Halls
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00. Halls I
01. RAINBOW
02. Believe
03. amends
04. One of These Days
05. Halls II
06. Rush
07. Silence
08. Subtle
09. Confidence
10. Yume (Dream)
11. Halls III
12. fallacy
13. feign
14. ambition
15. Free
16. Ourselves
17. Traitor
18. Halls IV
19. Simple Hope
20. Undesired
21. Halls V
22. Wasurenai Kara... (Because I can't forget...)
23. Halls
24. Angel
00. Halls I
Silence
Playing so loud through the empty hall
Echoing, again, again, more silence
It will never really end
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01. RAINBOW
My feelings are lost to me
They float so far away
Run with the rainbows...
Dance with the rain
One minute I'm so sure
That I'm in love
One minute I'm so sure
I want to do this
And suddenly
I look around me
What am I doing?
Am I insane?
You are warning me now
I am ignoring you now
Till I see this other world
Where am I going?
Does this work?
Am I lost?
Can I leave now
or should I stay?
Do I want this?
Is this right for me?
My feelings ran away
They left me for the rainbows
and the clouds
So out of reach, I can't reach
What am I missing?
What am I feeling?
Is this right
Or is that right
Am I real
or are you real
Where do I run to
When the one I run to
Is the one I'm running from
Where do I turn to
When the one I turn to
Is the one I'm turning away from
What am I running from?
Let loose
Let me let loose
Teach me now
How to jump inside your world
I don't know where I'm going
Is that half the fun?
Let me let loose now
I need out of my restraints
Let's break down the walls
Shatter the glass
Walk across the shards of life
When I reach the other side
Will you still be by my side?
Am I right?
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02. Believe
Everything you believe in
Fake or real?
Everything you say is wrong
Wrong or right?
We make a choice
Do we believe or do we not?
But to believe is to think
And what we think isn't always right
If I said you were wrong
You would hate me
But am I right or am I wrong?
Someone who was wise once told me
"Believe"
I believe in you
But who do you believe in?
This world is a strange place
Sometimes it's hard to think
But does that mean we can't believe?
Never forget the word "Believe"
Never forget how to believe
Sometimes, this world closing in on us
We forget to believe in ourselves
If we can't believe in us,
What's there left to do but learn again
Who do you believe in?
If even one person believes in you
Then you can still hold your head high
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03. amends
One crack in a pane of glass can lead to another
Everything starts out small, but slowly grows bigger
If I could show you the world inside my head
Would you still love me like you say you do?
I fight with strong words but my hands are weak
No matter how I long to make them strong
I can be right just like I can be wrong
No matter what I fight for, I fight for a reason
If you could change one thing about me,
What would it be and why would you change it?
I fight with both strong and weak reasonings
No matter what, I long to be right in the end
Everyone is wrong sometimes
No matter how right we think we are
If I shattered your glass wall
Would I be pushed away more or not?
I fight with strong words but my hands are weak
No matter how I long to make them strong
They'll always be weak
I fight with both strong and weak reasoning
No matter what, I will always have a reason
To be saying this
I want to make things right for you and me...
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04. One of These Days
One of these days I'll make you realize
Nothing lasts forever and this pain
Is no exception
One of these days I'll make you realize
I would die for you and this love
Is no exception
I love you...
I know there's nothing I can say
You know me, I've tried to say it anyway
I know I can't save you this way
You know me, I tried to anyway
Why are you so hard to save?
Why won't you listen to me?
Sometimes you can drive me crazy
You know me, it doesn't really matter
Sometimes I wish that I could be there
You know me, I just want to show you
I'm not about to leave you alone
I'm not the only one who thinks
You're a little crazy
But you're worth every minute
Of time I spend with you
You're a little down sometimes
But you're worth every minute
Of time I spend with you
I just want to make you happy
For every tear I listen to
The smiles make them up
One by one
One of these days I'll make you realize
Nothing lasts forever and this pain
Is no exception
One of these days I'll make you realize
I would die for your happiness and there
Is no exception
One day I noticed I love you
You know me, I wouldn't say it
One day I knew you couldn't love me
But you know me, that's not about to stop me
Why don't you believe me?
Why are you so hard to believe?
Everyone knows...
You're a little crazy
But sometimes it's just what I need
You're worth every tear
You're a little lonely
I know I'm the one who can't fix it
But I still try to be worth
Everything you're worth to me
One of these days...
I love you...
One of these days I'll make you realize
Nothing lasts forever and this pain
Is no exception
One of these days I'll make you realize
I would die for you and this time
Is no exception
One of these days I'll make you realize
I would die for your happiness and there
Is no exception
One of these days maybe you'll realize
How much I love you and this love
Won't die away
One of these days maybe I'll realize
Nothing lasts forever and this pain
Is no exception
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05. Halls II
Space
Ending quickly in the big, empty hall
Chaos, filling, filling, closing in
It will, sometime, have to end
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06. Rush
Eggs filled with candy
Hershey's kisses tempting
Little kids running, on the go
It's so pretty outside
All I wanna do is cry...
Rush of the tears behind
My wide open eyes
Don't blink, you'll lose
Don't cry, be strong
Rush of the love behind
My weakened wall
Don't lose, you're strong
Don't give, go on
Lies folding down
Covering up their truth
Open up the letter, on the go
I don't have time to read
All I wanna do is try...
Rush of the wind around
My streached out body
Don't run, you'll lose
Just cry, be strong
I want to see you through
This sheild of glass
Don't be too strong
Give in to love
All I want is a rush...
I don't want a weak heart that can't cry
Don't tell me I'm too late
I don't want the strength not to cry
How am I too late?
Rush of the tears behind
My wide open eyes
Don't blink, you'll lose
Don't cry, be strong
Rush of the wind around
My streached out body
Don't run, you'll lose
Just cry, be strong
I want to see you through
This sheild of glass
Don't be too strong
Give in to love
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07. Silence
My words are silent as I study them in my mind more
Somehow I just can't express these feelings
While I hide my vulnerable heart again
Tell me do you believe my fake smile?
These feelings running through my veins
I don't know what to say, how to say
If I had never met you
I'd never have to feel these things anyway
Though I know it well and feel it hard
There's still no way to say
I can't let it go, can't get away
And it still remains
This silence here is killing me
These feelings never go away
And still there's no way to say
What is killing me
With time slowly here covering up the wounds
There's never enough room for them to heal
Trembling in this smile, I've come to realize
Going backwards is only more painful
These feelings running through me now
I don't know how to say, what to say
If I could tell you what I meant
Somehow, I'd be here anyway
Though you think I'm strong and tell me so
There's still no way to say
I can't break through, can't grasp the words
To say what's here
I was never strong, not like you think
I only learned to pretend
And still there's no way to say
What is killing us
Though I know it well and feel it hard
There's still no way to say
I can't let it go, can't get away
And it still remains
This silence here is killing me
These feelings never go away
And still there's no way to say
This is killing me...
Though you think I'm strong and tell me so
There's still no way to say
I can't break through, can't grasp the words
To say what's here
I was never strong, not like you think
I only learned to pretend
And still there's no way to say
What is killing us
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08. Subtle
It took me awhile to figure out
That if I spend all my time worrying about later
Then I'm missing out on all the now
So now I realize that if I worry less
And don't watch what I say so much
That I can live happier
Even if I say something I shouldn't
I'll only be like everyone else
I spend so much time phrasing my words
So they can be reffered back to later
That I don't realize everything
I don't need to say
If I forgot one word, would anyone notice?
Do they even realize what I'm doing?
Even if I think differently later
I've still expressed the me
That existed once
You always told me to be careful what I say
But I say don't be so careful of the world
It's not as fragile as you think
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09. Confidence
You draw me in and hold me close
Like I've never allowed before
How is it that you've gotten to me
Like no one else has done before?
I'm enamored by your charm
That you say you don't have
How could anyone think bad of you
Like you think they do?
Somehow I'm unduly fearful
That somehow, you don't feel for me
Or that maybe you feel for her
Is this what comes with devotion?
Somehow I'm still fearful
despite your assurance, I'm not
what you think of as 'the one'
Is this what comes with need?
Strong ambitions are both good and bad
What is your cherished desire?
We all would like to be the single
one of its kind, but how can we?
Of all the words you know,
what makes you choose the ones
you say? What makes you love me?
Our desire, it is the same
Everyone is afraid of being hurt
Instead of finding my courage
I closed my eyes and turned away
So as not to be hurt more
I thought that maybe I could save myself
some pain if I kept everyone out
Closing my eyes while turning away
I still have a pain to hide
You're everything to me
And I don't understand how
I thought I had kept myself away
You're everything I need
Don't ever doubt
Everything you are to me
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10. Yume (Dream)
Though this feels like a dream
and seems almost too perfect to be real
It isn't quite real enough for me
And that's just it
Though all my problems could be
gone with the simple presence of you
You're still far away from me
and the moon still neglects the sky
This beautiful dream we hold dear
It means everything to us
so tell me we'll never lose it
We can't, can we? If this is all we want
If this is a dream you can never have
I would glady erase all your memories of this
If only my last resort... I want to erase your pain
Though this feels like a dream,
there's a truth hidden deep inside it
It isn't quite real, though we long
and that's just it
All our longings in the world
gone with the simple presence of eachother
You're still far away from me
and the moon still neglects the sky
Continuously
The moon neglects the sky...
Like the world neglects our needs,
and our needs slowly become our dreams
I want you to hold me forever
Please don't let me go
Please don't tell me you can't...
If this is the only way for us to become strong
Then I'd like to stay weak... Can I, please?
I don't want to become strong this way
I know this is supposed to make us strong
But what if I don't want to become strong?
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11. Halls 11
White
Painting the lovely, beautiful hall
Color, leaving, leaving, going away
Will it ever really end?
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12. fallacy
With your arms firmly wrapped around your dispare
You won't let go soon
Firmly locked in an embrace with this shame
You hold on tightly to your pain
So in love are you with this world of yours
That you don't want to let go
Hold more, hold tighter
There's a painful emotion that comes
from the awareness of failure
Why do you let your shame overcome you?
Forgive me if I sound like I don't believe you
Maybe it's because I don't?
But what reasons do I have to believe
these lies comming out of your mouth?
You don't seem to understand what this is
You try to place the blame but
This is no one's fault
As your pain wears on, you hold on tighter
You think there's no escape from
What you won't let go of
Forgive me if I don't want to believe you
Maybe it's because of you?
There's a simple way out of this but you
are the one who won't let go now
Firmly locked in an embrace with this shame
You hold on tightly to your pain
So who's fault is it now?
Over and over again you say
"I don't want your pity" but yet
You cower for more
You say it so loud, "I don't want pity"
But your goal is to shower the world with it
So who's the hypocrite now?
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13. feign
Pour your sins out on the side of the road
As you are walking
Leave it all behind
Your delusion is slowly making me go out of my mind
I don't know what to say to make you come back
To this world I call life
You seem to feel as if you have no choice
Except to let this all go,
but you always have a choice
This choice you won't choose
I'm tired of this always being in my hands now
It seems as if I'm the one who always takes
This responsibility for you
Pour your sins out on the side of the road
As you are walking
You'll leave it all behind
These things we do that we know are wrong
It's like a way to bond
This is our secret we share
Tell me, how many secrets do we need
in order to call us close? In the end,
I've learned to dislike these secrets
These things that we do...
I'm tired of this always being in my hands now
It seems as if I'm the one who always takes
This responsibility for you, take your own
Pour your sins out on the side of the road
As you are walking
You'll leave it all behind
I'm sorry for all the times I lied to you,
I lied to me too,
Every time I told myself I love you
It's never been about me needing you, but how you needed me
The words you needed to hear, the things you needed me to feel
I never wanted anything from you, I only wanted to protect you
There's a happiness that comes with the cold
And there's a passion I hold
For holding you dear, but
I'm tired of this always being in my hands now
It seems as if I'm the one who always takes
This responsibility for you, Take your own
Pour your sins out on the side of the road
But don't stop walking
Would you leave it all behind?
Pour your sins out on the side of the road
Keep walking, leave it all behind
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14. ambition
I said I wanted to follow the stars to forever
I said that I could find whatever I wanted there
You said I would follow the stars to nowhere
You said I could find nothing wherever I went
I don't understand exactly what I've done
Or when I was supposed to be the perfect dream
That you dreamt up one night long ago
All alone in a delusioned world
There's something hidden in your far off voice
Something that says you don't really believe in me
It's almost cold, it's almost old
I almost lost it once again
How can I stay here where I will never be
the one you want me to be?
I almost thought you were right
Well when they say eternity is a long time to wait
It doesn't mean it's such a far time away from now
All I know is I didn't even ask for you to give me this
You just assumed I did and said I couldn't have it
I don't understand exactly why I'm not allowed
What I planned to get on my own
Something isn't right in this old world
Maybe we're turning the wrong way
That might explain how we're all mixed up
Thinking we're the only ones who can make it anywhere
It's crazy, I know, to believe in this
But who exactly asked you to believe?
This is mine and mine alone
It's something that gets me to try and understand
I never asked you to belive I am right
I don't understand exactly what I've ever done
To you, when was I supposed to be this perfect girl
That you dreamt up one night long ago
All alone in a delusioned world
There's something hidden in your far off voice
Something that says you don't really believe in me
It's almost cold, just a little more
I almost lost it once again
How can I stay here where I will never be
the one you want me to be?
I can't believe I ever thought you were right
Well when they say eternity is a long time to wait
It doesn't mean it's such a far time away from now
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15. Free
Sitting in my secret place
I'm all alone again and thinking
My mind has been taken over by you
I close my eyes and stare out
At the beautiful world before me
My heart aches to know you're sad
Tears I've almost cried and left behind
Still linger in my heart, endless
It hurts to know I'm not the reason you smile
It hurts to see you suffer so much, it hurts
more to know I can't make you happy again
I hate knowing you're sad
I bring up the words again just because
I want to hear you say them one more time
Why is it I can't believe you?
I'm still holding onto the same thing
That you won't let go of
Or is that just me holding on?
Tell me, why would you lie to me?
But then, that's the only reason I'm asking
Isn't it?
So maybe if I tell you now
You'll understand what I feel
You will never see me cry
And I'd like to say that I'm sorry
For everything I've ever made you feel
You had to do
I tried to tell you once
That you couldn't protect me
But then you tried anyways
I tried to understand once
how we held eachother back
and then I realized that
it doesn't matter anymore
We are free
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16. Ourselves
As I start to lose my hope
Would you hold me close again?
As we start to lose our guide
Would you hold me carefully?
I'm fragile tonight... please don't break me
The world that was once making progress
Slowly starts to fade away again
Though sometimes they seem too close
We have our moments of bliss
We're rough, we're gental, we're crazy with lust
We're soft, we're hard, we're protective of ourselves
We cry, we smile, we can't live without both
I'm yours forever, so please keep me close
I don't understand everything that's happened
I know you don't tell me things
And though it hurts when I realize, alone
We still have our moments of bliss
We're rough, we're gental, we're crazy with lust
We're soft, we're hard, we're protective of ourselves
We cry, we smile, we can't live without both
I'm yours forever, so please hold me dear
I'm fragile tonight, I'm crying inside
You never notice, how much you hurt me
I'm confused again, I'm hurting again
You never notice, how much I see in you
We're real, we're fake, we're hiding things every day
We're nice, we're mean, we're crule without intent
We're crazy, we're sane, we're playing some game
We never notice how much we hurt ourselves
Do you realize how close you were to losing me?
Please tell me the truth this time
No, I can't believe that, it isn't real
Please tell me the truth this time
We're real, we're fake
We're crule, we're crazy
We're rough, we're soft
We cry, we hurt
Ourselves
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17. Traitor
You all throw out your hurtful words
Meant to rip each other apart
And then you turn to me and ask me
To back you up
If everyone's turning to me
to confirm their cruel words
Who am I supposed to support?
You're tearing me apart
Your worlds of emotion slowly closing in on me
Suddenly I'm throw too many ways
These waves of emotion crashing into me
No, they're not directed at me,
but here I am and this explosion
has ripped the fragments of my heart
into peices
I don't always agree with what you say
I never agree with everything someone says
But don't tell me I'm not on your side
What's your side, anyways?
With so many people seeking my support
Who am I supposed to give it to?
Honestly, no one will accept me
If I try to share it with everyone
Your worlds of emotion slowly closing in on me
Suddenly I'm throw too many ways
These waves of emotion crashing into me
No, they never meant to hurt me,
but here I am and this explosion
has ripped the fragments of my heart
into peices
And too many confidences not to break
With too many hurtful words not to say
You tell me things I never asked to be told
When did I ask you to tell me what you think?
You ask me what I think
But would you believe me if I told you?
Would you listen to me?
I don't want to choose
but one way or another
I'll still be called
"Traitor"
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18. Halls IV
White
Covering the elegance, the hall
Settling, waiting, waiting, come closer
There's never any end
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19. Simple Hope
And every promise you've made to me
That you've forgotten
Will stay with me forever
I was told these lies so much
I try to memorize
Exactly what is said to me
And exactly who I can trust
Sometimes I'm given an alibi
Somehow that doesn't satisfy me
You promised me these things
Why won't you give me them?
I don't want your help
I'll save myself this time
Even though I'm choking on life
I'll somehow survive alone
Swallowing my pride
I beg of you
Don't break this
Things that should mean nothing
One by one become dramatic
And a sea of anger and frustration
Takes over my every minute
I wait with the simple hope
That you were wrong
And I'll see you tonight
I cry with the simple hope
To be comforted
And I can't see you tonight
The one worth your tears
Won't mean to make you cry
But they still might
I can't even say that's true
How I'm crying over you
I don't even know
I thought I was over this
Why am I alone again?
I'll give myself away
I don't know why I write
These things out for you
I wait with the simple hope
That I was wrong
And that you'll be here tonight
It's okay, really I'm fine
Just beacuse I can't see you
It's no reason to die
But I still want you here
I still want to see you
For some reason I can't
So I'll hide it from myself
I only wish you could be here forever
I only wish you would want to be here forever
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20. Undesired
If I scream loud enough
Can I stop this before it's too late?
I want to stop this before it's over
I never wanted this
This is the way I live
I know it doesn't seem right but
It's everything I know how to know
Maybe I should feel it more than I do
It seems almost like I repeat the same words
of assurance to you that you said to me
Who did they assure more?
Lashing out in a desperate attempt
to make this stop before it's too late
I know you want to stop this before it happens
I never asked for this
This is the way we live
No, it never did seem right but
Who has taught us to know anything more?
Maybe I should feel it as much as you do
It seems almost like you repeat the same words
of assurance to me that I said to you
Who do they assure more?
Lashing out in a desperate attempt
to make this stop before it's too late
I know you want to stop this before it's over
I never wanted this either
It seems almost like everyone assures eachother
in the same way, with the same words
But what are we assured of?
If I scream loud enough
Can I stop this before it's too late?
I want to stop this before it happens
I never asked for this
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21. Halls V
Silence closes over the space
As the burdens slowly take up more
White going on forever
Forever...
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22. Wasurenai Kara... (Because I can't forget...)
I don't know if I know what you're expecting
But I'm sure this isn't it
Because even I didn't expect this
I slowly place my heart in your hands
And then you smiled down at me
And when you thought I wasn't looking...
I've come to the conclusion that
You're insane and you're leaving
me behind for good
This dream isn't for me anyways
It's still here but I can't take anymore from you
Even now I don't understand anything
Even now I don't need you
Though you think you can hurt me whenever you want
You can't make me feel like you think you can
There's many things I've learned
When I feel and when I lose my thoughts of you
Take this smile away and rip it apart
Once more, don't even think you can spare me
From your hurt
Because I can't forget
Because I can't forget...
If the wind blows me away
and the moon follows behind slowly
Will you bring me back again?
I don't know you anymore
I don't know what you're thinking
I've come to the conclusion that
I don't know you anymore, not
even your thoughts
This dream isn't for us anymore
It still haunts us but we're lost forever more
Even now I don't understand you
I deny my feelings
And I deny ever needing you
I even deny this smile lingering on my lips
Because with the world on my shoulder
You can't save me anymore from anything
You told me once a lie, you even knew
It wasn't true, it'd hurt me one day
And I can't forget
Because I can't forget...
Take this in your hands and rip it all apart,
don't even think of leaving me whole
Because I can't forget
I slowly placed my heart in your hands
And then you smiled down at me
And when you thought I wasn't looking...
I can't forget
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23. Halls
Silence
Playing so loud through the empty hall
Echoing, again, again, more silence
It will never really end
Space
Ending quickly in the big, empty hall
Chaos, filling, filling, closing in
It will, sometime, have to end
White
Painting the lovely, beautiful hall
Color, leaving, leaving, going away
Will it ever really end?
White
Covering the elegance, the hall
Settling, waiting, waiting, come closer
There's never any end
Silence closes over the space
As the burdens slowly take up more
White going on forever
Forever...
The quiet, beautiful, elegant hall
Will never find its voice
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24. Angel
Something happens once again
The sky is dark and full of tears
Wind blowing cold against your heart
If this world could see its self
How many lives would be spared?
Don't cry, I'll be here
Angel of Beauty
Love is simply breaking down
Dreams of glass shattering against
The cold hearts of hatefulness
We're losing feeling
Many of us still cry out
Wishing for someone to listen
How many times will it take
For everyone to listen?
Shrug it off with a cold look
We all know you couldn't care less
But one day your heart will break
And who will be there?
Will you listen to our voices
Calling out, we know you hear us still
Tears form behind your eyes,
You still do not cry
No one will save this lonely world
Can't you tell what you're doing?
Do you see the tears you're causing?
What if we were all alone,
Nothing but an empty building
Can you survive on your own?
Angel of Heartache
Why do you turn far away?
Why do you deny your ownself?
One day your heart will break
Angels will fall
I can see your heart
Covered with a layer of glass dreams
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