Chapter one

When you are little you always ask at least one of your parents What would happen if I just have a twin brother? Sometimes they answer you Oh I´ll be very happy to having you both, or maybe Well I think everything would be as normal as now, Maybe they also answer you that it would be bad an impossible to having the both of you. Well sometimes you just wish to have a twin brother and others not. like me.

I now it is very selfish to just want to be one and to be the center of all your parents attentions but. when you have a twin brother everything is slipt and that includes the love of your parents. I´m not a bad boy it is just that this situation get worse when you are the big brother, you are responsable of your twin, your twin is slow with everything and your parents doesn´t love you.

Yes our parents does not care for us and that is the reason that our mother left us with our father. Our father is not that kind of man that is responsible and work for his family no, no. He is more like a work- colic man, he prefers to be all the day in his work doing who knows what, and returns home just for sleep and kick us in a way to get of all his frustration. Does this have to affect me? Well yes, of course it have. You´ll see in home I´m in charge of everything but my twin always mess all. Sometimes I get hit by my father cause he is my responsability but other times I really would prefer to be kick instead of him. Sometimes I think that my family would be a family without Kouji. How do I get to this conclusion? Well it is very easy. Once my brother, Kouji, and I have to clean all the house and I broke the photo frame of my mother, when our father came home and notice my little accident began to shout like a devil and in less than a second he was in the top of my brother hitting him without mercy. Of course I tell him that I did what I did but he didn´t belive me.

Other prove that I have that he doesn´t like my brother is that Kouji always get hit for everything like if world polution was his fault. My father have him in a close looking state, he didn´t left him live. And I think that that was the reason why Kouji is so nervous when he is around our father and for that he always get beaten. But the reason of all this I don't know but something keeps telling me that Kouji knows the reason but he didn´t want to tell me, I don't know if it is for he is shame or maybe he didn´t know.

But something keeps bothering me. This all live problems where not like this, this suddenly began to happen. But what it never changes was that Kouji always gets yell. Now don't be fool and think that I doesn´t like him. We are twins and we are bond in some way. I always try to help him and it is not only me, we have a friend in common and his name is Takuya. Well he is more my friend cause I know him first. Takuya says that Kouji is just a passive boy, but I think that he is more a jerk cause he didn´t make everyone to respect him and that includes our father. It seams that my father sucks all his soul cause when he is around he is like waiting something happen.

By now it is late but not as late as other times I think that my father is getting out of the car, he will pass the principal door in any minute then. I could feel that Kouji is begining to shake but not for cold, it was of fear. - "Hey don't worry. I´ll go to feed him ok?" - he just nod to me but continues shaking, how does his father do to scare Kouji in that way?.

"Hi father, so how was the work today?" - I think he is in good mood. I began to set the table for him and serve what we have cook earlier with Kouji.

"It was as always, so where is your brother? Is he wake up? Why did he didn´t came here to welcome me?"

"He was not feeling alright so I tell him to stay in bed" - wow he is in good mood cause he doesn´t ask for Kouji´s state, never.

"Tell him then to come here, I need to talk with both of you"

"Can I know the problem?"

"You´ll know"

This was not good, something is not right, he could smell it. Kouichi stand up and went to wake up his brother. - "Kouji wake up, Father wants to talk to us" - This words made Kouji shiver in his bed and very slowly he stand up. - "Hurry up, he is waiting for us, and don't worry it seams that he is in good mood"

When they arrive to the kitchen their father ask them to take a sit so thye did what he ask. - "What are we waiting father" - Kouichi ask cause his father keep as quiet as ever. - "we are waiting for your mother, she just want to talk to us".

Suddenly someone knock the door and Kouji go to open the door, of course all of they know that it was Keiko the twins mother. They could smell her perfume even if she was out of the house. She enter but with a man and both of them sit down in the couch. - "So Heero we see each other again, Hi sons" - how could she enter into the house with that smiling face after she left them. - "You maybe are asking what do I want her? Well I came here cause your father never went to the judge to fix our problems. So I bring here Mr. Togashi that is my lawyer and new houseband too to help me to fix this terrible mistake."

"Hi Mr. Minamoto, nice to meet you"

" Not as I" - the Twins knows by now that their father was becoming anger every moment that pass.

"Please don't be childish Heero. Well this is a simple visit you know, you just have to sign this papers and then I´ll go with my son and you could stay with the other one. So please Kouichi began packing darling we have to go to our new house".

"Hey! Wait up there, why do I Have to STAY with the SLOW one! I want to pick KOUICHI with ME!.

"Well sorry darling, you´ll see the judge have give me the pleasure, well it was more like a order that I have to keep Kouichi with me thing that I´m glad of course and you darling have to keep Kouji. So what you only have to do is to sign and then everything is alright and I go out of your sight and everyone would live happily ever after"

Mr Minamoto was thinking very hard now, he realy doesn´t want to sign that form but he have to and so he did. The boys didn´t have time to react cause in one moment they were normal and the other one they where getting separate by their own parents. Kouichi always have dream of not having all this problems and it was true that he once ask to be the only son but by now he doesn´t want to leave his brother with his father, he knows that they could not live more than two minutes alone... He was going to grab his brother´s hand when other hand grab him and began to pull him toward the door, out of this house of laments.

"Wait! At least let me said good bye to my brother" - He could take advantage of this opportunity and try to escape of this house, he was very proud of himself for just being so love by both of his parents but he could not stop to feel bad cause his brother, no one wants to stay with him, this realy was bad. But looking more carefuly he could see that Kouji wasn´t moving like he was conform with this situation.

"Nice try. But if you want you could say good bye to him here where I could watch you." - mothers they always know everything about you he thought. He doesn´t have the oportunity to hug Kouji for one more time cause his mother hug him and pull him to the car. No one except them move. He wants to cry but he he knows that his mother and this man are not going to do anything to fix the situation for him.

He was now leaving Kouji, leaving him with all the problems ans what was worse leaving him with the person he fear most: his father.

Chapter two:

Kouji´s Side

After his brother left the house with his mother everything went to ruin. He stay in the living too shock to move, he could barely remember when his father went to sleep that night. He couldn´t sleep anymore, no when his father is so close to him now, no when he is alone. His legs could not resist him anymore so he end sit in the cold floor daring not to move, waiting for his brother to come, he knows he would come in the next morning, they could not live so far from each other. He wait until the morning come, looking at the door, waiting for him. He didn´t yelp when his father kick his ribs with the rainy boot, he could feel the pain but he couldn´t move. He was going to stay all the day there waiting for his brother but his plans where interrupted by his father that pull him to the car and drive him to school. School? He doesn´t want to stay there, not today. But he suddenly found himself in the wet street in front of the school. His father was waiting for him to enter and he knows that he had to do it, if not then it would be not a good night.

"Hi Kouji! Where is Kouichi? Why is he not with you now?" - He knows Takuya was friendly in his questions but he was not in mood to answer him, so he stay quiet, not producing a sound. Takuya of course worry about this situation and began with the questions again. He was so persistence that Kouji agree to tell him all the story only if he could leave him alone. Takuya only accept cause he realy wants to know what had happen, but after the story found difficult to keep his promise. He knows that Kouji was realy affected for what was happen, but he understood too that sometimes it is better to be aloneso he left him.

In all the school day Kouji does not pay attention to any class, he was lost in his thoughts waiting for the moment whenschool finish and he could run toward his home to wait his brother and after a two hours of math the tive arrived. But he was in other world when the teacher ask him to stay after class and run away before she could reach him. He was now in his way, running, turning left then right again right and one more left, four blocks of distance.. Three.two.one.. He was finally home. But no one was there. "Maybe he would enter the house in any minute", but the minutes could turn in to hours when you are anxious. Kouichi never show up in that day. Everything was in vain. He doesn´t care for anything anymore. "Maybe he could not show up cause he was busy... yes maybe he will come tomorrow!" he had to have hope, maybe he will come tomorrow and with that phrase he went to sleep.

Next day everything went the same, he had to wait all the school day to finish and after that he run again to his home to wait for his brother but this time with Takuya that wants to talk with Kouichi again. Takuya only stays for a while cause he had to go to his own house to eat, if not his mother will be angry at him. In other case Kouji didn´t have anyone to make him eat so he doidn´t bother for it, he was not hungry cause the emotion to see him again. But Kouichi didn´t show up. "Maybe something is wrong with him, maybe he is sick and mother is not letting go out. Yes that may be." This time he went to bed hoping for his brother to be not sick. He was begining to sleep when he heard a sound that came from the garage. "Oh no!" - He had forgot about his father! He had not prepare the food for him. "He is gonna kill me!" - In a hurry he went to the kitchen and began to see what he could prepare as fast as he can but it was to late, his father was already sit in the kitchen waiting for his food. He was so dead.

Of course the reaction of the man was not good when he found that Kouji does not have prepared the dinner for him. He already knows that he could not trust in this son that for he was more a burden than a son. He could see how shaky the boy was. And he was not going to loose this opportunity to made him pay. He had began hitting him when he found that he looks more like his wife. He realy loves her but he was angry with her too. She had left him with the two boys, the kids where messy specialy the one with long hair, just like his mother. She had never show up since the boys were 5 until two days ago whe she had decide to keep one of the boys, and just the one that he trusts more, leaving him with the one that mess and destroy all the things. He had to admit that it was very relaxing to kick the boy until he bleeds, and it was funny to hear him cry.

This time Kouji was alone, he had no brother that would fight for him against his father, there was no one who said stop. He was so dead. He knows that his father would not stop until he bleeds or loose consiuous, whatever came first. He seems to enjoy hitting him, But why? Does he do something wrong? Why always he? Now he was just stand in front of his father getting hit by him, being samsh against the walls, the table, the floor. after ten minutes his ankle was twist and his nose was bleeding fast, he could not breath without feeling pain. He had some pieces of a broken dish in his left arm, and he could sense every buise in his body. His father left him there, bleeding in the middle of the kitchen, alone as he ever were.

When he woke up his father was not there, probably he had gone to work. He could not stand up so he try to cradle to the bathroom to try to fix his wounds. He stay all the day there trying take the pieces out of his arm. In the afternoon someone call the door. Maybe it was his brother! He thought but when he look trough the window he found that instead of his brother it was Takuya. He was not going to let Takuya see him in that state so he doesn´t answer him and try not to do any sound, after a while Takuya left the house, he was alone again.

When the night came he began to wonder why did his brother have not come to see him. Maybe mother didn´t let him to come, tha would be the only reason cause there would be no force except her that didn´t let him to come. Everything hurt so he decide to sleep and wish that all the pain disappeard. He sleep dreaming of his brother and what he would be doing by now.he was dreaming that he will see him soon when a sun light touch his skin and suddenly a big shadows cover him and grab him by his pony tail. it was his father. But why is he here in the morning? He should be working by now.

"So little filth? I see you have not clean the house. and I was planing to give you a gift. But I see that you diidn´t deserv it."

"I don't want a gift" - he dare to talk this time, he never dare to do that.- "I just want to see my brother! No let me go!"

"What a surprise! It was my gift. I was going to drive you to see him but now I´m not going to. You didn´t deserv it!" - and with that he let him fell.

"I don't belive you."

"Don't you? Well now I-m going to drive you but. I don't think he would be glad to see you. Well you see.. Look at you! You are a disaster! Imagine what will happen when his new friends see at you? Probably they would never dare to talk to your brother anymore, and I don't think your brother is going to take it well. You would be a burden to him. It was going to be your fault if no one talk to your brother anymore.. Could ypu live with that burden?" - he had to admit it . it was true. He was a disaster now but he realy wants to see his brother, it doesn´t matter if it is just for a moment or two blocks of distance, he just want to seee him.

"You are liying to me! He .. never.. You´ll see"

"Ok. Then let´s go!" - Kouji grab one jacket that had a hat and put it on. The ride was very silent and no one talk until they arrive to a beutiful neighborhood, obviously people that lived here have a lot of money. They stop in front of a very big house that had a big garden. And it was a surprise for Kouji when he saw Kouichi coming out of that house. He was going to jump out of the car when a blond girl began to talk to Kouichi. He cold see the girl and she seems nice. His father fallow them with the car until they arrive to the school. Kouji wants to talk to his brother but in this state it was imposible. He had to wait the recess time to try to look at his brother. And the he see him. All the time the girl was by his side. The man that was his father said something that he was very proud that his son had a beautiful girlfriend. So she was Kouichi´s girlfriend. maybe his father was right then. Kouichi was more happy here than with him.

When school finish all the parking lot was full of cars, all to pick up boys and girls but in the mess he could see that his brother walk alone. with the girl again! They walk to what seems the girl´s house that was two times bigger than Kouichi´s. They enter and three hours later he came out but this time alone. He walk two blocks and enter to his house. He was right. Kouichi had forgotten him. He was a burden to him too. He didn´t even try to go and visit him, and probably he would never do. But after all his father seems happy of the escene, and began to drive to the house.

So everyone was against him, no one realy loves him, not even his twin brother. He was so sad that he decide to wait for his own dead. When he finaly arrive home he run to his room and stay there.. He wants to die

Kouichi´s Side

That night he sleep in the new house of his mother, everything was right there, it looks like a perfect home, and it seems like a perfect family, it has a father, a mother and a son.. But for Kouichi something was missing: his brother. It was right that in the moment he was in that home he wished to live there forever and ever, it was true that he likes his new way of living, but it was a lie that he didn´t miss his brother. The night he arrive to that house he could not sleep thinking of what was his brother doing in that moment cause he knows that he barely sleeps when he stays alone with his father. His father.. He was a man and like everybody else he had defects and one of them was his son Kouji. He doesn´t know why? Why did his father doesn´t like Kouji. For Kouichi it was a very nasty thing to do such a lame espectacle in front of them, especialy infront of Kouji, they didn´t have the right to show their preference and lay aside his brother.

He promise himself to go next morning to visit Kouji and see how was he, but it happen that he didn´t have time to go or best say his mother didn´t let him to go. In one part she was right cause next morning he has to go to his new school. His new school was much better that the other one that was public. In his classroom where a lot of rich kids, they where something like fifteen girls and fifteen boys including him of course. At the begining no one dare to speak with him but after a while everyone try to make a conversation with him. At first he didn´t understand why the hell everyone wants to be his friend and the reason was that the most popular girl in the school has put her eyes on him. This girl was realy beauty, she had blue eyes, blond silk long hair, he could say that it was as long and silk as Kouji´s. She was the one that try to welcome him in the school. That day was a glory. After school he had to stay as the other ones cause after school is when the football clases start and other tipes too. He was not good in football but at least he knows how to play.

When he finish he went to take a bath as the other ones do, the bathroom was as clean as his new house, he loves this place. He get dressed and began to walk toward the front door. He doesn´t know what bus he had to take to go to visit his brother so he decide to ask someone in the bus station, he was walking when a hand grab his shoulder and pull him a little. "Damm" he said to himself, "now what?". He turn and found that girl that continue pulling his jacket.

"w-what?"

"Well I was thinking that maybe you.. You could walk me to my house cause I ask George to not pick me up today. I want to go with you". - Wow this girl was direct he thought. He wants to walk her home but he also wants to see his brother. - " What do you say?"

"Ok, I´ll go, but where do you live?" - he was hoping that the girl lives near the school so he could go and see his brother after all.

"Well. I live just a few blocks from here" - yes! Someone up there loves him,

"Ok. so what are we waiting? Let´s go!" - They began to walk to the girl´s house that lives two blocks away of his own house. During the walk he learn that the girl´s name was Izumi and his family has a lot of propieties and her father owns a bank. When they arrive to her house she and her mother invite him to dinner. He doesn´t want to dinner but he couldn´t deny the invitation cause it was not well see, so he have to stay. But the time he finish it was to late and the sun was no more in the sky, instead there where a lot of stars and a full moon lights the city.

He have no other option than to walk home. His mother was waiting for him in the door, it seams that she was angry but when she hear that he was friend of Izumi now her face change and she ask him why he didn´t stay there any longer. It seams that his mother loves more the wallet than the girl.

Next day was the same, and for Kouichi it became a rutine. Everyday he try to go and see his brother but a thing or another didn´t let him to go and realized his own plans. One day after three weeks when he had adapted to his new live he could find enough time to go and see how his brother was now. He was worried when he went cause he found Takuya, probably walking home after school alone. They always walked to school and walked home together with Kouji but this time he was alone. He run to his old friend one cause he wants to talk to him and two and the most important he wants to know about his brother.

Takuya was not the same as always. In other time he would have jump of joy and scream of happiness but this time he was light off.

"What happen Takuya? Don't recognized your friends anymore?"

"It is not that. I´m worried, as worried as you will when you find out".

"What happen? Is something with Kouji.. What happen to him?"

"Happen to him? By the moment he is alive and I think that is a miracle. And part of it is your fault."

"Why? If it is cause my father continues hating him as always? That is not my fault, Kouji knows perfectly well what he had to do and I always said to him that he had to be careful and take it easy, to relax himself to not destroy things around him."

"Are you Kouichi? You look like him but I think that by now it is a rich boy that has put a costume that look just like my old friend. But if you are Kouichi then listen to this carefuly: Your brother is not eating, he miss you, he had not see you in more than three weeks and he feels alone and forgotten cause you didn´t came here to see him and how was he doing. That´s it as simple as that."

"You just don't know. I came here now to see him, I try to come here the next morning but it was impossible! It is dificult to get out of that house, and to come here is other story".

"Of course it is not easy, but it is easier than to live with your father o you just delete that from your memory?"

"Look I don't want to fight with you. Let´s stop with this and come with me to see my brother please. "

"Ok let´s go then, but I hope to see you here at least three days a week, You just don't know how much we miss you mate".

They hugged like if they where brother that hadn´t see each other in months. They walk then toward Kouji´s house. When they arrive Kouichi have the impression that some things never change and one of that this was that house. It looks like an old house, it was very dirty in the outside. He began to look for the key that they always left under a bush. He try to open the door but he found that the door was open. Both boys enter into the house, everything was just like Kouichi left the last time. On the table was the vegetable soup that his brother and him had cook but this time it has a ugly smell. Some plates were broken in the floor and the rice pot was full of a green cover of what seams cotton and had a nasty smell too.

"My brother. did he went to school today?"

"No, I didn´t see him around, that is why I´m worried. He hadn´t come to school since. two week ago. I always come here and knock the door but no one cames. At first I think that maybe your father had leave Kouji in bad state and that that was the reason why he didn´t came to school but by now I don't know."

"Let´s see in the room then." - both boys went to see him and when they open the door they found him. He was sitting on the bed, and was looking at the floor. He was so pale and thin that Kouichi was afraid to touch him.

"Kouji! Hi mate look who had come to see you!"- said takuya as he come closer to Kouji and try to bring him to the real world. He seem so distant.

"Kouji? It is me! Come on! Talk to me! What happen, How are you?"

Slowly, very slowly Kouji began to move but this time his eyes where dull and liveless. - "I was waiting for you, but you didn´t came. Don't worry for me anymore I can take care of myself and I don't want to be a burden for you so continue with your live please".

"What are you talking about? If I came here is for you, cause i want to see you and cause I miss you a lot".

"Don't lie to me. I know it now. You always looks very happy when you went to school every morning, you have a lot of friends too, maybe more than when you where here. Maybe cause I´m not with you. So don't come to me and say that you miss me all this time cause I don't belive you."

"How could you say that? I miss you and."

"I tell you not lie to ME!!!!! I know, thats it! You have time everyday after school to come here to see me but you prefer to walk home your girlfriend and then go to your big house and sleep just to see her next morning. You doesn´t care for me neither!"

"So you where all this time spying me! So you where near me all this time and you where so coward that you can´t say "hello" to me? Now I´m the one that is angry. I was worried, worry about you! And you? You are here cause you are always the victim and i have to do all the stuff for you. Ok if things are like this then.."

"Then what? Are you going to stay with your girlfriend? Go then! I don't care!!!"

"Well then I´m going! I´m going to spend all my time there with her, and if I come here I´m not going to see you, I only will come to see my friend Takuya.!"

"Go then! Loose yourself!!"

"I´ll do"

Kouichi run out of the room, out of the house, out of this part of the city, out of his brothers live. He was worried for him but by now and after all this scence he doesn´t want to be here anymore. When he arrive to his neighborhood hours later he found that in part Kouiji was right, if he realy wants to see his brother why didn´t he give him a space in his schedule, and if somebody have ask him to do something then why didn´t he refuse to do it if it was suposed that he loves his brother? Maybe Takuya was right too. He had forgotten his brother for three weeks.

He doesn´t know what to do for excuse to his brother, for lay him aside. Kouichi continue walking down the street and he didn´t notice that the blond girl was waiting for him. She had to stand up infront of him cause if not maybe Kouichi would never notice her.

"You look worried. What happen to you? You didn´t came to my house this evening, I was worried about you."

"uh.. Sorry I didn´t want to worry about me. I was.. I went to visit my brother, he lives two hours from here."

"I didn´t know you have a brother. Is he the big one or your little brother? How old is he? 7, 9? Why is he not living with you? Oh no don't tell me, he is sick!"

"Well maybe he will get sick after all. His name is Kouji and he is my twin brother. I´m the big brother. And just for answer you and only cause you are my friend . my parents divorce three weeks ago and my brother have to stay with my father. I´m worried about him. he doesn´t like to be with my father."

"Oh my god! I´m so sorry.. I didn´t know, you never told me that.. So how is he?"

"Thank you for ask. He is depress, and he is angry with me cause I didn´t went to visit him. I know that I didn´t even try to go and visit him but you know with all the homework and the things we do after school I... I couldn´t go. I feel bad about that."

"Well.. why don't you try to compensate him. If you want maybe we could go with him to the picnic this saturday with your mom and if he accept with your father too. I can tell to my parents and they will agree with me, I´m going to ask them."

"It is very sweet of you, thank you but I don't think that my father will agree. My mother have to be more than death to denny the invitation."

"Perfect then! Well then why don't you go now and when you get home call to your brother and tell him our plans. He doesn´t need to bring anything I´ll put the dinner of course and that includes dessert."

"Thank you! I mean for all what you are doing." - Kouichi kiss her in her cheek but the girl move a little his face and he touch her lips, think that Izumi doesn´t take care of.

"See you tomorrow then!"

Kouichi stays in the corner of the block for a while trying to think what had happen moments earlier and he could not stop smiling. It was pretty bad his fight with his brother but that kiss was been more a strong feeling than his fight and to be truth it have shake his floor. He get into his house and began to prepare things for the picnic. First of all he had tell the event to his mother and then he call to his old house, now that he had phone, but no one answer the phone there so he leave a messaje in the answer machine. He was hoping that his brother would agree to go but after the fight.. He was not so sure now.

TBC