CATACLYSM
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01. Gnomes are nice to know...
02. Flirting with Catastrophy
03. ♥ oshimai // Japanese :: [heart] the end
04. pleasance
05. first impressions last forever
06. Everything's About You
07. Picayune
08. Freudian Slip
09. Taisetsu [Important]
10. break the RULES
11. One Time
12. h&h
13. Corners
14. Intoxication
15. Dust
16. Cataclysm
01. Gnomes are nice to know...
NOTE: While "gnomes" are usually thought of as little men who work for
santa clause (or some other mystical figure) the term can also be defined
as "A pithy (Precisely meaningful; forceful and brief) saying that
expresses a general truth or fundamental principle; an aphorism" (dictionary.com).
In addition, I would like to state that first two lines of the chorus
(the two lines that appear in quotation marks) came from a song...
the author and title I don't know. I'm just admiting I used a reference.
The beginning of the second chorus, however, (the second part starting with
quotations) is all mine. Whoot. XD
There was a dance at the party last night
We were supposed to crash but we thought it alright
I thought I was stupid but a gnome taught me better,
He said it was alright if I didn't wear the sweater...
It was a cold night, but I didn't need it
With the heat of the fire and the colored lights
There was a dance at the party last night
We were supposed to be happy but we had a fight
I thought I might have kicked the habit but,
That's over now, and a gnome told me about...
The man at the other side of the room
Who told me these words:
"Don't be so pessimistic, weak, and girlish.
We like strong, happy, and boyish people."
I thought it meant I wasn't good enough but
All the gnome said was "to each his own."
It was a cold night, and I felt alive
With the fire light, and the colored lights
Don't let me down tonight.
There was a dance at the party last night
We were supposed to laugh but we sighed all night
I thought we were missing something but,
This gnome told me something else about...
The man at the other side of the room
Who didn't understand these words:
"I can be lazy sometimes in what I do,
But don't worry, I'm good when it counts."
I thought it meant I could be good enough but
All the gnome was saying was "to each his own"
There's something you should know, I don't wanna let you go
There's fire in your eyes and, the lights play with your colored eyes
Don't let me down tonight, Don't let me down tonight
"Don't be so pessimistic, weak, and girlish.
We like them strong and happy."
"I can be lazy sometimes,
But don't you worry, I'm good when it counts."
The man at the other side of the room
Didn't understand what I didn't understand...
All I wanted was to not be let down tonight
And all the gnome would tell me is "to each his own"
And I said "Well, that's nice to know."
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02. Flirting with Catastrophy
I saw you walking down the street
And in your arms I know she needs to be
If it's the only way to go,
I guess there's no need
For Selfishness
But I know you don't love her,
I know it pains her to know
Here she's hanging on so tight,
Afraid to let go of what she's
Always wanted
You could be the one for her
But think it over
If it's not love
I could be the one for you
But think it over
How will she love?
It makes me sad to know she's real.
She'd be true to you and love you still
If you feel you have to go,
I guess you could say it's right
To Stay with Her.
You promised you'd be the one
But think it over
Will she be happy?
You could owe her your life
But think it over
How will she be happy?
I'm only thinking of myself again,
I just want any reason to make it right
I'm being selfish again,
It would hurt her, wouldn't it?
Think it over
is it love?
Think it over
is it happiness?
You could be the one for her
But think it over
Will she be happy?
I could be the one for you
But think it over
Is it worth it?
Is she really being fair,
If she knows you're leaving behind love?
It's not the only way to go,
But there's no need for selfishness.
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03. ♥ oshimai
I can say,
With all the honesty in my heart,
That this was what I looked forward to.
It's complicated
Because the world you seek
Is supposed to be understandable
So we create these rules to follow
You can say,
With all the skeptisism in your mind,
That this makes me a bad person inside.
I want to know
If you can conform to these standards.
With all the honesty in your heart,
Is this what you feel inside?
You're really afraid
Of these things that you can't comprehend
But you're not supposed to say that
This is only a way to simplify our lives.
Because of you,
I have tried to conform to this shape,
The imprint of society that I must understand
But would you expect a sakura to become a bird?
I can say,
With all that I actually know,
That I don't regret what I've been through.
It's complicated
Because the things you look for
Are supposed to be comprehendable,
But you've never experienced this before
How could you know?
I want you to know
That if you can conform to these standards,
You could very well be the only true one,
And everyone else is struggling behind you
Because all my life,
I have wanted to conform to this idea,
The wonderful things you have told me I could be.
I have always felt like I don't belong here.
It was all for you,
But I've come to realize that I was wrong.
I know, but I can't change how I have become.
Instead, I stay here, trying to conform.
If I could, I would leave this behind
I can say, with all the honesty in my heart,
That I never loved this game to begin with
Yes, I really would love to find the end.
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04. pleasance
It's everything I ever wanted,
'Cause this is just who I am
I really want to show you something
But I can't, you see
This is just the way I am
The reasons you're here with me
Don't come from the idea that
I asked you to stay with me.
Maybe that's harsh, but you see
This is just the way I am
I wasn't trying to make you leave,
But I can't ask you to stay with me
Because every word you say,
Finds its way into me, you see
This is just the way I am
It's just so perfect, I want it
'Cause you just belong with me
I really want to tell you something
But I can't, you see
That's just the way I am
I've tried to break my habits
I know I've become dissapointing
There's not much I can really do
Because, you see,
This is just the way I've become
It's everything I'm looking for,
Everything and more
I really want to describe it to you
But I can't, you see
These words just won't come to me
Please don't leave just yet,
Even if I can't say the words to you,
Do you understand what I need?
Every word you say finds me,
Maybe that's hard to see, but it's true
You see, I can't find the words,
But that doesn't mean I don't want you here
Do you understand? I'm losing hope.
It's just that, you see,
This is just the way I am
I really want to tell you something,
But I can't, because, you see,
I need you here with me
And I've never felt this way before
So how do I explain to you?
This is just the way I am.
I'm not broken, so don't fix me.
I'll try to change if you,
If you'll stay with me.
Only if you stay with me.
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05. first impressions last forever
I would risk being cold on my way home
If I could try and give a good impression
Sometimes I wonder if I care too much...
You see, I know I try harder to belong
Than you even care if I'm here or not
But I want to be right where I belong
How can I find where I belong?
I'm watching every step I take,
Because I know for sure that
First impressions last forever
How can I change what I've done?
Sometimes I think I care too much.
I would let you wash away my life
If I knew it would give a good impression
Sometimes I think you don't care enough...
You see, I'm ashamed of the things I've seen
Even if you find it something to be proud of
I only want to be right where I belong
I still can't find where I belong
I'm watching every step I take
Because I know for sure that
First impressions last forever
I want to change what's been done,
But I can't undo what you've created.
The destructions that I've caused your life,
I hope it doesn't last forever... I never knew...
That something so simple could hurt you
Yeah, because first impressions last forever
You never asked if that's what I meant to say,
I thought you understood it's not what I meant
I thought you knew it wasn't my choice anyway
You just took your thoughts and ran
Now I'm watching every move I make
Because I know for sure that
First impressions last forever
How can I change what's be done?
I want to undo what I've done.
Sometimes I think I care too much...
Do you even care?
I care too much...
Honestly?
I know.
Sometimes I think we take it to heart
When we shouldn't have even cared
I would risk my life, I would risk it all
Just in case you took my words to heart
First impressions,
They last a lifetime
But I don't care.
It's not important...
To me.
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06. Everything's About You
There's nothing beyond this kind of reasoning,
So of course you've come to this conclusion
Yes, you're right, this is all about you
Of course, we'd never do anything else
Our lives are focused on only one things
So of course, you're exactly right
Yes, we live to do what you say not to
Of course, how could we ever do anything else?
Everything's about you
Yes, that's right
You're not paranoid
My life is about you
There's nothing wrong with this kind of thinking,
So you know, right? You know this is the conclusion.
No, you're never wrong, so this can't be wrong
Of course, we'd never dream of anything else
I breathe, live, exist, just to put you down.
Yes, you're right. How could you ever be wrong?
I'd never talk about anyone else I might know.
Of course, how could I ever do anything else?
Everything's for you
Yes, that's right
It's all to bring you down
My life is to bring you down.
There's just nothing beyond that kind of reasoning,
So of course you're right, you could never be wrong
I'd never dream of doing anything else
This is the only reason I wake up every morning
Everything's about you, you, you.
It's all about you, babe.
You.
And nobody else.
Just you.
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07. Picayune
(informal terms) small and of little importance (rz.com)
There's nothing important going on here
But you're someone who catches my eye.
Oh, but don't worry, I won't say anything
I wouldn't want to put you in an awkward spot.
I realize I make things difficult sometimes.
It's hard to make me answer personal questions,
But that's just because I'm not used to such things.
I'm in an awkward spot when you ask about me.
Maybe if you got a little closer to me.
Don't act so distant all the time.
I'm here, I want to speak to you,
But I'm unsure if I can speak first.
You see, this is an awkward thing for me.
I'm not used to getting close to people.
But I'm trying, and I hope you'll try too.
No, you don't have to, but it'd be nice.
There's nothing important going on here
But you've gone and caught my eye, see?
Don't worry, I'll keep my mouth shut.
I wouldn't put you in such an awkward place.
I won't get too close to you,
I'll act distant all the time.
I'm here, if you want to speak to me,
But I won't make you feel unsure.
Soo desu ka.
There's not much you can do, is there?
Don't worry, I'll keep to myself.
Soo desu ka.
This is just awkward to you, isn't it?
I'm sorry to put you in such a place.
Don't worry, I know for sure
There's nothing important going on here
You just caught my eye, that's all.
I'll be moving on before long.
See, I wouldn't want to make you feel awkward.
Translations:
Soo desu ka: I See. (Japanese)
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08. Freudian Slip
I almost left you once,
But I stopped for some reason,
Although I can't decide why
It was something Ace said.
Or maybe it was Ego?
Ace told me I was wrong,
Even though I felt right.
I wanted to throw you off
And pound my feet on the ground.
Running, running so fast.
Ego was trying to make it right,
But Ace made me turn back.
It wasn't because of you,
Don't be mistaken. Do you realize?
Do you know how far I made it?
You think your threats keep me in line,
But if you knew the things Id said to me,
You'd know just what I want to do to you
Every time those words leave your mouth.
Would you still say them to me?
I give in to Id sometimes,
I just want to push you so far
So far that you do what you say
You'll never do. Ego would justify it,
Say I was simply making you understand.
Id would know better, even I understand it now.
Id would know it was only for immediate gratification.
Ace would tell me later I should feel bad,
The horrible things I've done, just like you've said to me.
Then maybe I would, maybe I wouldn't. Maybe ego'd justify it.
I want to leave you right now,
Just run out this door and put my feet
Down to the pavement, never stop going.
Run, run so fast away from here,
And you know what stops me?
No, it isn't you, it isn't your threats,
It's Ace. Ace makes me turn back around,
With those guilt trips and manipulation,
All the things Ace does to my mind,
Just to make me feel bad for my wishes.
Ego tells me I have a right to feel this way,
There's some reason out there I feel like this.
It's not my fault, it can't be my fault.
And Id tells me to go for it, run, run so fast.
There's a way for me to escape this prison.
But Ace is such a big part of my life,
Somehow bigger than Ego or Id could ever be.
And I listen to Ace, even though it makes Id simmer.
Oh, how I'd love to just run out of here,
But ego can't figure out... where will I go?
Ace says it's wrong to leave,
Ego says there's nowhere to go,
And Id says it doesn't matter at all.
Just go, just run, get out of here,
Give me that satisfaction.
And deep down, I think Id's right.
We all reach that level of self,
Where we become selfish and have need
Of that immediate gratification.
I need it right now, I need to run.
...but where will I go?
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09. Taisetsu [Important]
The things written in that letter
Fade into the back of my mind
And I slowly forget what you said
Taisetsu desu ka.
I was staring out that window
Of old and long ago things,
But the winter was growing colder
Watashi no te de I push it closed
So you see, I really am
Getting closer to what I said
I'd be someday
Anata wa shiawase desu ka.
Or is this not good enough?
I know I promised you but
Then I realized this is mine,
We can still crawl steadily up,
Kirei na aozora no chokujou de.
Together.
Nothing ever said you had to
Stay here with me,
Anata no te de close the window.
Our old dreams, taisetsu desu ka.
I have the feeling of sadness,
Anata wa kanashii desu ka.
I know it's hard to let things go,
But someday we'll find our love.
All those things we promised,
All the places we'll never see again.
I know I won't ever forget them.
That doesn't mean I'll be caught
Forever in this cycle.
I'm getting closer to
Who I want to become someday.
Watashi no te de I'll keep climbing
Someday I'll reach my goal.
Hitori.
Taisetsu desu.
Translations:
Taisetsu desu ka. = Is it important?
Watashi no te de = With my hands
Anata wa shiawase desu ka. = Are you happy?
Kirei na aozora no chokujou de. = Above the beautiful blue sky.
Anata no te de = With your hands
Anata wa kanashii desu ka. = Are you sad?
Hitori. = Alone
Taisetsu desu. = It's important.
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10. break the RULES
I found out all about life today.
Yeah, I know the meaning of life.
Something says I should tell you.
Oh, but why would I do that?
Walk straight, stand tall,
Don't slur, don't mumble,
Be presentable, be respectable.
Smile all the time,
Or is something wrong with you?
NO NO BABY
Hey, look over here.
I'm trying to show you
Just what you can do
HEY HEY BABY
No, don't listen to them
They don't know what
They're talking about
So sorry life's going crazy
Did you miss the memo we sent out?
It doesn't matter anyways,
I mean, it's just life, right?
Someone once told me I wasn't
Taking this seriously enough.
I just told them they were
Taking this way too seriously.
BREAK THEM BABY
Hey, it's not that important
Don't go down with them
It's every man for himself
JUST GO CRAZY
BREAK the rules sometimes
It'll make you feel better
Don't call it peer pressure
THEY'RE ONLY RULES
I see, society getting to you?
They're afraid of the unknown.
Hey, don't tell me you're scared
BREAK THEM BABY
I know what you're looking for
"Is there something wrong with you?"
Don't be scared to break away
NO NO BABY,
Don't walk straight or stand tall,
Give me a reason to think you're human
Hey, you're not scared, are you?
THEY'RE ONLY RULES
BREAK THEM BABY
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11. One Time
So much hurting going on,
We're wrecking, pulling,
Parting, fooling ourselves
So much of this is self-inflicted
And the angels were silent
Until you said those words
One time, one time
It was a one time kind of deal
There was one time, one time
You'll never see this side of me again
So much time consumption,
So much pre-conception...
Pulling, coolin' this time down for us,
We're tryin to bring it down when it's goin up
And maybe we should let it go
So much pain is self-inflicted.
The angels were waiting for you
To say the right thing, for once
One time, one time
It was a one time kind of thing
It happened one time, just one time
And you won't see this side of me again
Some time, some time
I wasted some time all on you
But no more time, no more
I won't waste more time on you
Don't you know I haven't got time?
Who knows if I'll wake up tomarrow?
Do I wanna waste my time holding on?
Too much, too much pre-conception...
One time, one time
I was just like you one time
That was one time, one time
You'll never see that side of me
One time, one time
It was a one time kind of deal
That was one time, one time
You won't see this side of me again
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12. h&h
Welcome to my dark side,
Come along and have a seat.
Why don't you enjoy the show?
Yeah, baby if you love me,
You'll do this one request
Otherwise, I'll be sure
Your hate for me runs deep.
Hah! Come along, prince
I'll show you the true meaning of love
Where did you go just now?
I never said you could do that!
I guess this is how love is
If that's what everyone calls it
Hey baby, are you ready for this?
"If you really love me..."
I could be your death, so watch out
Maybe I don't really love you?
Maybe you're made for sin, I just can't tell
The begining was slow and so I got bored
I decided to change thingd over in the middle
So I never paid attention to the ending.
Hah! Come along, highness
I'll show you how to get someone's attention
I can make or break you,
Go ahead and test me
If you don't believe...
I can make you feel
But baby, don't expect me to fall in love
I never said I'd become your slave,
So don't cross the line you're walking
Or I'll have to show you the other side
Welcome to the dark side,
Come in, come in; Bring your sin
I'll show you something to remember
Yeah, if you really love me... pay attention.
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13. Corners
Saw him on a corner street, goin on 17
He always loved being seen
Goin with the local queen
He was so serene,
Nothin ever got behind that screen
He was goin on 17,
And his jacket was tangerine
How can you ignore
What's starin you in the face?
Turn the corner into the place,
It's full of gore.
Cuttin' that sore away,
He was determined to get away
He was sad but he wouldn't say
'Cause boys don't act that way
He was just fallin' more astray,
Nothing ever stopped the fray
He was goin on 17,
And all he felt was dismay
How can you not see,
What's hanging there in front of you?
Turn a corner and say you're through?
How can you, honestly?
Here he was the honoree
And no one cared beyond that screen,
Goin on 17, what else is there to see?
Hittin corners at dead runs,
'Cause he's the only one
That cares, that cares, that cares...
Saw him on a corner street,
Just barely 17
Always wanted to be a king...
Just kept falling down, and down...
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14. Intoxication
"You know what?
You give me shivers.
The slightest act,
Just the smallest thing...
Wonderful.
The thought of being alone with you...
It just makes me try harder.
I probably shouldn't.
It's you. You're... intoxicating.
Drawing a moth to a flame,
To sound a bit clichéd.
You give me shivers.
Just the smallest thing...
I'm just... intoxicated."
Me? What am I?
I am a whore.
I need these things
To keep me alive.
Wonderful.
Ahh, the thought of you.
I know I can drive you crazy.
I don't try, but at the same time...
Maybe I do?
You're just hoping for something more,
Even though you know I'll never put out.
I've never lied to you about that,
But maybe I've been contradicting myself?
Ahh, you see I live for this,
To know I can make you shiver.
Seduction, ever so slow, slow
Crawling across this distance
I reach into your soul
But you could never reach mine
Me? Who am I?
I am unimportant.
You need this of me.
To keep alive.
Yes, wonderful.
"It's you. You're... intoxicating."
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15. Dust
Looking back
The footprints are clear
In the dust on the floor
The more angry we were
The more clearly they show
"Then change! Then fix it!"
As if magic really does exist.
If it were simple,
We'd make it a household chore
And come through with a mop daily.
The things that have settled here
Leave their mark on the floor
All the little things join together
So they may be seen at last.
It was my mistake
Looking back
The footprints leave a reminder
In the dust on the floor.
The more angry we are
The more clearly we show.
Oh, change! Oh, fix it!
I've always wanted to believe in love...
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16. Cataclysm
What if the world were cataclysmal?
Bending and re-arranging to suit
The tremors of seismic activity
That run through it before....
Before the earthquake tears through
Ah, but it's so cataclysmic.
It's nothing like the expected
The world was torn apart and then...
Oh, then it was reborn again.
The most beautiful thing happened
Watch close,
No one else can do this.
It's the most amazing thing,
The most exuberant feeling.
No one else can do it like this.
What if that world were cataclysmal?
Bending and shaping to these tremors,
These bouts of euphoria inside,
Running through, taking over thought
Before the finale is brought in.
Ah, but it's just the end.
It's whatever was expected
Only more, more, and then...
Oh, and then, then... Oh, God.
No one else can do it like this.
This world is...
No one else can do this.
It was... it was... oh, God.
That exuberant feeling.
No one else could do it like this.
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