A tribute to John Thomas Ytuarte
Don't think of him as gone away
his journeys just begun
life holds so many facets
this earth is only one.
Just think of him as resting
from the sorrows and the tears
in a place of warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years.
Think of how he must be wishing
that we could know today
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.
Think of him as living
in the hearts of those he touched
for nothing loved so much is ever lost
and he was loved so very much.
L. Brenneman
Through the years, you and I have been through many trials and tribulations, we have shared many secrets and tears and lots of laughter. I did not realize until you were gone how much laughter we had together. I will forever miss you and your special smile. Not a day will go by that I will not think of
you. You, John, were one of a kind, you had a way of making people feel they were very special, you made them laugh at themselves, so many times I was the brunt of your jokes, I hate to admit but you caused me to laugh at myself too.
You have too beautiful sons that I hope will have a legacy to you in this page. The hardest part of today is realizing you will not be with me to share tomorrow. Sometimes I try to talk to you just to prove that I know you are there with me, the sad part is you cannot answer me anymore. I regret that I did not talk to you more often when you were here. Sometimes it is too hard to believe that you really are gone from my physical life. I am thankful that you and I shared the time together that we did, I guess God knew what he was doing when you and Kim and the boys moved in. I shared with a friend the other day that when someone you truly love dies you cannot bury them because in your heart you have a funeral everyday. I did not realize how real those words were until I wrote them down on paper, it says it all. I love you John today, tomorrow and the rest of my life. If you can just look down at me once in awhile and smile I will look up to the heavens and smile back at you.
Your Sister
Lorraine
the way you did today,
while thinking of the many things,
you didn't get to say
I know how much you love me,
it's as much as I love you,
The memories and photographs
will also help you too.
As your life goes on without me,
please try to understand,
It was not because I chose to go
God came and took my hand
I asked if you could carry on
you had already been through so much
God told me not to worry
he would guide you with his touch
As I turned to walk away,
a tear fell from my eye,
I looked at God to say,
I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
so much yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible,
that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
the good ones and the bad,
I thought of all the love we shared,
and all the fun we had.
If I could take back tomorrow
I would ask you for a smile,
You always worried about me,
Only stopping for a while.
when I thought of all the things,
I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did,
my heart was filled with sorrow.
When I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
I saw the journey I was taking
was for me to take alone
This journey is a long one
And you will have made many leaps and strides
Know I will love you always,
and will always be at your side.
Written & Copywritten by
Lorraine Anctil
To her brother John
March 15, 1999
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