you care to take it back?
Your heart lies in the sands,
You don't trust it in someones hands,
Would you let someone find the shell?
Your life lays in deceitful ruins,
You've quietly closed the curtains,
And what more is there? Would you care?
So if I asked for your name,
Would it all be in vain?
Would you tell me why you came?
Because my sky is getting dark,
The sky has lost its spark,
Would you tell me where I can park?
Afterall, it's your barren heart...
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13. On and On
On and on and on...
You're on and on and on.
On and on and on...
You never end.
Softly, now.
Proceed with caution.
Look what you've done,
You've broken something.
Quiet, now.
Run away faster.
Look where you're going,
Don't fall while on the run.
On and on and on,
Just keep running on.
Don't stop now, look,
You've done it again.
On and on and on,
Just stop trying now.
Don't try to touch me,
You'll only do it again.
Stop, now.
Don't move wrong.
Look what you've done,
You've killed someone.
Hey, now.
Don't look up.
The sky is falling in,
My world is falling in.
On and on and on,
Just look what you've done.
Don't stop running,
Just go away, far away from here.
Look, now...
Don't you see this.
It's laying on the floor,
A pile misery.
Jump in,
Splash it away,
Who needs to feel this?
Don't follow your misery...
On and on and on,
It's all you do.
You're just on and on and on,
You never end.
On and on and on,
I can't see anymore.
Just on and on and on,
Look... look what you've done now.
You, now...
You've gone and done it again.
I'm drowning more and more.
Look, I can't breathe...
On and on and on...
You're on and on and on...
On and on and on,
No, it never ends.
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14. Running Away
I can't say things the way I want to
What makes you think I can speak
the way you want me to?
How many time am I supposed to listen?
I listen to you all the time and still
I never know what to say in return
Things can look pretty and not be,
They can feel soft and still be hard.
Nothing, and I mean nothing,
can always be what you think it is
You can turn around and look up,
reach your hands to the sky,
but it still lingers behind you
Nothing dissapears just like that
You can float your way out,
you can simply walk away,
and what is left behind it all?
Are you tired of thinking of us?
Do you just want to think of yourself?
Then go ahead and leave, why not?
No one's making you stay here
I can assure you I didn't mean that
They way it sounds to your ears
I almost feel guilty, I almost feel bad
You really couldn't of known at all
I've been here longer than you,
much longer than just a simple year,
I never had the same options as you
I simply had to smile anyways
So I guess I've had an advantage
Maybe I wanted to leave a lot
But I've stuck it out and I can't say
Anything good has come of it
So just go ahead and leave now
Before something worse happens
You think everything is as bad
As it can ever get but you still...
You haven't seen the things I have...
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15. Roses
Why is it that
every time I turn around
there's someone smiling at me
a frown hidden inside?
Why is it that
everyone I come to trust
doesn't mean what they're saying?
I asked an honest question
Why can't I just
have someone tell me
what I really want to know
instead of these lies?
You're a rose by another name
with petals soft and gental
and thorns sharp and often overlooked
Why is it that
you're still smiling at me
even though I'm confronting you
and all your lies?
Why is it that
you don't mean your smiles,
even though I try hard for you
to give me your approval?
I'm a rose by another name
with petals once soft and gental
The more you touch their softness
The more you help them die
16. Standing There
My throat feels dry and irritated
and I cough again, hoping
that it will relieve the feeling
But it only makes it worse
Instead, I need to cough again
It hasn't helped a thing
Who am I talking to again?
You're only standing there
Repetition makes things old,
but we still do it a lot
It's like breathing Over and over
In and out but we'd die without it
Everyone becomes familiar,
I can say I know where I'm going,
but I still don't know who I'm talking to
Are you even standing there?
Straighter, taller, don't slouch
Is it a sign of weakness?
I don't speak much
but neither do you
I had a dream once
You told me what was wrong with me
I'm trying to remember
Was that a dream or did you really say?
I'm standing here Alone
I'm gathering myself Alone
To face the world Alone
But what are you doing?
Standing there Silent
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17. My Habit ~For You~
We have our habits, our things we come to know
I always knew it was hard to break a habit
Though I try to pull away you still hold on
You're the one who wanted to let go in the first place
I doubt your words, I doubt your voice
I doubt your surity in this, I doubt your decisions
Can you see me in the dark?
I'm crying for you
Don't cry
Can you feel my heart throbbing?
I'm crying too much
For you
Hear my sacrifice
My surroundings fall short of my sight
My rational thoughts lose the battle
All I hear are words that make no sense
Words that have no reasoning... until it's over
Everything you need of me...
I will do it for you
Every time you talk to me...
I will tell you what you want
I'm not helping anyone...
But maybe... maybe for awhile...
Can you feel me touching you?
I'll hold you close
Don't cry
Can you see me reaching for you?
I'd do a million things
For you
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18. Order
Flush it down the drain
But don't flush everything away
You have to have a past
To be who you are
Forget your order of things
Forget your time limit
Forget your time limit
Forget where you're supposed to be
Forget you're hurting again
Forget you're innocent
Forget you're losing hope
Feel the rain...
Step in the curtain the wrong way
You can sneak up on the water
It never would expect
But life is too short for too much order
*Forget you had it all figured out
Forget you're supposed to be perfect
Forget you're supposed to be perfect
Forget you promised to leave
** Forget who you're supposed to be
Forget your order of things
Forget you wanted out again
Feel the rain...
Forget your heart is feeling faint
Feel the rain...
You have to have a past to be somebody
Feel the rain...
There's got to be more than perfect
Feel the rain comming down
It's raining, raining
Feel the rain wash over you
It rains in life, it rains
Don't forget what it feels like
To run through the rain
A smile on your face
Forget your order of things
Forget your time limit
Forget your time limit
Forget where you're supposed to be
Forget you've found something new
Forget you're innocent, losing hope...
* Repeat
** Repeat
Feel the rain...
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19. Curtain Act
I want to go, I've tried to go
I'm still stuck here putting on a show
You think my thoughts are sane,
You think it's all a game
To try and make me feel your way
I have a desire to say I don't
feel the way you think
I have the desire to let go
But you don't believe me
* Tell me why I can't let it all go
What is holding me back from my life?
Tell me why you believe in this act
It's fake I thought I couldn't act
The lights go off, the lights come on
I'm the only one left to stand alone
I missed the cue to take the chance
But I'm still not behind in life
I really tried to impress you
to make you stop and look
I thought maybe with my silence
You'd wonder what you're missing
Tell me why I can't tell you to go
What about you is holding me back?
Tell me why this act still goes on
Undone Behind the closed curtain
* Repeat
Tell me why I can't tell you to go
What about you is holding me back?
Tell me why this act still comes
Undone Behind the closed curtain
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20. Endless Sorrow
"The risk of leaving someone alone
is worth it if you can be happy"
These are words you said to me, thoughtfully
But I was wondering who would keep you up
a kiss on your cheek was my last goodbye
Is this what you meant by "follow your dreams?"
Is this where you meant to end up?
How many things did you sacrifice?
All to end up here...
What happened to "Oh, I'll let it go"
Though we all have many burdens
Tell me who wants to wear the yellow raincoat
Is it beacuse you want the world to think you're strong?
With all the pictures you paint for the blind to see...
Why won't you listen to those who've seen more?
Flowers still bloom and angels still cry
But where do you get if you're too afraid?
Flowers still die and angels still smile
Even though sometimes you're feeling pain
The world is still moving, even if you're not
Is this what you meant by "follow your dreams?"
Is this where you meant to end up?
How many things did you sacrifice?
All to end up here...
The world is still moving... without you... together... together
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