Relationships
Being involved in a serious relationship when you’re young is tough. When everybody around you is just dating, an occasional hook up, maybe a short relationship, but nothing to serious. Then you look at yourself, and your life is one person. You talk to that person 10 times a day, see them as often as possible, and that’s usually like 5 or 6 days a week, sometimes even 7. When you go out it is assumed that you are going out with your significant other. You have mutual friends, and if they are not mutual than they will be. The whole idea of this kind of relationship scares many people my age. But, I love it. I have been fortunate enough to have had two relationships like this. However, what happens to you when that person leaves you? If your whole life was them, then you feel like your life is over. I am been unfortunate enough to have experienced this twice. It’s tough, but I got through the first one and I am in the process of getting through the second. I think the hardest part is the idea that the same person who promised to love you forever doesn’t love you anymore. When you opened up to them and trusted them with everything and now they barely even care about you. Sure they say they care, but not enough and not in the way you wish they did. For me it was the hardest because I thought that this girl was the one and only person on this planet that really truly loved me and wanted me for me and would stick through me through anything and loved me unconditionally in a way that no one else ever has. But, what happens when that one person doesn’t love you anymore????
3/24/99