differential monogamy
with he on one side
i opposing
2 boxers in a ring
the ref lost
somewhere in between
his hand and my thighs
darkness and moisture overcome
much like a veil
over a lampshade-
cheap and easy
not to be bothered
with TLC or
handle with care notions
pasting the label
yourself not so easy
the glue doesn't stick
and the notion not so trusted
"its ok"- "it won't hurt"
"everyone does it"
"i want you so badly"
"i just want inside"
"let me in. . ."
the reasons
rationales go everywhere
but inside
i block the pathway
not only to my cunt
but my heart
because Love and sex
are conjoined
at the hip
and i won't perform surgery
not now, not ever
to fuck and not make Love
is not within my realm
of understanding. . .
so- i won't.
body and mind
are more important
than pleasure and passion
a moment of pure ecstasy
in orgasm lessened
if eternity of heart isn't near-
so i wait
perhaps for that very eternity
for the man that can make Love to me
not just fill me
with notions of the fuck.

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