April 23, 1999 It seems that every time I resolve to get better about writing in this journal, I get worse. I want to work on this more often, but it often seems that I do not have the time to do so. Lame excuse, right? I don't think so. Part of the problem is that this web site is anonymous, BUT I don't really have a place to work on it. My computer will not hook up correctly from home. So, as I sit here and write I am at my office computer (community office computer). When I am in the mood to add and edit my pages, I am at home and don't want to come back to work. However, I have 2 cousins, one 15 and the other 17 who are going to fix up my computer this summer so that I (a)will have a computer that is fast (I have a 486 DX now) and (b) will be able to use the internet from home. Ahhh....the nice things in life. The last few months have had their crazy moments. There is no way in the world I can update everything because even I cannot remember it all. The big news though is that Mademoiselle will be publishing my story in the June edition, this year! That is only a few short weeks away. I am a bit excited, but also a bit nervous and scared about the reaction. I hope most of it is positive and that people actually read it. We will see. Well, I have some topics that I definitely want to discuss...the one that comes to my mind most is Littleton, CO. I am still upset about that. Where I am at is a student who went to that high school. His sister was in school that day. Luckily, she is okay (physically at least), but the whole affair has touched each of our lives here. Last night though I became inspired. So, today I set up a table where students and faculty and others could write down prayers and thoughts for those in Littleton. Now that idea is snowballing. Tonight a group of people is getting together and making small crosses to put in the "care" package to Littleton. In addition, we will be sending flowers. Then a group of RAs will be putting together a prayer vigil to be held later next week. People feel this huge need to help out others or to do something than just sit in horror as we watch the news. I am glad that one small idea that was inspired by watching a news report has become much more. It is finding a way to unite this whole community. My prayers do go out every day to the students at that high school, their families, the parents of the two boys who killed and injured so many, and that community.