Into The Daylight
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01. What You Said
02. Things I'll Never Say
03. Into the daylight
04. Secret Words
05. COLORS
06. Wanting
07. (#) Count Puzzle
08. Ever Green
09. With my hands...
10. Something Else
11. All Alone
12. Thoughtless
13. You're in love...
14. The Meaning of Time
15. surreptitious
16. I.C.T.
17. To Falter
01. What You Said
The beginning of my heart
That you said didn't exist
Began to fall away that day
When you refused to speak
With all the time we've been close,
I was hoping we could understand eachother
But it only seems as if you get better
At hurting the me you don't seem to see
Once you told me "I love you,"
And once I believed you meant it
But what once brought comfort
Only makes me feel worse now
You say you didn't mean to do this,
But you haven't told me yet what it is
You had meant to do instead. Will you tell me?
Or do you tell me anything anymore?
I used to feel hurt
Because of what you said
And now I feel hurt
Because of what you don't say
What you said is hurting me.
The fact that since that day,
I haven't seen you again,
Is killing me instead.
You wouldn't say it, but you?
You're gone, going, gone...
I'll never see you again, will I?
No, that isn't what you said
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02. Things I'll Never Say
You expect me to go nowhere
And you expect me to fall down
Over and over and then you think
I will stop getting back up
So I'm a little childish inside,
And I try to pass it off differently
I really want to be loved by everyone
I want to please the world
I know it means more to me
Than it could ever mean to anyone else
But I'd love to find someone
Who feels the way I feel
I just want to know someone cares,
And though I might not believe you,
I still want you to say I'm beautiful
Because it makes me feel good
I know you don't expect me
To really make it anywhere but
I'd love it if someone believed in me
I just want the world to love me
I know I can be immature in the end,
I dream of the impossible happening,
And you think I'm stupid for wanting it
But one time, you wanted it all, too
Do you ever feel like everything's wrong,
That everything was supposed to turn out different?
Or that maybe you're living your life backwards?
I know that doesn't mean anything to you
But if you please would tell me
That you think I'm beautiful
It'll mean everything to me
Even if we both know it's not true
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03. Into the daylight
I thought the end had come
And forgotten to take me along
I thought that I knew now
But I'm finding that I'm still here
Just because I haven't left
You think you still have a chance
To hurt me more
Gently, gently lay the petals on the ground
Our love was never like a rose, for you see
A rose could never bloom in the cold of winter
We were brief, we weren't real, just like you
Slowly now, in the moonlight
Let the darkness enclose you
You should learn to feel
What you've made me feel
I see you, I hear you
But I'm not coming back again
I've learned this time
How to let go of the past
I see you, I hear you
And I won't pretend I don't care
But I've learned the truth now
You don't mean what you say
You were beautiful for awhile,
But now, seeing your image is painful
I thought that you would know now
But I'm finding you still haven't learned
Just because I came back before
You think you still have a chance
To keep me with you
The swaying, swaying flowers on the other side
Show me how there can be beauty over there
Flowers could never truly bloom on this side
They are brief, they aren't real, just like you
In the cold moonlight
I see you, I hear you
But I'm not coming back this time
I've learned how to move on
You should learn to feel
I see you, I hear you
I won't pretend I don't care
But I've learned that you don't
The end of the world isn't coming soon,
You showed me how there can be beauty outside
And that flowers, they can't bloom in winter
Unless they're brief, and fake, just like you
I see you, I hear you
But I won't be back again
I've learned to move on,
And to let the past be
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04. Secret Words
I started out with a sad secret
And I thought I was gonna be sad
Or maybe I would get mad tonight
Until I saw you carrying hope
You had a sad secret with you, too
But you turned it into a better day
You came up to me and shared your smile
And I couldn't stop smiling and laughing
You whispered the secret words to me,
And I understood what you meant to say
I couldn't stop the feeling spreading
I was happy, if only for a short while
I hold a sad secret in my heart,
And I feel sad and angry sometimes,
But you're carrying my hope around
Lending me a smile when I need one
Thank you for your secret touch.
I thought I was going to be sad,
But you showed me something else
You were happy, and I was happy
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05. COLORS
The mirror sitting before me is watching as
The colors filter through the beginning
Of this life to find something new
Where have all the variations I used to see gone to?
It's falling through my fingers, I can't find what I am missing.
And I am found no more
The connections in the making
Are no longer being made for you and
Your colorful existance has left my world in black&white
The color of the sky, can you tell me what it is?
I can't remember. The canvas in front of me is blank
Because I can't paint and all my colors are shades of gray
And fading into white all from your control.
Now there's only you&me,
And everyone knows you're better than me
The color I chose is gone in my mind
And I no longer know what I had
The chessboard we are playing on is
Black&white like all the old movies
Colorless worlds in the making,
Because that color was discontinued.
How many colorful worlds have you seen?
How many have you taken away?
Orange and green, oh, tell me, please, do you remember what color my eyes are?
I think I was wearing that orange shirt when you said you didn't care.
And now I'm waving that red flag,
Like a bullfighter in the ring for your entertainment.
But I'm colorblind; I can't tell which flag I wave to surrender.
One more last stab in the dark,
I'm losing this game that tells us who is better than everyone.
I was never really good enough to learn to paint this canvas anyways
So keep the colors you stole away from me
And all that comes with them
Now there's only you&me,
You have my colors and everyone knows
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06. Wanting
I figured you would come,
But I knew you wouldn't have a way.
And while the thought does count,
I'm still feeling alone without you.
Do I have the right?
Is it really alright?
I'd call you but your number's changed.
I know you'd call but you don't have a way.
All the thought in the world
Couldn't help me tonight (without you).
I, I wanna say that I love you
But I know that you'd doubt me
If only to protect yourself
I, I wanna say that I love you
But I don't know if I can 'cause
I want to protect myself.
Yes, I know
I don't have a right.
Yes, I know...
I don't have a right.
But I do, I wanna love you.
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07. (#) Count Puzzle
I'm running out of words to say
And things to do
I'm staring at that picture of me
Taken back then
I'm trying to see where I stand now
I'm wanting to reach for that me
That person I dreamt up so long ago
But I feel like I'm too far to grasp
At one point I began to wonder
So now I'm sitting here alone
And I feel as if this is how I've always been
Right now I'm begging of you
Please see me for who I am
I feel as if the impressions I give
Are odd and misconstrued
Like my fingerprints on a window
Show a part of me I don't realize is there
These prints you discover
Show the part of me I can't shake
They're the pieces I'm trying to connect
To the point where I really begin
At one point I thought you understood
Staring at that picture of me
I realize you've lost sight again
Of what you never really knew was me
You're running out of words to use
And I've lost count of things to do
To wipe my handprints from the pane
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08. Ever Green
The sky is spitting down on me,
Musta done something to make it unhappy.
In the chaos that ensued the onslaught,
We went on like nothing had gone on
To cause our sin to pour back down on us
We're dying like the evergreens
That've seen too many Christmas scenes
Where everyone just walks on by,
Saying "Oh, it's just seen too many things,"
Like nothings going wrong with us.
The sky is spitting down on us
I think it's trying to show we're unhappy.
In the chaos that we feel,
No one really thinks it's real.
"How could we sin when we're exempt from them?"
We're crying though we can't let on
'Cause we've seen too many childhood dreams
Where everyone just walks on by,
Saying "Oh, someone else will help with things,"
Like we can't be bothered to help ourselves.
The sky is spitting down on me.
Musta done something to make it unhappy.
We're dying like the evergreens
That've been left up past New Year's eve.
There's chaos that's ensuing,
Can you tell me what we're doing?
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09. With my hands...
Why is that true?
Am I trapped here until someone decides it's time?
And is this all there really is to do?
Driven to insanity
Everyone just says
"I don't understand
How people can do such things"
And I slip a little further
From where they've chosen to stand
Because they honestly don't understand
With my hands I built this trap,
With cold calculation they're prying my fingers
From the edges that I grip onto for my life
While they're looking the other way saying
"I just don't understand."
"I just don't understand."
Why is this true?
Am I trapped here until someone decides it's okay?
And is this all you can really do for me?
Driving to calamity
Everyone just stares
I don't understand
How people can do such things
While I slip and fall further
From the place I'm trying to fit in
Do they honestly not understand?
With every breath I beg for an end,
Be my last test and let me find something new
The bottom can't be too far down from the edge
Or is there something waiting for me? Saying
"There's nothing we can do."
"There's nothing we can do."
How is that true?
Am I lost in here until someone replaces the light?
And is this all you can really say?
With my hands I pulled myself up,
With my hands I'm holding onto this edge of life,
So I started alone, does that mean you can't help?
You're just looking the other way saying
"It's not my fault anyways."
"It's not my fault anyways."
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10. Something Else
So you wanna be something else,
Like the stars in the sky.
You think you're something else,
Better than the sun in the sky.
You said I couldn't make it.
That's 'cause you don't know me.
[I don't want to be the first
I don't want to be the best
I just want to be good.
I don't want any demands,
I don't want things my way.
I just want someone to listen.]
So you're not happy with things.
You want to shine like the stars.
You're not liking these things,
Things that prove better than you.
You said I'm not good enough.
That's 'cause I'm not like you.
I don't want to be like them,
I don't want to be like you.
I just want to be like me.
I don't want to know your thoughts,
I don't want to have your smile.
I just want to do my thing
Let things go by,
Your mistakes become more noticable in light
Let bad things die,
If you're not good enough...
If you couldn't make it...
...Are you not good enough?
So you think you're something else,
You want to shine // Like the stars.
So you wanna be something else,
Like the sun // in the sky.
You just want to be the first,
You just want to be the best.
You don't want to be "good."
You just want all your demands,
You just want things to be your way.
You don't care who's listening.
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11. All Alone
In the colored meadow
You said to the angels
"I want her"
In the mirrored hallway
You said to yourself
"I want this"
In the interview room
You said to everyone
"I don't want her"
Can you tell me who you're living for?
Can you tell me what I'm living up to?
Is there something I should know?
When were you going to tell me?
It was a long time ago
That I expected more from you
I guess I've come to see
That I'm not good enough for you
I'm still hold on, I know
To things I should have gone and let go
In the darkest of night's hours
You said to me
"I want to be with you"
But in the light of day's hours
You said to them
"It's really nothing with her"
And I knew, you would, I knew
Why did I try to believe [in] you?
When I knew not to trust you?
I know you have expectations to live up to.
But I was hoping for a miracle...
I'm still holding on, I know
To things that are gone, oh no...
In the mirrored hallway
You said to the angels
"I want her"
But in the colored meadow
You said to yourself
"I don't need her"
I know, you would, I know
'Cause I'm not good enough for you
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12. Thoughtless
Tempted by the thought of Birthday cake
I said I'd come to see you sometime today
Is today still here or has it gone?
Tomarrow I promise I'll see you again,
If tomarrow ever decides to come by.
Today's almost gone away again,
But tomarrow, tomarrow, I'll see you
Hightened by the thought of who you used to be
I said I'd try to come see you soon.
Is it soon enough or am I too late?
Yesterday I promised I'd see you again
If tomarrow ever gives me a chance.
Today's almost gone away again,
But sometimes, sometimes I'll find you
I think you expect too much from me
What is there that I can give you?
Besides a promise of reasurrance
There's nothing I can give you tomarrow
Tomarrow I promis I'll be different
If tomarrow ever decides to come by.
Today's going away again,
And tomarrow, tomarrow, I'm different
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13. You're in love...
Broken words have seared my senses,
Crueller thoughts have dulled my mind
I can't find the time to care
When it ends, would you call me?
Wake me up
So you think you're in love,
So you think you're in love,
With a man like that you've got to run
Don't waste your breath on hanging to him
So you're really in love,
So you're really in love,
He can't do much for you now,
Don't save your heart for someone like him
The broken words cutting down your senses,
Yet nicer than the thoughts dulling your mind
You can't find the time to understand
And when it ends will you wake up?
Wake on up
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14. The Meaning of Time
Always somewhere to go
You've learned to walk fast.
Don't think of what you've
Missed on the way out
You've conformed to the
American way of life.
Take a moment, won't you?
And watch the clouds go by
Why don't you...
Watch me, I'll show you
Watch what I can do for you
I can show you the meaning of time
You're too busy for me
And I know you've got somewhere to be
But wouldn't you love to breathe?
Wouldn't you love to love me?
Why don't you take a moment out?
Watch me, I need some time to show you.
Watch what you can do for me.
We can learn the meaning of time.
Why don't you...?
This isn't how we were meant to be.
Would you love to know the meaning of life?
What are you living for?
I was going to tell you something
But I forgot, there's more important things to do
If there was a moment in here left over,
I lost it, or maybe I just left it behind
You can make me lose my mind
And I don't want you to know
I don't remember where I was supposed to go
Because I was thinking of you
Someone told me our thoughts
Control our world surrounding us
If that's true, you're controlling me
I am in your hands now.
Do you even know?
So there was something you were going to tell me
But you forgot, there's more important things for you
If there was a moment we forgot to take here,
It's lost now, or we left it behind.
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15. surreptitious
To spend the rest of the night
Alone in the quite without a rush
Too many things to do,
There's too many places to be
From the first moment she wakes,
She rushes to where she needs to be
It's hard to schedual in sleep
And there's always more important things
She works and she works hard,
Yet no one appreciates what she does
What she's done for this place
Is taken for granted day after day
And she holds her own well
No one needs to notice
That she's falling apart
Because she's keeping them
Together
All she wants is the rest of the night
Alone in the quite, no where to be
But they need her there,
They don't care, but they need her
From the first moment I saw her,
She was taking great pains just to be
There and unseen, there but alone
There's always more important people
She smiles and she tries hard,
She'll be something good some day
What she can do for this place,
It's all taken for granted today
She keeps herself well
No one needs to notice
That she's falling apart
Because she keeps them
Together
All she wants is for this to be the last,
So she can go home and be alone
No where to go, no where to be
Nothing to do, who needs to see?
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16. I.C.T.
Ice Cold Thoughts
Every painstaking moment
Spent in the depths of this water
So cold and alone, without the sun
Where do I go from here?
The heater's broken again
And I can't get clean
In this cold water I am left
Shivering without purpose
Where do you want me from here?
I can only find so many reasons
And after they're gone I am as well
I no longer know what I am living for
Our thoughts control our being
If I want to smile I will smile,
And the only thing stopping me...
I want to blame you but I can't
I found my way into this place
And I let myself in willingly
You were only there with expectations
And you couldn't meet demand
Maybe you were at fault, too
I can find the blame for you
But I can admit that I was wrong
For ever trusting myself with you
Yet...
You were my last drop of warm water.
The water's getting colder, it's aging faster,
I'm left alone with nowhere else to go.
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17. To Falter
Empty places are what is left behind always
We bring it all but what we really need
This time I wonder if I made a big mistake
The circle we're following is incomplete,
But Gestalt makes it hard for us to see
Why do we want to walk the same path, anyway?
I've tried to go on without you
All I'm finding is your face
Behind every corner I leave you,
Around every corner you're waiting
Something tells me I should keep on,
But I keep turning around to your smile
I'm finding it hard to remember the pain
The manual they gave me is incomplete,
It makes it hard to follow through
Why do we want to do this together, anyway?
I've tried to go on alone,
Here, all I can find is your smile
Behind every corner I've left it,
Around every corner you give it back
Where I'm going is anybody's guess,
Distant places are my only hope
I don't want to be all alone but
I'm not wanting to admit I want you
I'm trying to go on without you
All I can find is your memory
Behind every thought is that smile,
Around every corner you are waiting
Just for me.
I won't tell you what it means to me,
But you won't stay for much longer, I know.
I can't decide if I want to let you go.
Maybe it's not my choice, anyway
Just for me...
I've tried to keep going alone
Here, I can't find anything but you
Behind me, beside me is your smile
Around me, surround me with your love
To believe you or to know it's a lie,
I don't know what I'm thinking right now
You're asking too much of me, I can't give
I've tried, but my world is still asleep
I need a way to breathe.
Did we make a mistake?
Because I tried so hard.
Just for me... do you mean it?
I hesitate at the edge of what I fear,
But I don't know if you know why
Do I step back in or do I back away?
Will you save me if I start to drown?
What I really need is a straight line,
Lead me somewhere I can feel right,
Tell me, am I making a big mistake?
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