Well it's difficult to say how exactly I got started, I can seem to remember when I was 5 or 6
feeling really weird when I would see a beautiful women on TV or any make up ads on commercials,
but I never really thought about it. One day when I was 8, my older sister and her friend were playing
dressup and trying on makeup, I was always really nosey, so I poked my head in and asked them
what they were doing, one thing led to another and we they spend the whole day dressing me up and
putting makeup on me, they loved it and I kinda thought it was cool, i really liked the way I looked
and the way the makeup smelled. So I guess that's how I got started, from that day I would secretly
sneak in and wear my sisters clothes, I later found out that my sister knew I was wearing her clothes
and that she would purposely leave certain clothes out for me, especially the clothes she outgrew.
But the whole crossdressing thing really started when I was 10, my parents went away for the
weekend, and my sister and I were being babysat by one of our neighbours, she was older she was 17,
she babysat us before and we really liked her. The babysitter was helping my sister with a make over,
they were doing each others hair and stuff, I was in the basement playing video games. I guess my sister
told the babysitter about my previous dressing experiments (oh those darn sisters) and when I took a break
from the video games, I came up stairs and as I was walking by the two girls, the babysitter ask me what
I was doing, I said nothing, and she said that if I wanted to, that I could sit with them and if i wanted to
that I could play with them, I said why would I want to do that, she said it could be fun and that no one
would ever know, I said I was going back to the basement, then my sister said smiling, I told her about you!
I got really mad and started crying, the babysitter calmed me down and we talked for a while, she told me
that it was ok that I dressed and basically she told me to do what ever I wanted to do. She was the person
that changed my opinion about myself, and i thank her for that. We spend the rest of the night dressing
up and putting on make up, every time she would babysit us we would do this until i was 12.
From there i dressed every now and then, but i didn't get serious about it until I was 18, our family
took a trip to New York to visit more family, while there I decided that this would be the perfect time to
buy some women's stuff I bought my first dress, and a comlpete makeup kit, fake nails, I was kinda
uncomfortable about buying that stuff, but no one knew me there, so I went for it, when I got back
home I started to dress about once a week, I was totally a woman, and I started to take pictures.
When i was 19 I moved to Vancouver, I dressed a lot now and I had a female roomate who loved
the idea of me being a woman, I would even go out to gay bars and lesbian bars, I loved dressing up,
but it was at this time that I found dressing like a woman just wasn't enough, before in the bars guys
would hit on me but I just told them i wasn't interested, I talked to my roomate about but i was still
confused, then one night a nice older man asked me to dance at one of the bars, I was just about to
say no thanks, when my roomate nudged me and I said yes, well that was it he was a really sweet man
and he kissed me at the end of the night, and i was sold on guys.
When i was 21 I moved to Toronto where i fell in love with the tg scene, they have really great bars
there, now I still love to dress and I love to go to tg bars, I really want to try performing or waitressing
at one of the bars... don't worry there will be more, i'll be back!
