Hope
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01. Hope
02. Complete me
03. Cowardice
04. Daijoubu (It's alright)
05. Dekinai (I Can't)
06. Wasureta Kimi ni (For you, who has been forgotten)
07. Leave
08. The Letter "Goodbye"
09. back in a SMILE
10. More
11. Itsu Datte Shinjitakute (I always want to believe)
12. Scribbles
01. Hope
Everyone's smiling
I don't understand
Everything is sad
It's so different now
I know how happy feels
Something new to miss
Will you hold me now?
I can't be alone now.
I know how it goes
It hides love away
So I watch it close
But it gets me
And though it hurts
It's different now
You hold my hope
Something new to reach
Can you hear me now?
I can't be alone now.
I can't find my way out
Alone
Everyone's smiling
I don't understand
'Cause this gets me
Everything is sad
It's so different now
I know what's gone
Something new to feel
Will you hold me now?
I can't be alone now.
Oh, make it dissapear,
Am I ever going to feel
My whole self again?
I sit here and see
Everything pass through me
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02. Complete Me
I sit here and wait for you to complete me
Like a flower ready to bloom I need spring
Colors float in and out of my line of vision
I watch the rainbow flowing free in life
Brought on by the freshly fallen rain
I've been waiting for you
Touching, touching
But something's missing
It's just the way you are
I'm standing fine on my own
But now you've come and gone
And I'm reaching for you saying
"Complete me, complete me"
I sit here and fight against these chains I put on
Like a hostage waiting to die I finally cherish life
Black and white floats in and out of my line of vision
I watch the familiar pain flowing free outside of me
Brought on by the same freshly fallen rain
I've been hiding from you
Touching, touching
Oh, what is missing?
It's just the way you are
I was fine on my own before
See, now you've come and gone
And I'm running from you saying
"Cut me free, cut me free"
The power you hold over me
If only you knew
The things you'd do to me
But you let go of my hand
Say there's things to do
Oh, the things you do to me
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03. Cowardice
Standing alone
Because everyone left before me
It's my own fault I'm waiting here
Debating the way I want things to go
And they roll their eyes and say "go!"
Because they don't understand this
Why am I scared? Why am I scared?
I've thought about this before
I want to go somewhere eventually
But I'm not ready now, not right now
Why am I scared? Why am I scared?
Crawling along
Because I don't want to be seen
It's my own fault for being this way
Debating every move I could make
They roll their eyes and say "move!"
Because they don't understand
If I don't want to go that way
Am I still wrong? Am I still wrong?
With smiles, saying "Choose your poison,
Choose it well Ah, too late
You're goin to get along well here"
It's because you're so beautiful
I don't want to leave you alone
But I've let you go ahead of me
And if I never come back...
Will you miss me? Will you miss me?
At all?
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04. Daijoubu :: It's alright
Feelin so compressed,
As if all my worries
Will crush my heart
These corners I fit in
Are here because of me
You tell me it doesn't matter
And when you hold me close
I almost believe you
So if I stand up
And do something
Will I feel better?
I wanna tell you
Always and forever
You tell me it doesn't matter
Start movin and hold on tight
I wanna believe you
All these layers covering my heart
You tell me stop worryin, it's alright
But when you let me go
It all comes back
And I don't know
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05. Dekinai :: I Can't
I know that when I let it in
Nothing will be the same again
So it stalks around my heart
And I watch it close
Considering ways to
Make it dissapear
I can't because they won't approve
I can't because we are being foolish
I can't because I have a headache
I can't because I don't have time
There's plenty of people here
To hear me talk; I don't need you
So stop stalking around my heart
I can't watch you all the time
There's only so many ways
To make you dissapear
I can't because I'm too young
I can't because we're not closer
I can't because I'm tired today
I can't because I'm not stronger
I don't want to be close to you
I tell myself, but now that I"m here
I don't want to be further from you
I can't because I'm not confident
I can't because I'm not alone
I can't because I'm sad without you
I can't because I need you
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06. Wasureta Kimi ni :: For you, who has been forgotten
You've felt this
Invading your veins
Becoming familiar
Replacable
That's what you are
But even if you're
Forgotten
How bad can it be?
You've never
Forgotten
This feeling,
Your constant
And when this ends,
It'll come back to you
Never gone, not for long
It belongs to you
Together, always
And when you move away,
It'll wait
Because you'll come back
Always, together
Irreplaceable
That's what you are
If you never believed
She'd have been hurt
But now you're the one
Laying forgotten
Like an old toy
Replaceable
That's what you are
Always the same
Why would they know?
That's why they come
And go
This feeling
Constant
Inside
And if it's gone
You're waiting
Because it'll come back
While you're calling out
"Come back"
Always, for you
It waits
Always, for this
You wait
But what they say
What's so bad about it?
Replaceable
That's how they are
Take what they've left
And move
on
You've got
Peices
of them
in you
Peices
They've lost
And with every move
They lose more
Till they're alone
This feeling
So new
They never knew
But you
Familiar
Constant
Irreplaceable
Forever
Always
Together
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07. Leave
I've never been here before
But it's too cold inside
To have you walkin around
With that smile in your eye
I'm tired of telling you
I'm runnin away, runnin away
Cuz that's all I ever do
But with you, I wanna say
"Baby, stay with me"
Make all my dreams come true
We can make believe
Everything's always alright
Oh, I'll be alright
As long as you never leave
We only need to barely touch,
But all I feel is your absence
You said you'd be right back
But I'm missin you now
I'm tired of telling you
I don't care, don't care
Cuz that's all I ever do
With you, I wanna stay
"Baby, I need you"
Make all my dreams come true
We can make believe
Nothing'll go wrong
No, we'll be alright
As long as you never leave
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08. The Letter "Goodbye"
I gave you back your book
And you gave me a letter
Saying everything I was feeling inside
I never said goodbye
Though I tried
You spoke as if you'd never see me again
That's what this is for, right?
But we're the same
Spending so much time
Pretending we don't feel
And I'm insane
Playing with my feelings
Pretenting I know where I'm going
But I've never been here before
I gave you your book
Right before we left that morning
And you gave me a letter
Saying not to read it
Till you were gone
This is your goodbye, isn't it?
You just couldn't say it,
No matter how hard you tried.
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09. back in a SMILE
I get so tired of
This mask I'm wearing
And they keep saying
"Oh, I love you, I love you"
What part of me have you seen?
Oh, nothing real, nothing real
So I tell myself I'm not scared
When I smile and say
"Oh, it's too bad you have to go"
And never have the intention
Of following through
I'm so damn tired of
People coming and going
Shut up, I'm busy here
Telling myself it's not my fault
Who are you to say it is so?
I'm telling you, I'm not dead
Just because I smile and say
"Oh, I'm so sorry I have to go"
But I've got no intention
Of following up with you
You think you're the first one
To never touch me and say
"Oh, I love you, I love you"
I'm so damn tired of hearing it
No one loves me, not like that
How can you love a stranger?
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10. More
Hear me out
I'm not saying we're wrong,
That I can't find enough here
I've decided that
You're what makes me
It's just something's missing, sitting
Like a shadow over my heart
Making me sad
Even with you
I don't know how to say
I need you
Beyond, beyond love, it's beyond
Without you I am lost
But this isn't enough,
No words are enough
And I'm feeling sad,
I want to give you more,
And more and more
Hear me out
I'm not crying from sadness
It's just that I'm incomplete
I've decided that
You're what I need
I'm alone in the most crowded street,
Feel lost without you near
Making me sad
Without you
Though I know you're aware
I need you
Beyond, beyond that, it's beyond
Everything I said before
It wasn't enough,
Nothing I've said's enough
I'm searching for ways
I have to give you more,
And more and more
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11. Itsu Datte Shinjitakute :: I always want to believe
Nothing works out the way I want it
Is that what's wrong here?
I'm waiting in what feels like darkness
Though my eyes are seeing daylight.
Constricting, everything is under watch
Bounderies are streached and yet
There's a line we follow along
Don't tell me.
I know.
I should pack up and go home. Right now.
Doesn't even matter where I want to be.
Everything starts out with hope,
Is there too much with me?
I'm trying to understand this darkness
Through your eyes all you see is daylight
Under construction, my heart is being built
Pushing against everything I've ever followed blindly
Against this line I should never have walked, or left
Or something
Don't say it.
I know.
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12. Scribbles
The loosely fitting excuses
Are there to hide things away
And though things get explained
With most truths and white lies,
No one believes what's said
But it's never been about their beliefs
It was that moment,
When leaving was correct
But staying was right
That everything fell into place
And now there's nothing to debate
It's about what's inside us,
And never about what's inside them
Yes, who doesn't know
What everyone else would do?
But I've never wanted to be
Like everyone else
So why don't we work on
Becoming like us?
Because we feel so much better
The loosely fitting layers
Hid away what was left of me
And explained the rest away
But scribbles on the inside wall
Showed through to you
When no one else believed
It was that moment,
When loving wasn't correct
But it felt so right
That everything fell into place
No matter how you try to debate it,
It's about us, just us now
And nothing to do with them
Oh, who doesn't know
What everyone else would do?
Since when did you care
About everyone else?
Let's work on becoming
Nothing but us
Because I like the way we feel
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