Inside / Outside
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01. Dear Matt, Love Fufu
02. Sleep Sweet
03. Conspicuous
04. Carry On
05. Missing
06. /////
07. From You
08. Tippy-Toe
09. 09
10. Inside / Outside
11. DJ
12. Maven
13. Wind
14. The Emptiness
15. Sham
16. To The End
17. meisai [Japanese]
01. Dear Matt, Love Fufu [3:21]
I don't know what it is,
But every time you smile
I'm smiling back at you
And I don't know what it is
But every time I know you're sad
I end up sad, the same as you
You're world is crumbling down,
Falling all around your feet
And I'm standing by, watching
I just don't know what to do
If I could just hold you, I would
Please understand what you mean to me
Because sometimes I worry you've
Forgotten to remember what I said
I don't know what it is,
But every time I think of you
I wonder how you're doing
I can't figure out what it is,
But I'm alone and I'm wishing,
Wishing on a star to see you again
The world is crumbling down,
Falling all around our feet
And they're standing by, watching
They say they don't know what to do
If I could just hold you, I would
Please understand what you mean to me
Sometimes, I really do worry you've
Forgotten to remember what I meant to say
If I could just see you, I would
Please understand that I'm wishing for you
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02. Sleep Sweet
So I walked around town again,
All day, all around this place
I couldn't bear to stay at home
Where all we do is scream, cry,
And watch eachother die
We love to kill with our words,
What is left when we've said it all?
Sleep sweet, sleep sweet, sweet dreams, my love
Sleep sweet, sleep sweet, sweet dreams, my love
And the heartbreak feels so sad,
Don't you ever let it keep you down
Said I'd come back home again
But I took the whole day to stay away
I didn't want to see that place
All it is, is screaming, and crying
And pain in every dying word
I spent all my voice screaming,
Now I have to work to get it back
Sleep sweet, sleep sweet, sweet dreams, my love
Sleep sweet, sleep sweet, sweet dreams, my love
And the earthquake in your heart,
Don't you ever let it keep you down
We love to kill with our words,
But what is left when we've said it all?
I've spent all my voice screaming,
Can I work for more at your place?
Another lovely day, is just another lonely day
This family is so mixed up, I think we're beyond help
No one can save us now, who can save us now?
Sleep sweet, sleep sweet, sweet dreams, my love...
And the earthquake...
And the heartbreak feels so sad,
Don't you ever let it keep you...
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03. Conspicuous
And it's all that I can do
To keep my face turned away
If you're strong because you cry,
Why can't you make me feel that way?
All I feel is weak and lonely,
I feel like I shouldn't be crying
What did I do to warrent this?
What did I do today?
I'm still and lonely,
I keep telling myself to move,
But I can't find the will
I just want to curl up alone
If it's okay to cry,
Why do I not feel okay?
If you're strong when you cry,
Why do I not feel strong?
I'm feeling weak and lonely,
I just want someone to hold me,
But I'll never ask you to,
And I'll never tell you what I need
It's just so clear to me
We'll never make it through this,
Not the way you want to
I'm sorry I can't be what you need
This is all I can do.
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04. Carry On
With Credits to Savage Garden,
May they carry on dancing
You say you'll be back,
But I'll be gone before then
I can only wait so long
Alone under the moonlight
Carry on, keep romancing
Carry on, carry on dancing
In the moonlight, in the moonlight
You say you'll love me,
But I've been loved before and
I can take only so much of this,
In the shadows from the moonlight
Carry on, keep romancing
Carry on, carry on dancing
In the moonlight, in the moonlight
I wasn't meant for this,
You say you'll be back but
I'm not safe waiting here
Alone, under the moonlight
The hope is gone to move under
[The moon, where you say you'll love me
I can only hide here so long,
In the shadows along the walls from]
The moonlight, the moonlight
Carry on, keep romancing
Carry on, carry on dancing
05. Missing
Just when I was missing you again
Our past slipped from the hangers
Where we hung them so carefully
Into a mess we can't understand
Just now they're missing again
It's not important, no
Just like every other day
So why do you have to see me?
You can see me tomarrow, instead
See, my control went missing again
Slipped past my defenses for alone time
And didn't think to take me along
I'm left in a mess I can't understand
Just when I was missing you again
I can't cry for you anymore,
I can't begin to feel for you
Everything that I used to feel
You dash the pieces every time
Just when I'm missing you again
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06.
07. From You
I know it doesn't mean much to you,
After all it's only me,
But could you just think about it,
If this was you what would you do?
You'd want everything I'm asking for,
And you'd expect the world to give it to you
I don't want diamond rings,
I don't want expensive things,
I don't want anything that money can buy me
I want a song from your heart,
I want a special thing just for me,
Made by you, I want, I want...
"Happy Birthday" straight from you
You ask me what I want every day,
And get me what I don't ask for
So could you just think about it,
If this was you how would you feel?
You see I just want a few simple things,
I only expect for someone to look at me and care
I don't want clothes and things,
I don't want gold and emerald rings
I don't want anything that you could buy me
I want a special drawing from your heart,
I want a lovely poem, your work of art
Just from you, I want, I want...
"Happy Birthday" straight from your lips
You sigh and tell me that your tired,
Why don't we just get it to go and eat at home?
You scream at her and tell her what she's doing wrong again,
You tell me I'm not doing good enough at all, at all...
I'm not asking for diamond rings,
Or bracelets with hearts to circle my wrist...
I don't care about those things.
I'm not asking for clothes and things,
I don't want CDs, I don't want anything
That money can buy...
I just want a special thing,
Straight from your heart
Tell me that you love me,
Say it's alright, today
Say it's alright, just today
I want something you mean,
I want to not be the one that's comprimising,
Just tell me "Happy Birthday"
That's all I want from you,
That's all I want from you
It's all I'll ever ask of you...
So please... understand what I'm saying...
"I love you, Happy Birthday"
From you.
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08. Tippy Toe
La la la...
It's cruely calculated,
Yet still unpredictable
Find the vibe, find the tune
You dance to their tune,
Or you don't dance at all
La la la...
It's a cacophony inside,
Sounds too hard to follow
Find the pattern, find the beat
You get up and do it well,
Or you don't do it at all
La la la...
It's a beautiful movement,
Graceful moves meant for love,
You find the heart, find your place
You get up and give it your soul,
Or you don't get up at all
La la la...
It's a moment without choice,
Something you're required to do,
So you find your best, find your courage
You dance with your everything,
And you will dance no matter what
Tippy-toe...
Your soul doesn't touch the ground
Unless it's the perfect moment,
So find that moment, find your timing
You dance on your tippy-toes,
And you had better do it well
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09.
I hate it...
I'm this close to saying I hate you
It's all about you, everything's you
Well what about me? I'm still here.
And I'm dying...
I'm this close to saying I give up
It's all a lie, everything's lies
Just drop away. I'm not living here.
Forget it...
I'm this close to messing my life up
It's all the same, everything's the same
I'm just fading away, I'm not here anymore
Hey, what about me?
Do you remember me?
I was with you once,
Oh, once upon a time
We'd laugh sometimes,
I'd share my tears with you,
We could smile together
Once, oh, if only once
And now I'm just a burden,
You'd rather do without
But you can't say that,
No, that's not right to say
But it's true...
I'm this close to saying I'm leaving
I hate it here, I hate everything
'Cause what about me? This is all you.
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10. Inside / Outside
Written to the tune of a song
written by Ash Kampta entitled
"Sequencing Assignment 2002,"
which previously had no words.
All these things from outside are
Driving me crazy, throwing me around inside
Outside I'm still standing tall,
Holding ground and acting like I don't need to
But I'm falling apart inside. Here.
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11. DJ
With Credits to m-flo.
I paced back and forth
In a backyard in California
Listening to the words
"DJ, Play that music louder."
Now I pace back and forth
In a room in some other place
Listening to those same words
Sung to a different mix of sounds
"I miss you, I miss you, I miss you
With you, With you, With you"
I wanna rock with you
DJ, play that music louder
Onegai (please)
Now I'm trying to figure out,
Do we always sing the same song,
But change the music we dance to?
Or is it the words that we change?
I keep wondering about it
How often do we change,
Or are we just always the same?
"Don't call it a come back"
Yeah, I wanna run with you
You never thought it'd end up
Like this
I'm gonna go my way tonight,
Just let it be.
I've got to go.
DJ, Play that music louder.
I'm gonna go my way tonight.
Just let it be.
You've got to go.
DJ, play that music louder.
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12. Maven
rz.com; dc.com; "A person who has special knowledge or experience; an expert."
Caught a shooting star
Driving in your car
When I ran away
And you felt you had
To bring me back
It's no special star,
Like all the other ones
Sitting in the sky
But you were hoping
For something good
He didn't mean it when
He told me that the other night
But I can see that you meant to be
Everything that I ever wanted
But I didn't ever want you to
Change yourself
So you told me everything
That you thought I wanted to be told
Can we keep the road moving now?
I don't want to stay sitting still
I want to know you mean
Everything you say to me
So you told me everything
That you could think of about yourself
Isn't there more love?
Doesn't anyone
Come along today
Because they want to?
Or is it all with
Having to?
You reached up and
Caught that elusive star
Outlining the sky
And now you don't
Know what to do
You can't throw things
Back because you've got it finally
Still I can see that you meant to be
Everything that you could ever be
But you're still trying to learn how
To really change yourself
So you told me that you were going
To a place far away so you could learn
Don't stop the road moving now
You can't stay sitting still
You have to be sure that you
Really mean what you're saying
So tell me everything
That you can think of to be the truth
And show me there's more.
But I can see that you meant to be
Everything that I ever wanted
But I didn't ever want you to
Change yourself
So you told me that you were going
To a place far away so you could learn
Can we keep the road moving now?
I don't want to stay sitting still
I want to know you mean
Everything you're saying to me
So tell me everything
That you can think of to say
Isn't there more truth?
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13.Wind
Just another dull moment in paradise
You think it's exciting
But I go through this every day
It gets so old, so fast
To the man watching with disdane in his eyes
Maybe you should live this world every day
I don't want anyone to care anymore,
I just want this cold wind to blow by
And leave me here
And I don't care
If you care
Just another dull person to play down
You think I'm lookin for pity
But I'm just looking to get rid of you
This gets so old, so fast
To the one who thinks I should give a damn
Maybe you should live here every day
I don't care about anyone anymore
I just want this cold wind to blow on by
And leave me alone
There's a time limit on everything
And this is it now.
You can keep that if you want,
It's just a moment in time
I'm not one to stop and think
Of what you left behind.
To my love who thought I would cry for him
Maybe you should of gotten to know me better
I don't want anyone to care anymore
I just want the cold wind to blown on by
And leave me alone
To the one who thought we didn't ever try
Maybe you should live this world every day
I don't want anyone to understand anymore,
I just want this cold wind to blow by
And leave me here
And I don't care
If you care
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14. The Emptiness
I'm writing to the emptiness
Hello, hello, how are you now?
I'm falling more and more into you,
But you don't mind holding me close
I'm looking at the fulfilled ones,
Hello, Goodbye, thanks for stopping by
You tease with tastes and walk away,
But I'm slowly finding peace alone
I'm writing from the emptiness
Hello, Hello, how are you there?
I'm sure I'll never see you again,
But I wanted to write and say to you
Yes, I remember you.
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15. Sham
dc.com; rz.com:n: a person who makes deceitful pretenses//something that is a counterfeit; not what it seems to be
Yeah, everyone notices
But I just pretend they don't
Everybody's got their own theory
And they don't say a word
But you
You asked me
Today
"Do you really like being alone?"
And I said yes... it doesn't bother me.
You gave me a strange look and I smiled
And shrugged the question off
Yeah, everyone's learned now
I'm not wanting to talk to them
So they can talk among themselves
And pretend that I'm not here
You sat
Across from me
Today
"Don't you ever want someone around?"
And I said yeah... maybe sometimes.
You gave me a searching look and I smiled
And shrugged your question off
Yeah, they all notice
And just pretend they don't
Yeah, everyone's got ideas
And pretend that they don't
"Is that all? Doesn't seem complicated..."
And then you went on talking to her
About something else, unrelated to me
And I smiled and shrugged your questions off
And you
You asked me
Today
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16. To The End
You were lookin at me,
And I was lookin at you
You were waitin for me
And I was waitin for you
We were standing alone,
Watching our battle zones
Dance the night away
As we battled silently
Who's gonna give in to the demand?
Who's gonna be the first to fall in?
Someone's gonna hold out to the end.
You were workin your side,
And I was workin my side
You were tryin to get me
And I was tryin to get you
Pretending we're not alone,
Working the battle zone
They're dancing the night away,
In our personal war zone
Who's gonna give in to the desire?
Who's gonna be the one to come over?
Someone's gonna hold out to the end.
You were lookin at me,
Sayin you were lookin at her
And I was lookin at you
Sayin I was lookin at him
Who's gonna give in to the desire?
Who's gonna be the first to give it up?
Are we gonna play this out to the end?
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17. meisai
Japanese // eng: details, obvious; camouflage, disguise.
[Nothing undercover here,
everything's obvious to me
See for yourself what we've done,
nothing has changed here]
Like crumbled up snow in the middle of June,
You know it's just not gonna be
While flowers bloom at nine and die at noon,
You know it's just meant to be
What can you expect from things?
The expected, or the unexpected?
Pull it out now.
The rest of this is running,
Flowing through the ice of your heart
Everyone else is dancing around,
Throwing their hearts under the weak part
Roll the name off your tongue,
Like the details into the whole
Keep your eyes under disguise,
Like the secret is asleep
Like watching it go slow, then find the moon
You know it's just not meant for you
Like hoping it's in tune and finding it swoons,
You know it was meant for you
What can you wait for to happen?
What you have time for, or what you don't?
Try it out now.
The rest of us are running,
Going through the ice of our heart
You are just dancing around,
Throwing your heart under the weak part
Roll your name off your tongue,
Like details from the whole soul
Keep your eyes camouflaged,
Your secret is asleep and waiting
Expect the unexpected,
Wait for what you need
Expect the unexpected,
Hope you don't need
What you didn't wait for
La la la...
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