i stand-
almost erect
the weight on my shoulders-
my own
i put it there,
alone- 
vast space on either side
whiteness, blankness, emptiness.
shivering and cold
drenched- soaking
from the reign
of humiliation 
frigid due to storms
of past present and future
confused and lost
with closed eyes
trying to find my way
through my own darkness
without complicating
outside matters
witout concerning the whiteness
disrupting the chaos
self contained
and self proclaimed
denial of want-
heart open, but caged
unconsciously- no key
lost- depths of sea-
deep blue- maybe vast
perhaps empty
waiting-approachment
rescue-anything
that i can't scare
away. . .