It's suffice to say things have gone wild since I left the States. Hah. My nerves are hard as rock and I spend my days talking to bank and post office people, calling my school to trace a check that simply hasn't arrived. I don't even have the energy to get mad.

A check I've been expecting to arrive since may 15 still hasn't - that's $943 that were to sort everything financial out this summer. Foolishly I trusted that people do their job, and now I end up looking like a moron, putting Aziza in a horrid financial situation, and I hate having to once again explain what's gone wrong and why and how it has been out of my hands. I only amount to sounding so stupid and wrong as it is, and it certainly isn't doing wonders for my credibility, which I've always been so proud over.

I trusted my school to do what at least 4 independent people told me they would before I left - simply to mail my check in envelopes provided by me on may 15. As mail usually takes a week and a half to get here from America, I didn't start to get worried until late last week, when I had to panic-borrow money from my mom and dad and deposit into Aziza's account.

Everything seemed to work out fine. Then I speak with Aziza yesterday and find out only 208 out of the 250 dollars I initially sent had reached her. That's close to 50 dollars that are just... gone somewhere. The second deposit hasn't even reached her as far as I know. I finally get in touch with my school and am told that the check WAS sent. _Last_ week. That's 10 FUCKING DAYS they sat with my check and did nothing until they bothered mailing it. What the HELL kind of professionalism is that? I'm so upset I can't even yell about it, I'm just utterly amazed.

Meanwhile Aziza's left with half the bills paid, and I'm left owing my parents $330 plus terrified that the check isn't going to make it here again.

In the words of Sarah Polley's character in Go... Oh fuck me.

After providing me with about 35-40 movies since I came home the library now seems to not have a single one that I want to watch left. Boo-hoo.

The Sanity Test says: You are 76.3636363636364% insane. You're a loony. .