it's not that i'm beginning to dislike english, don't get me wrong, and i'm not planning to switch languages in this journal, but i'm beginning to re-evaluate my feelings about swedish. i used to feel so weird in swedish, like i couldn't say anything real in it, everything just sounded fake and unoriginaly and smaller and just.. less than it did in english. and now i'm feeling that way about english.

in english i find myself skipping things i would have liked to have written because the words won't come out quite right and give the feeling i want to it, and i don't know the name of any more complex colour shades than "crimson" and there's an ocean of sincerity between the english 'i love you' and the swedish words 'jag älskar dig' because i've said the former a ton of times and the later maybe a handful.